Chapter 2


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NoAI
Literature Text


(Verus 1)



I don't know where to start 

I've been lost for so long

Identities blur like lost time

Missing memories

I hate my body 

Hate myself 

I can't get this dirt off of me

Spending multi trips to the shower a day 

How long can I keep this up

I'm so drained 



(Chorus)



I'm fucked but safe in a brutal home 

Love me fuck why do you hate me so much 

Can't you just talk to me like someone that's doesn't like to hurt me 



(Verus 2)



I can't get this dirt off of me

Spending multi trips to the shower a day every night fucked into a nightmare 

Of drugs and rough sex whore junkie me a male blows 

Goth girl whores 

How long can I keep this up

I'm so drained 

I'm so 

sick

I hate every inch of my skin I can't get you off of me 

but fuck me again again now again

Keep hurting me I hate myself this much I deserve this 

I don't want to feel this nightmare mental paper flower dissolved 

Into the dead of my eyes 

Did I ever deserve this?



(Chorus)



I'm so fucked but safe in a brutal home 

Love me fuck why do you hate me so much 

Can't you just talk to me like someone that's doesn't like to hurt me 



(Verus 3)



I hate every inch of my skin I can't get you off of me 

but fuck me again again now again

Keep hurting me I hate myself this much I deserve this 

I don't want to feel this nightmare mental paper flower dissolved 

Into the dead of my eyes 

Did I ever deserve this?

Missing memories

I hate my body 

Hate myself 

I can't get this dirt off of me

Spending multi trips to the shower a day 

How long can I keep this up

I'm so drained 



(Bridge)



These cuts never heal right 

In the middle of night 

Covered in sweat things are getting rough 

When will you get off of me 



(Chorus)



I'm so fucked but safe in a brutal home 

Love me fuck why do you hate me so much 

Can't you just talk to me like someone that's doesn't like to hurt me 





DID I Deserve This

DID I Deserve This  (OdiuM and Alice)

(Intro)

Lipstick whore you tricked me and used me like your personal infinite whore 
Dirty drunken plastic nothing I am the nothing and you are the drunken bitch that beats me
And
Now the
Rotting decayed sense of identity
Everything I had to hide is now crawling into the light

(Verse 1)
The crawlium under reality breeds the static
Where I can surrender and let you use my body
To help me escape
As my surroundings start to breathe
The floor and sky stretch zooming in and out
Dissociation  the fear of abandonment, and intense emotional outbursts
To come 
The inner spaces that are my systems controls swallow me
My system is
MelanKholyia.
Zoned out
Fucked on the floor sobbing 
Blood covering me as I shake in pain trembling 
Ribs bruised eyes black makeup runs heart attack fucked up by your vile image hovering
Vomiting all the sanity I bloom insanity fragmenting 
You begin spiritually deflowering me mentally again
As the dead come to collect where I stand
But I'm checked out from the world
Alice help she won't stop I can't move 
Odium crawls out from the guts being kicked in crack porcelain smile turns to a expressionless sociopath 
Bitten fingernails looks like a anorexic anxiety panic attack 
Numbness floods my mind, my body disconnects, I feel the energy rise to flood my soul adrenaline hit eternity 
Acid kiss from a forever in the Wonder Void 
Your fists make me look so flushed but I already now
Lipstick whore you tricked me and used me like your personal infinite whore 

(Chorus)

I can't feel anything but numb

Dizzy lost daydreaming nightmare flaring 

No tears just rage and alcohol on her breath

Grab a hold of my body hide me from the on coming tragedy ahead

Like a gun in my mouth

I want to pull the trigger and end this 



(Verse 2)



Talking to this unholy succubus unknown to her I was a incubus this whole time 
Feeling  dizzy almost every time you come to see me now 3 of you 5 came to me today The music is working I haven't known you since the first mute but in a 
Please protect. will I fucking suvive this 
 me I don't want to die tonight she won't stop screaming in my face.
Void 
Eyes 
Can feel anything you but numb
 no tears just rage on her breath
Grab a hold of my body hide me from the on coming tragedy 
Like a gun in my mouth

(Chorus)

I can't feel anything but numb
Dizzy lost daydreaming nightmare flaring 
No tears just rage and alcohol on her breath
Grab a hold of my body hide me from the on coming tragedy ahead
Like a gun in my mouth
I want to pull the trigger and end this 
Void Eyes Dead child in a adult hell 

(Bridge) 

After you manipulated me to leave the only place I've known

Splitting on her from grey to obsidian  

No white left in my heart only when we began

Fawning to the sight of fallen angels on the earth  

You always make me feel like I want to die



(Verus 3)



How did I get here how did 4 days seem like a hour 

Bitten fingernails looks like a anorexic anxiety panic attack 

numbness floods my mind my body disconnects

Acid kiss from a  forever in the Wonder Void 

Your fists make me look so flushed but I already now

Lipstick whore you tricked me and used me like your personal infinite whore 

Dirty drunken plastic nothing I am the nothing and you are the drunk

is all you are if I only would have known you longer before traveling the USA



(Chorus)



