[Intro - 0:00 to 0:18] Glass bulb explodes on steel-sharp, brittle shards clink like bones. Slow heartbeat thump (80 BPM). Bus door hisses open. Whisper, layered: Du bist mein... du bist mein... (you are mine) in German, looping, pitched low like a drunk memory. [Verse 1 - 0:18 to 1:10] Bus ride. Two thousand miles. I sat there, gut empty, head full of her voice. Three days in Oregon-she poured vodka, smiled like a gift. Then the hand. The first slap. Sound like wet meat on tile. I didn't move. Couldn't. Not yet. Sold me that night. Room smelled like bleach and sweat. Inside her? Dead. Numb. High. Heroin in my vein, her nails in my neck-same burn, same blank. Wanted to die but body said no. Someone else kept breathing for me. [Pre-Chorus - 1:10 to 1:25] She called me doll. Held me like broken china-arms locked, smile cracked. I said yes because no was a gun. I said love you because hate was blood on the floor. [Chorus - 1:25 to 1:55] Puppet, puppet-strings in your teeth, Move for me, bleed for me, breathe for me, High enough to forget my name, Low enough to feel every chain. Puppet, puppet-cut me loose, But the cut's the proof: I was used. (Hook starts here-addictive loop) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (stutter-glitch echo) [Verse 2 - 1:55 to 2:40] She hit because she could. I stayed because I learned: Safe looks like pain. Love looks like fists. Every thrust-needle in my spine, Every bruise-map of where I broke. She sold me like stock. They paid. I didn't. I counted cracks in the ceiling like stars. Said one more to the spoon, to her mouth, to the mirror- Anything to not feel the doll's empty eyes staring back. [Bridge - 2:40 to 3:10] (60 BPM stutter) Child whisper: Du bist mein... (you are mine...) Glass shatters again-loud, close. Her voice: You're nothing without me. My voice? Silent. Five says: run. Odium says: kill. Alice says: please. I said: pass the needle. [Final Chorus - 3:10 to 3:40] Puppet, puppet-no more strings, Snip 'em clean, watch me swing. High enough to float, low enough to fall- But I won't beg. Won't crawl. Puppet, puppet-cut me free, The doll's awake-he sees me. (Hook repeats-addictive, louder, glitch heavier) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (echo fades, but last word lingers: free) [Outro - 3:40 to 4:00] Silence. Then-one final glass shatter, distant. Heartbeat stops. Breath. You're not a doll. You're done.

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Puppet [ CVLT 13 ]

Sociopath's Void

Social Suicide
 
Don't ask me
Please don't because I won't fight back from the words I'll say
I have no filter you in these eyes there's nothing but hollow smile
you'll be surprised what I say I'm so emotionless
One Thousand yard stare every day no empathy
What was that you said every night you want to play
You really want to know
Please don't run away from the facts
A personality disorder
Just a little psycho
Yeah they call me a little psycho
Sick boy
A little psycho
Psycho
But you know I love you from the bottom of my empty heart
 
Antisocial Personality
What the fuck
staring into the void I just want to love
What does that feel like
I'm just
Just a little pretty Sociopath
I told you don't ask
A little psycho maniac
They call me a sociopath
On my way to complete
A Anti social Suicide
There's just to much dead in my eyes
It's social Suicide
It's social Suicide
 
I don't like to tell anybody
It's so embarrassing
When I get paranoid
That your thinking so horrible of me
I didn't ask for this
My parents made me feel like shit
For every fuck
For every hit
I numbed my body and mind from everything
I smile
As they take it out on me
 
Antisocial Personality
What the fuck
staring into the void I just want to love
What does that feel like
I'm just
Just a little pretty Sociopath
I told you don't ask
A little psycho maniac
They call me a sociopath
A Anti social Suicide
There's just to much dead in my eyes
A Anti social Suicide
There's just to much dead in my eyes
It's social Suicide
 
I can't help it was I born like this
I don't think so but I did all the brain scans they wanted from me
In and out of the hospital
They want to keep studying me
They won't let me leave
They keep poking at me
Standing up completely still, I know I'll never be free
No facial expressions, they keep looking at me
Calm and together no
What the fuck
No,
I'm fucking coming apart from the seams
 
