Lyrics:

I'm sick of all the fighting
The fire is igniting, so what's the point of trying to go another night
I'm sick of all the lying and thoughts about me dying
Like what's the point of crying, just wanna end my life

Cause I'm lost and nauseous, living is exhausting
Tried to end a couple times but never really offed it
Caution, shocking, sick of all the talking
Wish I wouldn't die alone but I don't have the option
I had a lot fun in this life but it's misery
Thought that it'd get better with time but I'm incomplete
Built you up you fed me with lies now I'm distancing
For right now I think I'm alright but I guess we'll see

So I'll die a fucking burden, a piece of shit and worthless
Could never put the work in, my life is a disguise
I'm numb but also fragile, my love is more than astral
They tell me I'm an asshole but all I am is nice

Cause I'm lost and nauseous, living is exhausting
Tried to end a couple times but never really offed it
Caution, shocking, sick of all the talking
Wish I wouldn't die alone but I don't have the option
I had a lot fun in this life but it's misery
Thought that it'd get better with time but I'm incomplete
Built you up you fed me with lies now I'm distancing
For right now I think I'm alright but I guess we'll see

I been giving it my all to get by
I really wish I didn't wanna die
I Keep trying to get better
I still don't understand why my chest hurts
I guess this what I signed up for
But really I could never be sure
I'm really feeling under the weather
It's raining in my head I feel I pressure

Cause I'm lost and nauseous, living is exhausting
Tried to end a couple times but never really offed it
Caution, shocking, sick of all the talking
Wish I wouldn't die alone but I don't have the option
I had a lot fun in this life but it's misery
Thought that it'd get better with time but I'm incomplete
Built you up you fed me with lies now I'm distancing
For right now I think I'm alright but I guess we'll see

Lost and Nauseous

not official, just a remix, i really loved this song that rxse made and 
i really wanted to make som to it

official song https://soundcloud.com/feelingmysorrow/two-way-street

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Sorrow - two way street (prod. underwood)

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered: @futoh
produced by: @boyfifty
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surprise surprise 
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lyrics:

Im stuck in my head,
girl you dead,
you don’t mean nothing,
stuck to my bed
used to be blind,
all I’m seeing is red,
can’t make amends,
tripping on memories,
running from you,
love that we enemies,
you love that too,
you wont admit it,
call me a fool,
but it’s the truth,
bout time that you knew,
after it all,
I ain’t coming back,
I didn’t care,
but Im rushing back,
all emotions,
want em back,
I’ll never say it back,
you said you’re sorry,
but i don’t regret all that,
took me so long to get back on my feet,
now I just stare at a screen,
oh wait,
that’s nothing for me,
so why do i wilt and then drop to my knees 
I lost it,
I’m sinking deep,
and you caused it,
we’ve been here before,
washed up on shore,
tell me no more,
don’t wanna hear it,
drop to the core,
you're such a bore,
self-esteem to the floor,
now i got nothing in store,
i guess i just need some time restore,
picking up pieces you chose to ignore,
woah,
get lost in reality,
hate all totality,
shot my morality,
no hospitality,
screw my mentality,
im sick and tired of the abnormalities,
you didn’t care so why should I?
say it’s not fair but it’s eye for eye,
don’t you go whine now,
need to wind out,
went through too much just to find out

trapped in the depths of my mind (prod. boyfifty x autrioly)

Lyrics

Ever feel sick at night you can’t breathe
Like you ain’t last before the morning
Like when she says it’s over like nothing then expecting me to get sleep
It’s crazy how 2 words stir 2 different feelings inside me
One wishes you luck and the other wonders if you gave a fuck about me

I gotta pave a new path for me 
For one enough looking pitifully down at me
Keeping me grounded nah you keeping the ground to me
claiming I don’t make sense while you changing around money

Fuck I think it’s better to go
Cause You turned into a person that I’m certain that I don’t even know
Won’t lie it’s hurting my soul 
But it’s alright if I die tonight cause im ready to go

even after this I’ll manage to manage
Talking myself into getting reset n up n  distracted  it’s eminent  
If I don’t it’ll end up with action and in the end
Dice roll one of us in a casket with evidence 
Of the other that had control of what did or what didn’t happen just a second cause I couldn’t imagine our end
All of our messages sent
Every second we spent
I’m locking them deep inside but I won’t lie its in hopes I forget
 
Double the dose
Cause you’re trapped inside my mind I don’t know where to go
They say time heals all and I ain’t saying that’s wrong
But I need the peace and quiet cause I’m running real low
on patience to go
that’s the sedatives role
to cure me at least at ease the feelings I hold
But fuck that I ain’t lasting that long 
my breaths going cold 
and my energy’s depleted and gone

Not Going To Lie, You’re Mentally Draining (prod. hans)

Lyrics...

