the self consolation reaching "and youre a victim in another life" is so sad

Claim to Fame (demo) [96kbs]

Been learning not to speak, hold my breath in quiet sighs
ive been having all these dreams bout drowning again
One more glass of wine, smile with nothing in my eyes
Theres something in my mouth and it tastes just like him

And i used to feel something when you changed you mind
And left me rotting at the foot of your bed
Maybe im a little scared youre always on my mind
Maybe i dont want it after all

I fall in love with ghosts, ive been hunting every day
I know just what i want but i break everything i make
I know how this thing works, you forget me by tomorrow and i close my eyes while wide awake
I fall in love with ghosts, i still feel him in my spine
I cry to lady luck, let me roll just one more time
You whisper in your sleep and then vanish in the morning

And i'm lying on the bathroom floor forgetting what i look like
I've been praying for someone to clip my wings
Staying up until the morning, roses sewn into my eyelids
The sheets are stained with blood ill never clean

A kiss like a backhand to the face
I wouldn't wish for something different even on my own life
Three little things i've never heard you say
Sometimes poison tastes like sugar if you make it just right
I set myself on fire and i do it full of love for myself, i don't bite and then tell, no
He likes the fantasy much more than what's in front of the mirror, watch me cower in fear

And i'm lying on the bathroom floor forgetting what i look like
I've been praying for someone to clip my wings
Staying up until the morning, roses sewn into my eyelids
The sheets are stained with blood ill never clean

And i thought for a second i was capable of love
Forgotten at the altar with my heart left on the ring
Crying to a stranger, saying prayers to up above
I lie every night, but at the end i only want 1 thing

i’m playing dumb again, looking pretty in his bed
I couldnt stay mad at him if it saved my life
Tell my mom im sorry, im not ever coming back
Not until ive healed the bruises on my thighs

Lucid Fantasy

cover by me
illustration done by my friend anna
prod noct + sgf

[Verse 1: nocturnnne]
uh, uh, it's all eyes on me
brand new coat and i got it for free, she puts me under lock & key
i cant tell her what im trying 2 see
i cant tell her what im trying 2 be, e l l i e
( 3 3 3 3 3 )
three things i could never tell a soul, i don't wanna come back home
i don't wanna see his face, now i smell like his cologne
i do not want her embrace, i just hide inside my phone

[Verse 2: mentholgrrl]
locked me outta heaven, too tall to ride
meander on the streets outside
yeah they'll wave hi, walking in and out
i'll convince myself i'm happy, circle round the same routes
should i really waste my afterlife?
just cause i'm something that you don't despise?
think that it's about time, think it's my turn to define
and a break and enter charge will just have to be the price

[Chorus: Secret Girlfriend]
i could be a shadow in the corner of your eye
unless you love me for the first time
i could be an animal not worth wasting your time
and drown in shame until the day i die
still waiting for the day i feel those wings sprout out my back
i could be an angel flying through the sky
but im a demon to you aren't i

BDY w/ mentholgrrl & Secret Girlfriend

avicii - levels (72crash remix)

it's clear what i want

[premiered @ RESPAWN POINT 2, hosted by https://soundcloud.com/lostfrog] 
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TRACKLIST:
//PART1: ALL I NEED: ME, MYSELF, & FRIENDS//
MADE FOR SET1
MADE FOR SET2
fetchrover - I SHOULD BE DEAD, BUT I'M NOT [threeMixEDIT]
117★FC - RECESSION_INDICATOR [ONI★★★★★★★★]
117★FC - D.W.S. ~electric MIX~ [HARD★★★★★★★] [threeMixEDIT]

//PART2: mytruufeelings//
Bryson Tiller - Right My Wrongs/Nate Sib - take it slow
112 - Cupid/Burial & Four Tet - Nova
Kim Petras & SOPHIE - 1,2,3 dayz up/xaev - Taking all of my energy
beck - sweet talk
Samantha Jade - sweet talk (JR remix) [threeMixEDIT]
SOPHIE – Nothing More To Say (Vox)/Carly Rae Jepsen – Call Me Maybe
SOPHIE - TAKE ME TO DUBAI/BANK - clave/Nadia Oh - Hot Like Wow

//PART3: #ImBack...//
homecollection49 - Dark Horse 22625-17825 [threeMixEDIT]
cay - EYES SHUT/Justin Bieber & Sean Kingston - Eenie Meenie
Olswel - phase party (Put Your Hands Up Your Ass!) [threeMixSlightEdit]
Skrillex - WITH YOU, FRIENDS (LONG DRIVE)/trustt - gain & loss
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truu - "this was fun to make! my first ever set, love to see it. a mix of myself, friends, and inspirations!! enjoy :> ..."

THREEMIX vol.1 [I WAS HERE THE WHOLE TIME]

rare haunts scrapped demo
im a victim of a little manipulation 
and i am a victim of some misinformation 
and i will be a victim in this sorry institution
im a victim til i die

and im an asshole cuz of things i did to loved ones
and i cant get my life back cuz i really never had one
i wanna say your name so bad but its all said and done
i am an asshole til i die

at the edge of august
and the birthday of september
i remember things that they said
i hadnt even graduated yet

the things that you call me on the internet are vile
but i haven't heard the bullshit you claim in a while
i thinkyou’re kinda twisted and you’re living in denial
you are an asshole til you die

but i detest labels that categorize real people
i wouldnt stoop to your level so deceitful
i made your life hell cause you did the same to me, so
we’re all labels til we die

at the edge of august
and the birthday of september
i remember things that they said
i hadnt even graduated yet

i held respect for you until you started lying
and you held respect for me until i started crying
i didnt understand the one night stands were you just trying
that’ll stay with me til i die

and you hold resentment for me, like of course
but the more i hear from friends of friends, the more i feel its getting worse
i hope you moved away and got a bike and got a slime green hearse
but you’ve got a mouth bigger than mine

at the edge of august
and the birthday of september
i remember things you said that were all lies
i am a victim til i die
and youre a victim in another life
and we’re both jaded but at least i try

i am an asshole til i die

@2rel

lately ive been goin up
party sipping double cups
ive been always fuqqin up
feel the slugs we gonna pump
l- lately ive been goin up
party sipping double cups
ive been always fuqqin up
feel the slugs we gonna pump
yea  yea

l- lately ive been goin up
tear dat shit from double cups ,
l- lately ive been goin up
tear dat shit from double cups

walkin make da hoez stop breathing
always rockin converse, since i first seen em
ive been signing hella contracts i can see them
i dont have my contacts on like i cant fkn see ya
i dont have my glasses on like i cant fkn read ya
ive been having problem with my sight like can u see ya

lately ive been goin up
party sipping double cups
ive been always fuqqin up
feel the slugs we gonna pump
l- lately ive been goin up
party sipping double cups
ive been always fuqqin up
feel the slugs we gonna pump
yea  yea

l- lately ive been goin up
tear dat shit from double cups ,
l- lately ive been goin up
tear dat shit from double cups

walkin make da hoez stop breathing
always rockin converse, since i first seen em
ive been signing hella contracts i cant fkn see them
i dont have my contacts on like i cant fkn see ya
i dont have my glasses on like i cant fkn read ya
ive been having problem with my sight like can u see ya

converse prod rel

miss me (smash29k)

Bro, Satan's too scared of us disciples as we are the only ones who know his weaknesses

AGAINST

bobby

@666hardcoreband
@webcage

flipzone ceo

Business contact: dynasticmgmt%gmail.com

i am an asshole til i die

dynastic

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