Antisocial Personality
What the fuck
staring into the void I just want to love
What does that feel like
I'm just
Just a little pretty Sociopath
I told you don't ask
A little psycho maniac
They call me a sociopath
 
I use to
Cut,Slit ,rubies, slut
I can't get enough
I can't feel any pain
hit me again
Hit me again
look a little grin
I want this horror show just to fucking end
 
Antisocial Personality
What the fuck
staring into the void I just want to love
What does that feel like
I'm just
Just a little pretty Sociopath
I told you don't ask
A little psycho maniac
They call me a sociopath

Social Suicide

Social Suicide 2

[Verse 1] (Dark, brooding goth riffs with whispered vocals)  
I am the alter of suicide,  
Creeping despair in the dead of night,  
From childhood scars to adult fights,  
I've waged war on your fragile mind.  

[Pre-Chorus] (Building tension, nu metal distortion fading in)  
When stress crashes in waves you can't bear,  
I take the throne, become the host there,  
Hide you deep to keep you breathing,  
But I scream out all the pain you're seething.  

[Chorus] (Heavy nu metal drop, growled and screamed vocals)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  

[Verse 2] (Rap-metal flow over gothic synths)  
In astral thoughts that haunt and inhabit,  
A new mind forms, a smile I fake it,  
No one sees the personalities we bury,  
Morals twist, ethics blur in a hurry,  
Love to hate, emotions shift like shadows,  
Can you tell who's pulling the strings now?  

[Pre-Chorus] (Intensifying, layers of haunting echoes)  
When stress crashes in waves you can't bear,  
I take the throne, become the host there,  
Hide you deep to keep you breathing,  
But I scream out all the pain you're seething.  

[Chorus] (Heavy nu metal drop, growled and screamed vocals)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  

[Bridge] (Atmospheric goth interlude, slow build with piano and whispers)  
Within this body, the fragments awaken,  
Destroyed and reborn, never forsaken,  
Astral smiles mask the chaos inside,  
Personalities clash in the endless tide.  

[Breakdown] (Brutal nu metal breakdown, guttural screams)  
Alters rise! Despair ignites!  
War in the mind! No end in sight!  
Trauma births! Personalities fight!  
Can you tell? Can you tell tonight?!  

[Final Chorus] (Full intensity, layered vocals and chaotic riffs)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  
(Fade out with echoing distortions: "Change... but can you tell... can you tell...")

Dex Why  DID

[Verse 1]  
Blackouts, memory gaps  
You said you never noticed, but I'm fading fast  
Where am I? Who was I?  
Staring back at myself, can't recognize the lie  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Emptiness, who am I supposed to be?  
Switch the visuals, gravity pulling me  

[Chorus] (Heavy riffs with screamed vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  

[Verse 2] (Rap-infused nu metal flow)  
Heartbeat spikes, involuntary pain in my chest  
World leaking out my skin, what am I supposed to do next?  
No light in my eyes, pills do nothing to my mind  
Mixed in the sands of time, leaving it all behind  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Emptiness, who am I supposed to be?  
Switch the visuals, gravity crushing me  

[Chorus] (Heavy riffs with screamed vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  

[Bridge] (Atmospheric goth synths building to breakdown)  
I'm diagnosed with the void, fears flooding in  
Turn the hourglass, let the darkness win  
No more reflection, just shadows and sin  

[Breakdown] (Nu metal drop with growls)  
Blackouts! Gaps!  
Lost! Trapped!  
Agoraphobia! Panic! Escape!  

[Final Chorus] (Full band intensity, layered vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  
(Fade out with echoing whispers: "Who am I... who am I...")