I can't feel anything but numb

Dizzy lost daydreaming nightmare flaring 

No tears just rage and alcohol on her breath

Grab a hold of my body hide me from the on coming tragedy ahead

Like a gun in my mouth

I want to pull the trigger and end this 

I want to pull the trigger and end this 

Void Eyes Dead child in a adult hell

I want to pull the trigger and end this 

Void Eyes Dead child in a adult hell 



I Want To Pull The Trigger and End This

Verse 1] (monotone rap-growl calm like counting pills snap 110 bpm march snare bone snaps kick coffin slams twisted glitches atmospheric haunting melodies for numb detachment dread building breath-on-breath wet-on-wet spine-hum lean-in void/glitch cores fused rap/nu-metal bite to feel addictive pull seduction creeping in listener's skin)
Dawn creeps like spider legs spiders that crawl sending shivers up the spine a moment suck on repeat dripping in before the flood like the release of sap tapped to collect a bitter taste but no a feeling sounds break and strike like lighting to the ears a traumatic position I hold close to home the gears shake scream and dislocate
[Verse 2] (post-rock goth atmospheric haunting melodies twisted glitches deep distorted whispers androgynous warp bleed-through protector echo safety mechanism breath-on-breath wet-on-wet to feel eerie immersion addictive seduction euphoria haze swirl when flip 3d audio psychotic despair)
That given response sensations mimic falling reliving the emotional heavy weight the present starts dissolving this space is mine but I don't want to own this fragmented memories in disarray isolated bruised sitting in a room all alone an unknown fate trapped in stasis the air starts to vibrate to the beat of my heart a modified generator that could give life to a city stranded in the dark
[Verse 3] (dark wave melancholic introspection moody drama violent scary vibes hate vacuum stares counts inventory unnamed pull to nothing whispers why not unbuckle to feel melancholic introspection addictive addiction seduction tying listener in euphoric binaural beats)
In nights in covered in sweet fighting attackers in my sleep dreams within claustrophobia skin turns the color blue burning like the sun hiding in spaces where no one can find the past shapeshifts to present wishing my mind was blind a built in phobia I just can't fight can you relate remembrance causes me like a ghost to disappear darkness veils awareness flashing images the nightmares relived
[Chorus] (glitch drops chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep to wail chaotic energy powerful drop psychedelic prog haze swirl when flip 3d audio psychotic despair choke on stop spine-hum lean-in cosmic horror under breath to feel overwhelming chaos addictive sexuality seduction euphoria binaural beats tying in listener)
Movement within moments on a never ending rally to decimate morphing repeating clips on shuffle devoured in pain emotional burns scars that always will remain skin changes shades to as pale as a post mortem display like cryogenic stasis I try now to translate screams echoing feelings of shame eat away at my being like the time it takes for a flesh eating bacteria be fatal it destroys my sense of what's real
[Bridge] (60 bpm heartbeat stutter whispers reversed looping memory static like repetitive trauma dark wave ethereal wave moody drama violent scary vibes vacuum pull to nothing no meds just survival code drop <20 db silence before scream pitch crack unexpected insane sub-bass rumbles to feel disorientation reliving horror addictive addiction seduction euphoria binaural beats)
My chest my heart strikes the bone like needles scraping against it's surfaces electricity sends my body into fits of the terrors all happening when I am awake when everything is normal I could be doing anything no one can see eyes open staring off silent until it moves on wounds that are infused in blood can't be healed with medication or surgery therapy is just a way to find ways to keep living


Can You Relate

0:00-0:20] Intro
Hospital rooms white walls wood doors... Silent halls blue floors lost space cold... Done floor stone...
(Snap to 110 BPM.)
[0:20-1:00] Verse 1
Cuts cover wrapped white cotton, Emotions dull vibrations voices hold close, Whispers lullaby, Mind 4 tones voices grip back sides. No memory caged holder, Dripping clips flashes blend, Given take numbed skeletons veins. Numb expression fire inside, World blurry glasses switch minds, Emotions unwind face phantoms forth waking dissociative dream faded ghost melted within...
[1:00-1:20] Chorus
Disabled refuse rest sleep, Doctor tried help turned future walked away. Flight fight blood, Dysphoria spit gender fragmentation buried pain, Numb physical mental disaster... End everything...
[1:20-2:00] Verse 2
Nurses pills wipe mind, Attack steel door asleep, Injected sedatives held screaming pain. Wrapped white switch fight protector forth singed sleep, Cycling emotions clouds move, Lock states static echoing memory hostage multiverses bullet holes. Brought place attack person kill faulty programmer hit around, Crush self words hurt shame years suicide stalked walking dreams...
[2:00-2:20] Chorus
Disabled refuse rest sleep, Doctor tried help turned future walked away. Flight fight blood, Dysphoria spit gender fragmentation buried pain, Numb physical mental disaster... End everything...
[2:20-2:40] Bridge
Recycle rage body words bent shape raped stranger, Split senses tears pool silent cold storage. Weeping broken mind sings untwisted tones embrace shattered soul, Mask against another speak mute holy core dark show art burn time...
[2:40-3:00] Verse 3 / Outro Build
System shut divide wake away, Room 13 age 15 lost eyes shift wind, Hear screaming children background, Beat head wall, Wake different mind light consumed. Look tunnel uncontrollable movements, Protect gift stay safe, Visions broken glass reflect light ceiling, Wish die...
[3:00-3:20] Outro
Read poems saved wrote lifetime cracked scars bleed heart, Sickness mentally bound complex trauma eyes blend dissociative identity hidden design. Nurture neglected room abandoned carriers keys hope dreams, Open eyes corner room stare words tragic empty roads travel locked frozen lost soul badge wear... (Fade: "dissociative... echoes... eternal, whispers black, sighs ashes forever")


Room 013

Echo's N MelanKholyia: A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Goshen, Indiana, Echo's N MelanKholyia emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Echos or Mothyii—this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.