[Verse 1] (Dark, brooding goth riffs with whispered vocals)  
I am the alter of suicide,  
Creeping despair in the dead of night,  
From childhood scars to adult fights,  
I've waged war on your fragile mind.  

[Pre-Chorus] (Building tension, nu metal distortion fading in)  
When stress crashes in waves you can't bear,  
I take the throne, become the host there,  
Hide you deep to keep you breathing,  
But I scream out all the pain you're seething.  

[Chorus] (Heavy nu metal drop, growled and screamed vocals)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  

[Verse 2] (Rap-metal flow over gothic synths)  
In astral thoughts that haunt and inhabit,  
A new mind forms, a smile I fake it,  
No one sees the personalities we bury,  
Morals twist, ethics blur in a hurry,  
Love to hate, emotions shift like shadows,  
Can you tell who's pulling the strings now?  

[Pre-Chorus] (Intensifying, layers of haunting echoes)  
When stress crashes in waves you can't bear,  
I take the throne, become the host there,  
Hide you deep to keep you breathing,  
But I scream out all the pain you're seething.  

[Chorus] (Heavy nu metal drop, growled and screamed vocals)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  

[Bridge] (Atmospheric goth interlude, slow build with piano and whispers)  
Within this body, the fragments awaken,  
Destroyed and reborn, never forsaken,  
Astral smiles mask the chaos inside,  
Personalities clash in the endless tide.  

[Breakdown] (Brutal nu metal breakdown, guttural screams)  
Alters rise! Despair ignites!  
War in the mind! No end in sight!  
Trauma births! Personalities fight!  
Can you tell? Can you tell tonight?!  

[Final Chorus] (Full intensity, layered vocals and chaotic riffs)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  
(Fade out with echoing distortions: "Change... but can you tell... can you tell...")

Dexcyde  DID

Drios on the adlibs, this song isn’t fully finished, but love it and wanted to show before the official drop, I hope you love it too

Love Me (unmixed) (unmastered)

How it’s done but with a twist

Foreign Rose

Light in My Quiet (1)

every time i cry

[Verse 1]
I wasn't lookin' for a good time
But I found one
I wasn't lookin' for the green light
But I ran one

[Verse 2]
I wasn't lookin' for a tailgate
But I hit one
And I wasn't lookin' for a hard eight
But I rolled one
I wasn't lookin' for a tailgate
But I hit one
And I wasn't lookin' for a hard eight
But I rolled one

[Chorus]
So let's drive
Drive
Drive
Drive
Hard and fast just for the fun of it
Hard and fast just for the fun of it

[Verse 3]
I wasn't lookin' for a lost cause
But I found one
And I wasn't lookin' for a sad song
But I wrote one

[Verse 4]
I wasn't lookin' for a phone call
But I answered
I wasn't lookin' for a slow song
But I sang one

[Chorus]
So let's drive
Drive
Drive
Drive
Hard and fast just for the fun of it
Hard and fast just for the fun of it

Hard and Fast (ft. Eli.Noir) - Rock remix

A minute-long fragment with an undecided future as of now... More details at https://arg-machine.tumblr.com/post/796756545059864577/argmachine-fragment-beta-no-arg-isnt-going

Fragment [beta]

Going To California

Arsız gece

legacy-of-a-fallen-clan

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing.

[Links to YouTube, Suno, and Facebook]

© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

Dexcyde DID

Echo's N MelanKholyia

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