Lost In Agoraphobia

Coded Expressions

[Verse 1]  
Taste of filth, mouth dry, tongue covered in white film  
Rubbing lips, a rush of pleasure, feels like ocean waves  
But beneath the skin, so lost in thought  
She was so oblivious, so silent  

[Pre-Chorus]  
In the cold room, freezer set for collection  
Unlocked, hidden, fluorescent lights flicker  
Walls decayed with yellow stains, cracks, peeling paint  
Plastic sheets protect, ready to continue, paused  

[Chorus]  
My sense of relief suspended in atrocity  
Dirt under nails, never noticed, frozen heart racing  
Thoughts calm, locked stationary, numb to the process  
I never needed to prepare for the most dangerous game  
So dead, born like this  

[Verse 2]  
Knives lay on steel, wearing liquid coats  
Beads the color of rubies, solace encases me  
The impulse satisfied, but a sense of conviction  
Drenched in intoxication, now sober and still  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Loving her was easy, her walking away  
A murderous tragedy, trophy? My treasure stored  
Until it rots, my heart sentenced to the dead  
I choke on each memory, until I'm caught or end  

[Chorus]  
My sense of relief suspended in atrocity  
Dirt under nails, never noticed, frozen heart racing  
Thoughts calm, locked stationary, numb to the process  
I never needed to prepare for the most dangerous game  
So dead, born like this  

[Bridge]  
With these dirty nails, nothing could defend  
Skin damp with salt, I feel nothing within  
Tools of destruction that kill for justice  
Of my affection, obsession ends in reflection  
The art created by rejection, inflamed with chaos and passion  

[Outro]  
Taste of filth... (fading echo)  
So dead, born like this...




Obsessive Love

*(Intro - Harsh industrial noise machines grinding in, fused with downtuned nu metal guitars, electronic glitches and factory clangs building to a primal scream, goth synths droning underneath)*  
The devil found me first...  
But I'm still sitting, smiling, cursed...  
Wrapped in glass and bathed in salt...  
(SCREAM over metallic echoes) Burning down every church I felt!

*(Verse 1 - Rapid rap delivery over pounding industrial beats, heavy riffs with turntable scratches and mechanical samples like chains rattling, gothic whispers layering the chaos)*  
Had been forsaken by the thirst,  
Trapped in a hole I crawl out to escape.  
Walking the earth with hollow eyes and insane,  
Broken pieces of me twist like shadows within me.  
Distorted by the memories, my fragmented reflection,  
Drowning in the chaos fueled by chaos, eating the obsession.  
To end my life, blinded by the dead of night's regression,  
My mouth silenced by the demons laughing.  
Inside me, grabbing, ripping, and tearing,  
At the broken child I used to be—I wasn't ready.  
To build the man I was transformed to be,  
In this sinful reality, infused with grinning knives and blood stains—savagery!

*(Pre-Chorus - Building with distorted synth waves, clean vocals morphing into growls, industrial hammers pounding rhythm, atmospheric goth fog enveloping)*  
A walking wall of flames and hurt,  
To a blackened angel with a fractured halo.  
I take my emotions and throw them away,  
Just to dig a hole to hide, to be reborn by self-hate...

*(Chorus - Explosive nu metal-industrial fusion: massive breakdowns with electronic distortions, screamed vocals over goth melodic hooks, factory sirens wailing and glitchy beats dropping hard)*  
To be birthed into the Black Moth I was supposed to be!  
I still stand today, the person I never thought I would be!  
Wrapped in glass... bathed in salt... burning down...  
The devil found me... smiling, cursed... hollow eyes... insane!  
Drowning in chaos... demons laughing... ripping, tearing...  
Blackened angel... fractured halo... reborn by self-hate!

*(Verse 2 - Intensified rap with faster tempo, double-kick drums synced to industrial pistons, samples of shattering glass and flame bursts, gothic echoes amplifying the descent)*  
Broken pieces twist like shadows, distorted memories.  
Fragmented reflection, chaos fueled by obsession.  
End my life in the dead of night, silenced by laughter.  
Grabbing at the child, wasn't ready for the man.  
Sinful reality, grinning knives, blood-stained savagery.  
Walking flames, hurt to blackened angel's fall.

*(Pre-Chorus - Even more mechanical, with layered screams, synth malfunctions, and rising industrial tension)*  
I take my emotions and throw them away,  
Just to dig a hole to hide, to be reborn by self-hate...

*(Chorus - Heavier industrial drop: mosh-pit breakdowns with robotic vocal effects, backing chants in gothic harmony yelling "Black Moth," electronic feedback screeching)*  
To be birthed into the Black Moth I was supposed to be!  
I still stand today, the person I never thought I would be!  
Wrapped in glass... bathed in salt... burning down...  
The devil found me... smiling, cursed... hollow eyes... insane!  
Drowning in chaos... demons laughing... ripping, tearing...  
Blackened angel... fractured halo... reborn by self-hate!