This the way back like let’s turn and see
And I realize I ain’t living life I’m underneath 
All my peers I barley go outside I hold my peace
I ain’t tripping yeah I feel alright I’m building me
I’m gambling everything that I turn to a beast
Cause all my time it stays focused on finding words to a beat
Part of my life has been sacrificed on the craft that I speak
I guess I’ll trust in the process like I’m embiid on his way back like

Ima keep moving forward cause I don’t have many options
One of ‘em is a 9 to 5 but me I ain’t really bout it
Cause this shit on my shoulder keeps me in the darkness surrounded 
And when I think that it’s over it comes back stronger, I’ve had it
Iceland or London cause fuck it I need to take a vacation
I’m still debating if I’m loved or I’m hated but regardless 
I wanna be stronger person someone with no replacement 
I know there’s importance in patients but the flame is burning

Jet lag 
I know I’m tired as shit but I’ll find my way back
All them nights that I’ve given I’ll get ‘em right back
And some more with that deal
But that a dream like in ville
Trying not to get overwhelmed with
Jet lag 
I know I’m tired as shit but I’ll find my way back
All them nights that I’ve given I’ll get ‘em right back
And some more with that deal
But that a dream like in ville
Trying not to get overwhelmed with

Everything that I want or that I wanted to be
I overthink everything when I step on a beat just to remember there’s nothing for me I can actually lose 
I’m worried for nothing but y’all feeling something that’s close to redundance to fit in my shoes 
The shit I created you hate it or love it I promise that’s what i see life through huh
All of the struggles and moods
A pen and a pad that had sat in my hand with the blankets that padded the room
Flooring the pedal to move
You’d think that I wanted to die but I kept it inside me to use as a fuel
I made it this far with a goal on my mind so can you tell me how the fuck Ima lose 
The pressure been bubbling too
It feels like the weight on my shoes they increased or the gravity set to times two
Squaring up globes like in 96 when they won 72
I’m back on my bull
To shoot for the moon 
And I guess if I miss
my target then it’s
Snake way n a trip
like goku on his way back like

This the way back like let’s turn and see
And I realize I ain’t living life I’m underneath 
All my peers I barley go outside I hold my peace
I ain’t tripping yeah I feel alright I’m building me
I’m gambling everything that I turn to a beast
Cause all my time it stays focused on finding words to a beat
Part of my life has been sacrificed on the craft that I speak
I guess I’ll trust in the process like I’m embiid on his way back like

The Way Back (prod. falak)

I swear you’re so perfect but tragic
One look in your eyes I can tell that you’ve had it
You’re trying so hard just to break those bad habits 
Not seeing your worth just the pills that you smashing
Just to take from the pain but the people keep laughing 
They’re digging you deeper to cause a reaction 
you reach out for help but they think it’s attention
But I’ll stick by your side doesn’t matter what happens

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

when I can’t breathe
think abt the tricks under your sleeve
matter fact life gettin messy
your fault cuz you know I don’t get no sleep
it’s abt what you put in the stare
makin it harder to breath
got me here trippin on air what is it that they don’t see

you’re makin it harder to quit this
look to the heavens have god as my witness
wrong all along on the mission hope I don’t you don’t miss me when I go missin
if I lose my flaws I think you come back
buti think that there would be tention
yea you say I’m wrong but I think I’m right
that’s y u jest sent me a message

look me in my eyes tell me that it’s gon be fine
every night when the light off see ur poltergeist

i know what your saying now
I’ll pick up the phone and I’ll play it loud
I’ll let ‘em all hear what I really found
if you want me dead I’ll leave unannounced

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

Too Tired To Breathe w/brecken (prod. poppy ozu)

Lyrics...
Never thought about it like this you the one to deceive me
But deep inside me I knew that I was hiding a feeling of doubt
I thought it was weird how whenever you leaving 
All pretty it’s crazy you said it was to another friends house
So I sat down for a minute but that was too many seconds that I 
Spent wasted on bitches who like being passed around
You said I was tripping and that I never fucking listen
so I hope when you’re buried they place your face to the ground

You told me everybody was fake 
And everybody just wanted to take a piece of the pie that I gave my life 

But the fact is that you couldn’t take
The thought of being replaced and kicked outta your place you’re one with mice

Honestly this has lifted a weight
Even when dead it’s still weight
And this ain’t easy to make
Fuck never mind

I just never been feeling this great
Just a disgusting mistake 
Ima dig my feelings in a mother fucking grave

Shut the fuck up Manipulative bitch
A body bag for the sick cause I
Can’t believe I thought of a future of us with them kids
And the light I once saw in your eyes is just pathetically dim
In a class of nine you wouldn’t even make top ten 
The futures grim for you
I’d give a limb for you
On Bruno’s shit I’d hop In front a fucking train for you
I tried to change for you
I was in too engaged in you
But it never mattered I guess I was just a game to you
I’m done 
Fuck that
I hope that you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul
I realized you cut me from everyone even people that been there and witnessed my growth 
To get me alone
Then said I was fucked for not wanting to trust you with nearly enough
Maybe your love was the knife that you thrust in my back but  I’m returning that cause you’ll use it again in a month
Did it for what
stupid as fuck
Ive given you everything while I embodied not being enough
You gave me a hand out of the rain then pushed me right back in the mud 
Confidence drained so I turn to 
A drink and an eighth on the couch
While I’m cursing your name to find out a way to escape the look on your face so stay the fuck away

I Was Wrong (prod. falak)

YNMG

Zoo Love

wrote in forty-five minutes and decided I'd record and drop this before the new year. cya 2016. shout to rjmbeatz for the beat
RJM: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCqQn2o2eNuOR7ydISdSRIvw

End of the Year (prod. RJM)

Greatest (prod. Profound)

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

The Way Back (prod. falak)

Dysphoric