(80 BPM crawl-slow: Funeral dragging chains over decaying pill steam, flesh-ripping cannibals with metallic hums, screwdriver scraping steel over WWII reel flicker low-pitch crackle, gas chamber whispers "alter mind... help..." building numb detachment dread in alien hums, distant pill rattle count in haze—haunting whispers layer 3D dark ambiance with vertigo swirl.)
Prescriptions to alter your mind...
When the sides effect cause homicide or ending yourself...
I came to see you, I need help...
(Sudden snap—glitch drop fracture, tempo to 110 BPM death march pulse, nu metal distortion swells with hip hop junkie sludge groove.)
[0:30 - 1:15] Verse 1
(Monotone rap-growl: Calm counting pills, numb detachment voice in hip hop cadence, snare bone snaps marching rhythm, kick coffin slams heavy like prescription rituals, addiction sub-bass tar lungs wheezing ragged—dread building with side effect glitches, creepy whispers "can't take... nightmare...", flesh-ripping cannibals mid-line in dystopian apocalypse vibe, alien tendencies warp 3D audio.)
I can't take life, feeling the way I do I need therapy,
Someone that can guide me to escape nightmare infecting life.
You schedule me to come in once a week,
Diagnosing labels by observing insecurities, beliefs, or feelings, behaviors, oddities.
Let me write you this prescription, and see if it helps you.
Months go by, the worlds so grey,
Numbed from feeling anything, no drive to follow, no desire left.
[1:15 - 1:45] Chorus
(Androgynous male deep wail choking reverb intensity raw release: Glitch drops shatter with chrome wire hair scraping tension, venom drip delays pool into numb grey gurgles, dramatic screams warp apocalyptic in 3D audio—echoing "fixed... paper weight..." layers over violent scary nu metal riffs, lingering torment in voidcore silence bursts with insanity addictive loops.)
Don't forget to refile your bottle,
You don't want to go back to the start...
Endless eyes when you look in the mirror,
Skins dulled from all sensations,
Am I fixed or just a organic paper weight?
This is the end of everything... (glitch drop void silence, bone snap resume, reverse sighs tease)
[1:45 - 2:30] Verse 2
(Growl intensifies with hip hop flow: March verse with snare bone snaps in nightmare rhythm, junkie sludge guitars grind, kick coffin slams like insomnia stabs, sub-bass tar lungs, screwdriver scraping steel glitches mid-line—dislocated hums, hazy shards clank, unholy haze illusions in spooky dystopian vibes, haunting whispers intercut alien hums.)
Lost in day's, hypnotics for nights end,
The insomnia was over baring,
Twitching in bed my muscles are restless,
I stretch until I feel pain looking around the world is dislocated.
Wake to the feeling of floating in a liquid bubble,
Hazy, fogy, disorganized thoughts being swallowed by
A emptiness that is constant, but unable to sense at all.
[2:30 - 3:00] Chorus
(Deep wail choking escalates: Chrome wire scrape builds violent tension, venom drip reverb with pill swallow drips louder, glitch drops into spooky static—dramatic screams fade with ashes wind echoes, alien rock distortion warps to creepy unease, addictive hip hop scratches layer in.)
Don't forget to refile your bottle,
You don't want to go back to the start...
Endless eyes when you look in the mirror,
Skins dulled from all sensations,
Am I fixed or just a organic paper weight?
This is the end of everything... (venom drip echo trails off, child whispers tease reverse)


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This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Echos or Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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