*(Bridge - Slow, oppressive industrial interlude: droning machines, whispered rap escalating to full-throated screams, goth keys swirling like smoke, building to a chaotic nu metal explosion with glitchy samples)*  
(Whispered amid clanking metal) The devil found me first... cursed... forsaken...  
(SCREAM over rising sirens) Broken child... transformed... savagery!  
(Breakdown: Crushing riffs, industrial hammers, electronic chaos)  
Flames and hurt... fractured halo... dig the hole... self-hate rebirth!


Black Moth Reborn

[Verse]
Back and forth like a broken swing
God is silent I’m unraveling
Rip and repaired my edges frayed
Speaking words the shadows made

[Prechorus]
Monsters dream of a soul like mine
I walk the edge I blur the line

[Chorus]
I have no name but I still scream
I was born but I can’t dream
Torn apart then stitched in fear
Alive but not really here

[Verse 2]
Cracks in mirrors show my face
Pieces missing can’t replace
Waves of static in my veins
Hollow whispers call my name

[Prechorus]
Monsters dream of a soul like mine
I walk the edge I blur the line

[Chorus]
I have no name but I still scream
I was born but I can’t dream
Torn apart then stitched in fear
Alive but not really here

Fallen Lucifer's Dawn

(Verse 1)  
Fuck me like a whore, you know it's what I'm used to,  
I just want to feel love, even if it hurts me true.  
Trapped in a hole, but I can still see myself,  
Wrap me in the thrill, fuck, I wish I was killed.  
Fuck me like you hate me, you're my fucking disease,  
Time is running past, but it means nothing to me.  

(Chorus)  
Give me drugs, I don't want to feel me in you,  
So sick, so fucked over, what else can I do?  
I want everything I can get when love means nothing,  
But I don't want you, no, I don't want your sting.  
I have to taste the destruction you did to me,  
It's a hate that consumed me, you make me sick as can be.  

(Verse 2)  
Vomiting up the thoughts of you, cutting out the parts of me,  
But I still taste them today, they won't let me be free.  
I wanted to kill myself every time we fucked,  
You used me like a toy, put me through hell, couldn't get unstuck.  
Love was violence, every hit was depravity,  
I can't feel love now unless I get fucked savagely.  

(Bridge)  
I don't want to die alone, you ripped my heart out raw,  
It's already sick with promises, can't take it anymore.  
I'm done with it all, have to relearn everything,  
From the ashes of your hell, I'll find my own wing.  

(Chorus)  
Give me drugs, I don't want to feel me in you,  
So sick, so fucked over, what else can I do?  
I want everything I can get when love means nothing,  
But I don't want you, no, I don't want your sting.  
I have to taste the destruction you did to me,  
It's a hate that consumed me, you make me sick as can be.  

(Outro)  
Fuck me like a whore, but now I'm breaking free,  
From the disease you gave, reclaiming me.  
Trapped no more, I'll heal the scars you left,  
Love means something now, in my own breath.




Your Doll

(Verse 1)  
Into the deep of the unconscious I fall,  
Realm of hell where my identities call.  
Walking on planes of shattered stars and lies,  
Mixing days into nights, where the real me dies.  
Holding the edge of sanity's blade so thin,  
Lights of the soul melt to ash, pulling me in.  
Terror rolls like waves, fantasies ignite,  
Liquid flames consume me in the dead of night.  

(Chorus)  
Reality bleeds like rain from a midnight sky,  
Colors sink to sands where forgotten selves lie.  
Is it real when control slips from my hands?  
In this broken state, where the mirror stands—  
A blur of me with no eyes, dining on madness,  
Living lives in minutes, drowning in sadness.  
Abyss of eternity, forgetfulness reigns,  
Dissociative chains, borderline pains.  

(Verse 2)  
Births from my screams, sighs of fleeting bliss,  
Nightmares of filth in a shallow grave's kiss.  
Floating above, ripping me away to revive,  
Was it a dream, or another alter alive?  
Once lived in dimensions, different times unfold,  
Colors of sleep drag me to worlds cold.  
Liquid mirrors reflect possibilities vast,  
Different loves, different selves, in shadows cast.  

