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What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Forget the times when you gave me a meaning
Fell for your laugh fuck I fell for your breathing
Then you switched up like leaves in the seasons
Running away and I rot into pieces
Fuck with my mental not feeling enough
Feeling the pain and I’m taking a puff
Playing the victim like what have I done
I see through the lies I see through the bluffs

I’m hating my person
Thinking bout life and I guess I deserved it
Could have been better I was just a burden
Wouldn’t care right now even if the world end
World end 
World end
thinking right now and I’m wishing the world end
And if it did I would save you a spot yeah you hurt me a lot but your my favorite person

You were there for me so why did you lie
I fucking loved you and I felt alive
My only friend and you stuck at my side
But I guess that’s convenient cause you stuck a knife
And I fell for you once nah I fell for you twice
But I fell to the bottom it’s dark there’s no light
And I know I sound petty I don’t wanna die
But just thinking of you I don’t wanna live life

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

Andrea Jaeger, the esteemed Founder and President of the Little Star Foundation, has dedicated over three decades to tirelessly supporting children battling cancer and those facing adversity. Through her invaluable work with the foundation, she has instilled hope in the hearts of children grappling with unimaginable adversities, offering them long-term care, financial aid, therapeutic play programs, educational opportunities, and outreach care programs. The impact of the Little Star Foundation's initiatives is profound, with several programs benefiting children facing cancer and other hardships. The Jeff Crawford Scholarship, established in memory of supermodel Cindy Crawford's brother, provides crucial financial support to childhood cancer survivors accepted into accredited colleges and universities, empowering them to pursue their dreams despite their challenges. Furthermore, the foundation's therapeutic programs, encompassing sports, arts, play, and animal therapy, play a significant role in helping children cope with cancer treatment's emotional and physical toll, fostering healing and resilience.

The Little Star Foundation's dedication also extends to providing essential financial assistance to families struggling with the financial burdens of their child's medical care, alleviating their stress during these difficult times. In addition to her exceptional philanthropic efforts, Jaeger's athletic career shines brightly. At 16, she rose to become the #2-ranked professional tennis player globally, defeating top-ranked players like Billie Jean King, Martina Navratilova, and Chris Evert before turning 17. Despite her remarkable prowess on the tennis court, she has gained equal renown for her extraordinary humanitarian endeavours, exemplified by her selfless act of donating all her prize money to support needy children.

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

I’m finally happy. I’m doing absolutely fantastic. Thank you to all of the musicians who helped me get through it.  Don’t think I forgot y’all. And to all of you struggling who see this, keep going. It’s worth it I promise. Remember not every day will be happy but it is another chance. And that leads to more and more happy days. 

Learning to love every day. Myself. And others. Learning to live. Express. Be myself. And to be who I want to be. Learning to trust.

Have a beautiful blessed day.

Yk what summer was kinda a struggle but I’m getting my footing and feeling fing great! I got the gym. Fighting. And this cool person just showed up in my life. 

Everything happens for a reason. God is great and works in mysterious ways.



SH is addictive and disabling. I was 2.5 years clean and relapsed a week ago. Not badly. But it proved no matter how “okay” you are u can mess up and need to keep working at it


Yk that “cool person” I mentioned! Yeah well now me and her are 5 months into dating and oml she’s amazing!


“Cool person” that’s what I called her. She’s more than that tho. She’s my whole world. 7 months is 6 days away and genuinely I couldn’t imagine my life without her. “Cool person”. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with this “cool person”. My love. My Panda. My cool person.

⛓chaos⛓
A state of complete disorder and confusion.

"IYKYK" ruined my life so they gave me more of the "IYKYK"
I've been given apathetic love from the internet and i dont know what to do with it 
not to be ungrateful for my "self"ruined life
Gender Dysphoric Marketable Unmarketable DJ that only makes mixes not music or whatever someday i'll get a virtual DJ gig once i have VR and a job.  #starbucksruinedmylife #iruinedmylife

i think the cruelty of capitalism is pretty fucking apparent, if not in gaza, then in the "tragic story" of my real life in my real life

Is there supposed to be a line between spectacle and reality? because my life feels treated like a spectacle, and im left to suffer in reality. 

its useless if i cant fidn myself, old feelings, sense of reality, right? and it seems like i shouldnt, maybe that others dont want me to. inferiority complex a la mode of pretending instead of being, too afraid to be able to remember

time for me to grow up of having a heart.  always comes out wrong anyway. and affecting others when i mean to affect myself. chasing what i run from because abused.
 
