It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Verse 2)
Suicidal day dreams fighting at school got bullied my whole childhood jist because I was different 
Behaviors gestures threats self mutilation
What a disturbing horrorshow when rip out your stitches 
Insomnia Dysphoria 
Irritability 
Anxiety 
Intense 
Chronic feelings of emptiness 
Inappropriate 
Intense 
Internal Anger
Must keep control 
Why do I always feel alone in a room full of loved ones
Stress related paranoia ideation 
Are people plotting against 
Does everybody hate me
I hate me I never wanted to be alive living like this
(Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD
It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Verse 3)
Forever locked in flight or fight as freezing turns to a danger to myself and everyone else around me they just watch me bleed tears in my hands when I feel like im falling apart 
Dissociation but Dissociative Identity 
Observing I the passenger seating in the driver's seat watch my body moving without me thinks feeling im deep back in the mind where black halos the perceptive of the world flat static 2 dimensional black and white TV reality fuzzy feeling covering my body. Putting in a state of blissful oblivion
(Bridge)
by the hands of families friends predators and sexual abusers physically violence terrifies me as my environmental factors the social environment consumed meme cutting me up with dull rusted razors that damaged me like a drought in a hypersexuality fire storm setting fire from behind the door of my bedroom from conduct Disorder to Nympho teenager all because there friends and there kids wouldn't keep their hands off my body 
Even if it is the only one ill ever have I wish I had never been thought of.
Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD
It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Outro)
Maybe this wouldn't have happened to me
If people would have listened when I was crying for help I just want to be free From me  would have I tried hundreds of time to end my life
But had to learn to survive so early in life the terror of all my cries in my blood shot eyes my broken heart that died can you tell 
This was my living hell
I just want to be well

BPD 7

Dolls Whispers Five 1

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BPD 7

Echo's N MelaNKholyiA

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