(Bridge)  
Splitting emotions mold my thoughts to feel,  
Changing my face, my life, nothing's real.  
Noon turns to grey, lost in translation's storm,  
Static like bullets, sanity's form torn.  
Walking cosmic realities, dreams life bestows,  
Outside tomorrow, where the fractured mind goes.  
Borderline fire, identities clash and break,  
In the place after breath, for heaven's sake.  

(Chorus)  
Reality bleeds like rain from a midnight sky,  
Colors sink to sands where forgotten selves lie.  
Is it real when control slips from my hands?  
In this broken state, where the mirror stands—  
A blur of me with no eyes, dining on madness,  
Living lives in minutes, drowning in sadness.  
Abyss of eternity, forgetfulness reigns,  
Dissociative chains, borderline pains.  

(Outro)  
The fabric of time cries as I fade away,  
Into the void where my alters play.  
Eternity's grip on a soul split in two,  
DID whispers, BPD pulls me through.  
Was I dead, or just lost in the dream?  
In the unconscious deep, I silently scream.

Borderline Pain

[Verse]
The doctor said I'm a chameleon
I told him numb is my only friend
Feel too much till I can't feel again

[Prechorus]
No face
No name
No skin of my own
Changing shapes just to feel at home

[Chorus]
I’m a chameleon
I fade
I blend
No beginning
No end
Screaming silent
No one hears
Alone
I shift through my fears

[Verse 2]
My soul feels dead
Just a ghost in the air
Walk through hell like I don’t even care
Hold executions for the ones who dare

[Prechorus]
Eyes like bullets
They pierce
They burn
Every shadow's a lesson learned

[Chorus]
I’m a chameleon
I fade
I blend
No beginning
No end
Screaming silent
No one hears
Alone
I shift through my fears



Chameleon Skin

If you thought you knew...
Your my seductive obsession, my love you know...
I'm your slave, your personal whore you adore...
Dripping tongue smearing saliva of poisons wrath...
Caked in the mud of your soul...
Is this forever?
Locked out, hell claws at the windows...
Blood shot, eyes so void...
You feel what it's like...
You can't kill what lives...
That has been turned into the dead...
By the actions of humanities vile skin...
You can't kill what lives and is dead...
Licking the sins I embedded in you!
I'm the infection that will end the world you knew!
I knew you wanted me, let me show you...
Numb!
Can I cover you with the oil of my infatuation?
Putting you up as high as the cosmos I see in you...
To prove I can drag you as deep as the abyss of my hollow chest!
I can't pass this up, don't leave, I'll run after you...
I'll sabotage everything...
Numb!
Get away from me, I might disappear...
Before you pull the trigger again...
So paranoid of you walking away...
Cold empty abandonment, waking dreams...
Cutting deep with the razors deep in your mental states...
Your lost in the distortion I injected within you...
Numb!
Wrapped in my glass skin, like liquid I bend within you...
A loving suffocation I beg to give you...
Wrapped in sex, love, and numb smiles...
I mask like god, possess the human belief in heaven!
Melting in your blood as a injectable distortion...
Giving you the visions of the damned soul I am in possession of...
Numb!
You can't feel fear when all you are is numb...
Smiling death gives in with a fading grin...
Put the barrel to our heads and give a kiss goodnight!
You can't kill what lives...
That has been turned into the dead...
By the actions of humanities vile skin...
You can't kill what lives and is dead...
Numb to the touch, when all you feel is the blunt pain of hell...
Breathing out the gasoline fumes...
The lingering emotional disconnection...
I know you want to ignite, to burn my empire down...
I hope you do, all I want is to be over...
It will take a bullet for me to run from you...
God never cared for me but I love the demons he made...
When we're dying in each others arms...
We taste the blood we...
Chaos! Pure chaos!
A spilling of words, thoughts, emotions...
Vomit! Vomiting up the chaos to have you hold...
With me...
Fuck me while the world around us dies...
Set the world on fire, suck up the misery...
Fuck me while we put the barrels to our heads...
Just let give a kiss goodbye...
When we live but are dead numb inside...
Numb...




