[Intro]  
Speaking in oceans, casting rippling waves  
Echoing past scars, visceral stains that my soul has captured  
In cages given by the divine predator  

[Verse 1]  
In depth I had envisioned a cruise so sublime  
Within the glow of my blood flows  
What trickles down the dread of my heart, I'm so insecure  
Shattering the holy just to crumble to ashes  
Mixing with blood and mud, grinding, gashing teeth  
With broken jaws, I turned to stone  
Just to survive the internal flood  

[Pre-Chorus]  
In the dark I scream more, more, more  
Give me more, lost in mania  
Lost all control, the demons scratching at the walls of my soul  
Drinking the blood of the plagues  
To infect the eyes that bleed over with the tears of acid rain  

[Chorus]  
Eroding my grave stones, they scar my mind with memories  
The pain in my reality is bred and fed  
Entwinding, masking for the masters  
With black stained veins they start seeping  
With tragedy and dread, hastening the construction  
Of the darkness of my internal monologues  

[Verse 2]  
The alters that sparked hell in my mind  
Leaving scars down my cheeks, what a fucking disaster  
So I walk against the walls of my mind where you can find  
Written in blood, the creeping mazes  
The sexually delusional decrepit open wounds  
They're just waiting for you to open up again  
Their insanity, crying, laughing  
You're so confused by everything  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Breaking down the veil of remembering  
Overwhelmed by the anxiety  
Like lightning shrieking chatter  
Giving mastery to the embalmed perception of reality  
They are all of me, they are many parts of me  
Independently moving me, the voices are mine  
They are the ghosts of my body and mind  

[Chorus]  
Eroding my grave stones, they scar my mind with memories  
The pain in my reality is bred and fed  
Entwinding, masking for the masters  
With black stained veins they start seeping  
With tragedy and dread, hastening the construction  
Of the darkness of my internal monologues  

[Bridge]  
Privately controlling, fracturing my perceptions of personal gravity  
Multiple personalities that protect me  
From the threat of self-destruction when I can't breathe  
When the walls bubble in front of me, changing their shape  
The shadows they consume anything  
The glue of empty space mixing with the fundamental nothingness and memory  
The cosmic infusion of self and protection  
For the safety of comforting aggression  

[Outro]  
Take hold, dividing reality to a blur  
For the safety of the host's survival... (fading echoes)

AlTeRs InTeRnaL Monologues

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Echos or Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing.

[Links to YouTube, Suno, and Facebook]

© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

AlTeRs InTeRnaL Monologues

Echo's N MelanKholyia