i wanna make sum dark/alt rap shi with u so bad LMFAO

boondocks part 2 w/ broadus & giovanni (prod. BLKSATURN)

When I'm drunk don't piss me off
Please don't ask what's in my cup
Like what you heard from such and such
She's gonn' believe the thoughts I'm tellin' her
'Cause lightning strikes but once
I bite the gun
She says I'm not enough for her 

I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied
I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied 

When I'm high don't kill my buzz 
I thought she believed in us
I don't even care no more I'd probably bleed out on this rug
You a fantasy I dreamt of you a fading thought for sure 
And within this darkest bedroom I remember who you were 

When I'm drunk don't piss me off
Please don't ask what's in my cup
Like what you heard from such and such
She's gonn' believe the thoughts I'm tellin' her
'Cause lightning strikes but once
I bite the gun
She says I'm not enough for her 

I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied
I don't know my worth
I never learn
Over the hedge not satisfied

spotify

over the hedge w/ jomie (p. yunny goldz)

him <3

lyrics:
telling me that i'm better off dying all alone,
but i wanna be with you, we can finally grow
old together, me and you in cold weather,
i'ma keep my shit with me, i'ma keep my shit together for you

do you hear me? do you think i'm dead?
could you heal me? can i rest my head
on your chest? i'll wake up on your bed,
i wanna tell you 'bout how things were never meant to be

hold me close dear, i don't wanna lose you here,
dropping you, it's the only thing i'm really scared of,
got me full of fear, baby i'm here,
i know that you're worth it cause you act like you're sent from above

canopy

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @citrusgastank
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hope yall ike the new style<3
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lyrics:

met you so long ago,
it was easier,
to stare into your eyes,
i got a fever,
from thinking too much,
now my head is in a rush,
i wish it would all slow down,
it rains too much,

and i dont know-o-ow,
water trickles through my thro-o-oat,
crying never helps, i know-o-ow,
but you cant blame me,
cause you put me through too much,
and now you hate me,

yea now you hate me,
i cant deal with all the nonsense,
its aching,
yea its burning in my throat,
yea, and you already know,
that imma send you on your way next time you back,

raining too much (prod. citrusgastank)

produced by Lxst Boy and splashgvng 
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
@splashgvng

-lyrics-
in the dark I'm afraid
that no one will save me
I cannot see you
the walls are closing
in on me
baby can u hear me?
i am still breathing 
the walls are closing

I'm on my own
yeah I might suffocate
I don't wanna die now
I just need a break
I will never settle down
I live with no reason
I volunteer
to continue breathing

(good luck trying to guess what I'm saying here lol)

yeah I'm insane
get stuck up in my brain
I thought it was over
but I will never change
I will stay the same
even though its not okay
I'm a lost boy
I will never find my way

in the dark I'm afraid
that no one will save me
I cannot see you
the walls are closing
in on me
baby can u hear me?
i am still breathing 
the walls are closing

I'm on my own
yeah I might suffocate
I don't wanna die now
I just need a break
I will never settle down
I live with no reason
I volunteer
to continue breathing

if my bedroom walls could tell our stories (lxst boy x splashgvng)

produced by boyfifty 
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJ7YnhvysdI&feature=youtu.be

-lyrics-
whatever you say tonight 
i don’t really care what’s on your mind
staying up late trying to burn the night
i live in your walls i’m a poltergeist 
i got lxst on the way
to the house in the woods from my memory 
all my friends are dead to me
repeat what you had said to me

take back what i said, im a mess
i don’t wanna die
but in my head it made sense
to try to chase the meteorites 
i got pains in my chest
on these stormy late nights
i got cold when you left
now i’m coming back to life

riptides are throwing me around
hold tight, just seconds from the ground
i got something to say, bae just hear me out
but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now

(woahh oh ohhh)
 
i won’t respond when you say my name
i’m out of time, no i can’t think straight
i’m probably out of touch with my inner state
i am boring, yeah i get it, none of my songs are great
i won’t respond to anything you say
feel that i should pack up and run away
cause if you felt emotion, you would do the same
now i get it, no, lemme get this straight

riptides are throwing me around
hold tight, just seconds from the ground
i got something to say, bae just hear me out
but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now

take back what i said, im a mess
i don’t wanna die
but in my head it made sense
to try to chase the meteorites 
i got pains in my chest
on these stormy late nights
i got cold when you left
now i’m coming back to life

riptides are throwing me around
hold tight, just seconds from the ground
i got something to say, bae just hear me out
but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now

(but you’ll just run away i’m used to it by now)

Music Video!!