Numb Abyss

[0:00-0:20] Intro
Hide emotions outside, Over stressed mask face... Broken smile inside, Tears dry dust spill...
(Snap to 110 BPM.)
[0:20-1:00] Verse 1
Sorry can't see truth, Ok lived moment time, Sands earth wrap roll, Memories ego death shore. Giving world stealth strength hold no more, Move you side, Weak never reminder, Feeling much, Different parts dependent voice concerns. Erasing reality dream forever, Take off armor fight over...
[1:00-1:20] Chorus
Living survival mode whole life tired hunted, Took time try did say goodbye. Think not time fade, Lived thousands lifetimes pain, Freedom want pray... End everything...
[1:20-2:00] Verse 2
Pushing further destroy name faith, Say goodbye letter you alone. Letter demise all see, Wrapped coats shame, Built hills blame, Casting spells regret. Feeling numb awake anymore, Hope know love you, Take hand last time...
[2:00-2:20] Chorus
Living survival mode whole life tired hunted, Took time try did say goodbye. Think not time fade, Lived thousands lifetimes pain, Freedom want pray... End everything...
[2:20-2:40] Bridge
Dematerialize sorry, Scars can't see buried within, Can't fix mercy choice. Entering point lock gates, Something moves inside...
[2:40-3:00] Outro
Hide emotions... dematerialize... (Fade: "scars... mercy... eternal, whispers black, sighs ashes forever")

Dematerialized Farewell

Act 2 Change My Destruction (Poetry)

Falling Down The Rabbit Hole

Star gazed locked in a maze, 

 

  Eternal darkness covered in grace, 

 

 Weeping willows lay upon my face 

 

 As a mask I inherently place,

 

 multiples my life raft, 

 

  People look at me, 

 

I am expressionless,

 

 Lost in thoughts separated from what's real,

 

 It's for the best,

 

 Walking in cosmic paths and magnetic fields,

 

 My sensor's are unpredictable crying acid and salt, tears, I am here,

 

 But I can't feel,

 

 A wondering reality completely filled, 

 

With the devils I held dear,

 

 To my heart so numb to the breath of air,

 

With demons I dance out of body, out of reality, 

 

 Dreaming of different thoughts,

 

 I want to release  to the people, 

 

 So I write my final notes to the following,

 

 Because I want them to know, 

 

What it's like to break through the the strings of theory,

 

 So I scream when I express my ideas to the world, 

 

Just to get my point higher,

Star Gazed 2

It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Verse 2)
Suicidal day dreams fighting at school got bullied my whole childhood jist because I was different 
Behaviors gestures threats self mutilation
What a disturbing horrorshow when rip out your stitches 
Insomnia Dysphoria 
Irritability 
Anxiety 
Intense 
Chronic feelings of emptiness 
Inappropriate 
Intense 
Internal Anger
Must keep control 
Why do I always feel alone in a room full of loved ones
Stress related paranoia ideation 
Are people plotting against 
Does everybody hate me
I hate me I never wanted to be alive living like this
(Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD
It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Verse 3)
Forever locked in flight or fight as freezing turns to a danger to myself and everyone else around me they just watch me bleed tears in my hands when I feel like im falling apart 
Dissociation but Dissociative Identity 
Observing I the passenger seating in the driver's seat watch my body moving without me thinks feeling im deep back in the mind where black halos the perceptive of the world flat static 2 dimensional black and white TV reality fuzzy feeling covering my body. Putting in a state of blissful oblivion
(Bridge)
by the hands of families friends predators and sexual abusers physically violence terrifies me as my environmental factors the social environment consumed meme cutting me up with dull rusted razors that damaged me like a drought in a hypersexuality fire storm setting fire from behind the door of my bedroom from conduct Disorder to Nympho teenager all because there friends and there kids wouldn't keep their hands off my body 
Even if it is the only one ill ever have I wish I had never been thought of.
Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD
It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Outro)
Maybe this wouldn't have happened to me
If people would have listened when I was crying for help I just want to be free From me  would have I tried hundreds of time to end my life
But had to learn to survive so early in life the terror of all my cries in my blood shot eyes my broken heart that died can you tell 
This was my living hell
I just want to be well

BPD 7

Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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