overconnected and not myself. shared too much of my real self and got hurt again. cant be helped by thode that care if its not safe to be me, and its not. not afraid, just tired of being hurt. fallen angel seemed orchestrated by others, or i just followed a hesrtless script of life.   let me be. let everyone be.  making them hurt me or be jealous to best me better me hurt me. why. special treatment? for what, computer anayøzers to learn from? no thank you. everyone has their own life to deal with, they dont care about me. 

everything is fine but everything is not fine, i feel ok but i dont feel ok at all. pushes everyone away, doesn't want to

just a profile for "better people" to pilfered in give-it-all away vain hope of gain

it's a joke dont take it seriously oh were you confused too bad dont care

everyone thinks im ok but its ok that i want to die 
they take my ideas but they dont take me
i guess i make them look bad and i go so far as to lament that but i feel like dying while theyre just ashamed
i shared my real self and they stole that too and tried to convince me to like being a guy 

are we even looking at the same picture through different frames_ what if we are experiencing different conjoined realities while some darker force is in worse control. well thats just what i think

THE MALENESS PERSISTS I WANT TO DIE PLEASE HELP I DONT KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING DO MY FACE IS SO MALE I WANT TO KILL MY SELF
approaching 30yrsOLD, the beginning of my end
TOO MALE
電気天気元気だめだめだめだめ前兆
even a blind squirrel (me) sometimes finds a nut (good ideas)
i am a dumb monkey but you keep me this way

negative nelly shpeal: 

digital kinda takes all the stimulation out and guessing correctly about stuff is crazy

the fun happy me i dont get to be because you took my insurance (and through that, my self worth) away from me!
dead inside, too tall and masc "ok with it"
easily confused Glitchi Glatchi disaster of a person abused by the computer, cast out by life, sunk by privatized corp. job insurance revokation. 

this is way too negative and i dont wanna preach at people but i am extremely hurt by all of this: a lot of you that have the loudest most carrying voices dont seem to know (despite how i try to lie-ably unable to be truthfully show you) or care how much pushing me into this masculine dysphoria hurts me, convincing me its actually euphoria, making it more difficult for me to let go of it, and in this almost always dissociated forgetting how to not be dissociated state of mind, usually reacting with fear at helpful treatments that force me to feel like CBD, --lost my train of thought and have to backgtrack, easier with writing--its even more difficult to do the easy thing and just be myself (wears a dress, feels dysphoria, sees male and female characters on screens forced to identify with the male characters out of physical similarities and lived experience, pressured to identify with them too. you really kill me inside. and im just trying to not let my femininity get pressured onto men and my "working for the greater good of women by being a boy toy" get to me neither) 

OK GREAT THANKS BYE <3
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low brow bone adams apple too tall low voice skeleton masculinized they think its vanity i dont deserve my emotions they traumatized me for fun now they abude me for fun. crooked jaw couldnt follow ortho directions trying to help everyone even the conniving and dark and hurtful.  too old unøived youth always feeling overexpised my entire life all the soectscles fault no one cares they just leech and exploit and rape till i learn to like what i never got to have. so full of it cant see past self want others to be same but dumber

dad abused me out of womanhood again.  seeing others happy almodt makes me transphobic with deething left out jealousy and feeling incapable and dum

soon it will all make sense, just dunno when (:

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Name: Sarah 🧸
Nickname: Babygirl  🙄
Siblings: 7 brothers &  3 sisters
bestfriend:  ꨄ︎ఌ︎P̶a̶i̶g̶e̶ ఌ︎ꨄ︎
My ride or die: They deleted there acc 😭  
Grade: 7th📚
Single or Taken: Single 
Sexuality: gay bi
Adopted or not: Adopted
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius & Capricorn
Hair Color: chocolate brown
Eye Color: Hazle 💚
Height: 5’2” in a half (short)🤦🏻‍♀️
Birthday: January 19th🥶❄️
Style: A little bit of tomboy and a little girly { IM NOT A GIRLY GIRL }
What I love: oversized hoodies 
What I like for my free time: being cuddled( Only if I had a lover )
Hobbies: Art/drawing, Soccer & Sleeping 
Favorite Color: Black 🖤
Age: 12 😇 
Gender: Female ✨ 
Just mail me the emojis if you want
 ❤️:If you want to be friends
 ❤️❤️:If you like me
 ❤️❤️❤️:If you want to be with me
 ❤️❤️❤️❤️:If you understand how I feel
 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️:If you are gonna try and show me some love
Ik how to talk in Japanese & Spanish & some Chinese and many more
❤️= You're dating someone who cares about you
🧡= You were cheated on more than 1
💛= You're dating your soulmate
💚= You're going to confess to your crush soon
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