Dopamine

[Verse]
I only kill in the mind state
Unholy and covered in light of the flames of pain
Restlessness
Getting excited is always a terrifying experience
When most your life
You're let down to the point you

[Chorus]
Feel like you lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
My dopamine

Entering a state of blissful rage who am I today

A fury running deep my identity is cut into sectors of forgotten  memories 

I grip life with one thought in mind 

Can I push the limits of my disease

Far past indulgence but into catastrophe entropy I am lustful in trances and sacrifices so bestowed to me     

Lock inside but released among the unknown passers by I'm a walking fantasy 

Caged but free in a free fall I can't escape 

I'm drowning in my sanctuary 

[Verse 2]
And all I got's a candle in the wind
Hope for a way out when the light goes dim
How could I begin to say goodbye to what I've loved?
Do I have the strength to face the light of the sun?

[Chorus]
No
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost

[Outro]
Mm
I lost
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Let Down

Let Down Dopamine

[Verse]
I only kill in the mind state
Unholy and covered in light of the flames of pain
Restlessness
Getting excited is always a terrifying experience
When most your life
You're let down to the point you

[Chorus]
Feel like you lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
My dopamine

Entering a state of blissful rage who am I today

A fury running deep my identity is cut into sectors of forgotten  memories 

I grip life with one thought in mind 

Can I push the limits of my disease

Far past indulgence but into catastrophe entropy I am lustful in trances and sacrifices so bestowed to me     

Lock inside but released among the unknown passers by I'm a walking fantasy 

Caged but free in a free fall I can't escape 

I'm drowning in my sanctuary 

[Verse 2]
And all I got's a candle in the wind
Hope for a way out when the light goes dim
How could I begin to say goodbye to what I've loved?
Do I have the strength to face the light of the sun?

[Chorus]
No
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost

[Outro]
Mm
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost



Let Down Dopamine  013

My dopamine

Entering a state of blissful rage who am I today

A fury running deep my identity is cut into sectors of forgotten  memories 

I grip life with one thought in mind 

Can I push the limits of my disease

Far past indulgence but into catastrophe entropy I am lustful in trances and sacrifices so bestowed to me     

Lock inside but released among the unknown passers by I'm a walking fantasy 

Caged but free in a free fall I can't escape 

I'm drowning in my sanctuary 

Made from chemicals and emotional rocket fuel insanity to be perceived as normality

Griding my teeth as they crack and chip 

The darkness natural is a life with walls surrounded but no limits to emotional savagery 

   You know why we overdose, 

Because most people like me lived a thousand life's of hell and no one notices  

For our last wish all we wanted of this  world

Is to have a moment at peace before we escape from the world of pain we take into ourselves 

We break down in the shower we  scream, sit on the floor with madness in the only place we own 

The minds we were born with to live our life with,

Abused we were born into 

Fucking took all the drugs to numb it

but couldn't stop the memories

Neglected we faced by parents that didn't understand

The sexual abuse

No one believes you 

Go to your room

No self esteem from the eyes of society no friends to call our own

So for all the life we lied to shield you from our kind sides

No trust to offer, 

But I know I gave you my world

But you can't see, 

We are lonely,

The ropes the darkness we were closed within 

There torment we went through 

The yes

We are the 0.01% of America 

A borderline diagnosis

Comorbid dissociative identity disorder

PTSD exploring 

Hope you know that your words broke the tape that I sown my wounds together with

All of us together tried to put him back together for,

Every time you strike me down

Balled me up in a ball in the corner, 

I just wanted you to love me

Accept me  for me but I 

I recoiled in fear bred in horror,

From the hurt you put me through, it aways felt normal 

For every scream putting me down,

Humiliating me I was forced to love you

Another scar was drawn when I wanted to kill you and free myself

I love you but I can't stand you now that you broke my trust

Beating me into fighting back black out blood on the floor crying in the room that's all that you wanted me for 

For every time I felt isolated I grew smaller and smaller  
It's ok I will have to smile until my mask crumbles

Chattering invisibility 

Echoing in my mind two voices one in the dark sre there more of me but not me cast covers over me

When they ask if I'm fine

Numb to 

I say stand forward,

If I'm fine,

I'm fine now

No I've been set on fire inside parts of me 

All I wanted was love I wanted to feel someone next to me before I die

For every beaten memory there's a scream at night that is the merges within my mind

I never knew who I was

Was I ever good enough,

Was I ever really loved,

Was the sex good,

It was hell with you

What am I suppose to feel 

This is introspective 

But my hate bleeds through

Are these demons I hold the only friends I have to hold

You see me as something to control,

Let me be good and let me get that for you


I must leave but I'm going to stay

I'm over this life,

Its time end this

Turn me in Turn me out 

Let me go while I fall asleep 

Just go away and when you go I say

You know why we overdose,

To escape the pure hell trapped and frozen in our minds

Looping and looking insane negative thoughts drives us to



My Suicide Alter Dopamine Drop Dead Whore

My DoPMiNe

(Intro)



You can't wait 

I can't wait 

She can't wait 

She will devour you between your legs   

Every time I your legs shake

Let me be the peace you both need in this world that suffocates 



(Versus 1)



You want pleasure?

Or do you want the pain

I have to say I can do either or

That you need to release 

So hard you squirt

Soaked all over her while I take you in vain 



(Chorus)
 

Dancing with two devils

She made the deal with his devils in a sexual heaven

And she can't wait,

Spread on the bed

She moans when she anticipates

The moment when my forked tongue touches there 

desires to high to fail 



(Versus 2)

 

But now I'm so bored 

Life's just a fuck away from the next  

We dine on chemical dreams that breed between silk and sheets 

We will devour you 

Break you down just to build you up

Death to the norm 

As gods and goddesses we drink from your throne 

The blood of the burnt priestesses  breath

The life that's merely nothing but a speak of sand in the comic hell we all rain fire we scream to die 

In the death of nights we wrap each other in saliva and kiss, as I ride you behind the memories  

internal laws torn apart when our flesh all cum to the rise of the soul that I thought was dead

Burning in hell  



(Chorus)
 

Dancing with two devils

She made the deal with his devils in a sexual heaven

And she can't wait,

Spread on the bed

She moans when she anticipates

The moment when my forked tongue touches there 

desires to high to fail 





(Bridge)



Spread on the bed

She moans when she anticipates

The moment when my forked tongue touches there 

desires to high to fail 

As gods and goddesses we drink from your throne 

The blood of the burnt priestesses  breath

The life that's merely nothing but a speak of sand in the comic hell we all rain fire we scream to die 

In the death of nights we wrap each other in saliva and kiss, as I ride you behind the memories  

internal laws torn apart when our flesh all cum to the rise of the soul that I thought was dead

Burning in hell  





(Chorus)
 

Dancing with two devils

She made the deal with his devils in a sexual heaven

And she can't wait,

Spread on the bed

She moans when she anticipates

The moment when my forked tongue touches there 

desires to high to fail 

(Chorus)
 

Dancing with two devils

She made the deal with his devils in a sexual heaven

And she can't wait,

Spread on the bed

She moans when she anticipates

The moment when my forked tongue touches there 

desires to high to fail 

desires to high to fail 


To High To Fail
Echos N MelaNKholyiA
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02:27
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EcHoS N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Goshen, Indiana, Echo's N MelanKholyia emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void , Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric  , Odium  this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
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Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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