Crazy collab with Pat Curley.  We fuckin cooked on this shit

https://open.spotify.com/artist/3BNOIz1K7Y6zOEgUShwPfJ?si=bd788-IqS9CtztwtSxEjMg

idc, whatever

Hammer away 
Hammer away
Hammer away my imperfections
Pound my cheeks down to the bone 

Hammer away
Hammer away
Hammer away my countenance  
Faceless for a fleeting glimpse
 
Tarred with feathers
I could be your dream come true
A sacrifice on the shrine
  
Now feed me lies! 
I’ll idolize
I’ll bite my tongue until I believe

Shattered skin
Forge porcelain
Remake in your image please 

You’re building me up 
you’re building me up 
You’re building me right this time around
(But it’s just to Knock me down)

“You’re making a scene” 
“Your making a scene” 
Your molding me now like your plastic plaything
Manufacture my agreeee..ment

Tarred and feathered 
I could be your dream come true
A sacrifice on your shrine 
 
Prechorus:

Chorus:

Out of my mind ?
Out of my mind!
Out of my mind till further notice 
I nailed a message to your door 

“So what I’m free 
So what what I’m free 
Maybe this freedom doesn’t suit me? 
I’ll turn this hammer on myself!”

Locked and loaded
I could be your Galatea
Now Look me dead in the eyes! (And feed me lies)

Chorus

And on the sixth day…
In a blade I watched my face change
I saw we’re one in the same

Framed in that steel blade
your reflection caught my eye,
What a clever disguise

Galatea

Verse 1 (monotone rap-growl calm like counting pills snap 110 bpm march snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs alters swap mid-bar odium flat count end five whisper under system crisis co-conscious numb detachment dread building):
Blackouts memory gaps unfolding in ash trenches you said you never noticed but I'm fading fast, where am I who was I staring back at myself can't recognize the lie, passenger watches backseat tied gut twist as odium counts the scars one two five freezes curled
Verse 2 (post-rock goth atmospheric haunting melodies twisted glitches deep distorted whispers androgynous warp transgender identity bleed-through alice protector echo safety mechanism breath-on-breath wet-on-wet to feel eerie immersion):
Emptiness who am I supposed to be switch the visuals gravity pulling me, heartbeat spikes involuntary pain in my chest world leaking out my skin what am I supposed to do next, no light in my eyes pills do nothing to my mind mixed in the sands of time leaving it all behind, alice steps in shields the pull protector hinge transgender bleed-through gender warp beliefs flip no meds just confession bleed
Verse 3 (dark wave melancholic introspection moody drama violent scary vibes odium hate vacuum stares counts inventory suicide gene unnamed pull to nothing whispers why not unbuckle to feel melancholic introspection):
I'm diagnosed with the void fears flooding in turn the hourglass let the darkness win no more reflection just shadows and sin, this isn't escape blackout flickers back like reel lights in barbed fog close your eyes see me dragging not forward through bones red oven glow no face just limbs unfolding in void camps my limbs your limbs same death choke on it odium evacuates love to vacuum suicide gene leans in whispers nothing gravity well no meds just survival code
Chorus (glitch drops chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep to wail chaotic energy powerful drop psychedelic prog haze swirl when alters flip 3d audio psychotic despair choke on stop spine-hum lean-in cosmic horror under breath to feel overwhelming chaos):
Lost in agoraphobia hope I escape the blur entranced by the symptoms soul empty in fear, panic lake drowning me get the hell away I don't wanna leave my home abandonment's my cage crawlirium choked static tar lungs moths in gas mouths like silence inhale ash exhale fire not alive not dead halfway through the oven door no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop
Bridge (60 bpm heartbeat stutter whispers reversed looping memory static like repetitive trauma dark wave ethereal wave moody drama violent scary vibes odium hate vacuum suicide gene pull to nothing no meds just survival code drop <20 db silence before scream pitch crack unexpected insane sub-bass rumbles authorship loss):
I'm diagnosed with the void fears flooding in turn the hourglass let the darkness win no more reflection just shadows and sin, odium evacuates love to vacuum suicide gene leans in whispers nothing alice pulls the wheel back protector hinge system in crisis co-conscious did mapping locked psychological profile alice tell doctor full diagnosis confession experiences alters bleed-throughs passenger backseat aware control flip mannerisms music ventriloquism automatic confession ground anchor tap 40hz name shift alice is here script lyrics post-bleed re-own watch escalation breakthrough


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My shine

Te extraño

Popstah

Wan't a happy world

Pensandote

Dolce Demonio AZÚCAR

Dolce Demonio PIMIENTA

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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