riptides (boyfifty)

produced by jxsie beats & nuxe
mixed and mastered by lxst boy
@cavasoul
@jxsiebeats

-lyrics-
(lxst boy)
was it something that i said that ticked you off
cause now you won't talk
i feel that we're running out of time
cause i know that i get inside my head
i'll never understand
i never did this now i do it all the time
i am overthinking to the point im never sleeping
i been writing songs, i even do it when im dreaming
i hope this goes away, yeah, cause God, i hate this feeling
i am trapped within these walls, my eyes are glued to the ceiling
yeah

sometimes i get a little closer
there's no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
theres  no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress

(cavasoul)
i gave all of my love right away
then for me, im left with nothing
i was walking alone in the rain
i could snap at the press of a button
it's december now, rain coming down
it freezes before hitting ground
it reminds me of the feeling i had on my neck
when you coming around
is it something about me? 
cause lately i feel like you better without me
idk whats going on in my head
but the negative thoughts overwhelm me, im drowning
im never healthy, i cannot help it
how can i help me? i wanna be dead
i still remember the lies you had said to me
so i just fill up your side of the bed
now

(lxst boy)
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
there's no words left to say
tell me what you thought would happen
i can't explain
you left your shadow on my matress
sometimes i get a little closer
(and sometimes i get a little colder)
theres no thing i can say
that will undo what had happened
please just explain
i am drowning in my sadness

when it rains in december w/ cavasoul & jxsie beats

Love Myself (feat. Lxst Boy) (prod. cxrter)

disorders mixed with being disoriented

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered: @futoh
produced by: @boyfifty
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surprise surprise 
———
lyrics:

Im stuck in my head,
girl you dead,
you don’t mean nothing,
stuck to my bed
used to be blind,
all I’m seeing is red,
can’t make amends,
tripping on memories,
running from you,
love that we enemies,
you love that too,
you wont admit it,
call me a fool,
but it’s the truth,
bout time that you knew,
after it all,
I ain’t coming back,
I didn’t care,
but Im rushing back,
all emotions,
want em back,
I’ll never say it back,
you said you’re sorry,
but i don’t regret all that,
took me so long to get back on my feet,
now I just stare at a screen,
oh wait,
that’s nothing for me,
so why do i wilt and then drop to my knees 
I lost it,
I’m sinking deep,
and you caused it,
we’ve been here before,
washed up on shore,
tell me no more,
don’t wanna hear it,
drop to the core,
you're such a bore,
self-esteem to the floor,
now i got nothing in store,
i guess i just need some time restore,
picking up pieces you chose to ignore,
woah,
get lost in reality,
hate all totality,
shot my morality,
no hospitality,
screw my mentality,
im sick and tired of the abnormalities,
you didn’t care so why should I?
say it’s not fair but it’s eye for eye,
don’t you go whine now,
need to wind out,
went through too much just to find out

trapped in the depths of my mind (prod. boyfifty x autrioly)

Lyrics 

You know I’ve been stuck in my head for a while now
I need me some tips how to cool it down
My mouth has been foaming I feel like I’m floating and there’s no way that I’m coming down 
I’m picking my bones
A bone to pick a little trick Is kill ‘em in rows 
I got a tick
Like a timer it 
Tells me to go
To take a soul
Write a note and 
Leave the scraps for the crows

Like let’s head to the back
just a sec, it’s a guarantee they’ll teach you to act
Like real quick
It’s either that or you leave in a sack
And head to where your family at
Just to have a little chit chat

Momma called me an ass
But I don’t get it only doing what she did in the past
Shed take her hand 
And punch my face like again and again
And that’s when I met a man
Only I could hear him he said

Arnt you tired and cold
Don’t you wanna live a life where your not scared to go home
So listen to my words I’ll make it better you know
Next time she go to sleep just put a knife to her throat

So I did what he asked
Knife behind my back scared as shit walking real fast
There she is just an inch from the tip of the knife I had
I was on a high where 1 minute felt like  11 
Mind scatterd shit I was only like 7
Trying to stick up for black and blue brethren
At that moment yeah felt like I was the devil
Like the water finally boiled the kettle
Too many scores i decided to settle

So pushed down
finally decided I should look down
Red paint had covered up all the windows
So I walked up on over and looked out
And what I seen on the other side had me freaked out

Dad was back from his work I’m changing the plan now
It’s to deep for a person like me to back out
So I caught him off guard and I fucking layed him out
And that’s how my family’s dead y’all can clap now

Bedlam (prod. hand of mides)

Just a 17 year old trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Bedlam (prod. hand of mides)

Dysphoric

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