This is not an album. This is an experience.

TRIGGERS is a psychological experiment disguised as music — a deliberate, immersive descent into the darkest corners of trauma, built to seduce, disorient, and devastate.

What begins as danceable, hypnotic, club-ready production slowly unravels into a visceral portrait of mania, hypersexuality, addiction, dissociation, sexual violence, abuse, and survival. 

Every beat draws you in. Every lyric cuts deeper. By the time you realize what you’re truly listening to, you’re already inside it.

This project was never meant to be safe. It was meant to make you feel. It was built for those who’ve walked through fire.

And for those who haven’t — this may be the closest you’ll ever come to understanding what it means to fall apart.

Each song acts as a trigger, by design. The goal is not to exploit, glorify, or shock, but to simulate emotional truth through sensory immersion. The trauma in these tracks is not abstract. It’s lived, it’s real, and it’s relentless.

Due to financial limitations, while every lyric is original and deeply personal, the vocals are AI-generated. The economy makes real-world production difficult — but the vision demanded to be made, even through imperfect tools. Authentic emotion remains at the core.

If you’re looking for a safe space, this isn’t it. But if you need something that doesn’t flinch, doesn’t soften, and doesn’t lie — step forward.
⚠️ CONTENT WARNING – EXTREME THEMES ⚠️
• Sexual violence & coercion
• Self-harm, suicidal ideation, & overdose
• Child abuse, grooming, & trauma
• Eating disorders & dissociation
• Hypersexuality & addiction

This is not entertainment.
This is survival.
Listen with caution.

Good Boy

produced by @prodreaper
mixed by @nick-grivell

i break fast, move slow
don’t ask, they all know
their fake laughs, won’t change
walk past, no names
blades and, roses
my heart stays, frozen
i lay back, breathe deep
i flip through my TV.

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities
i miss the way you smile through the pain
inside your photos
you haunt my dreams

watch the raindrops rolling off the tattoos
on your shoulder
since you left me I’ve grown colder
breathing heavy like theirs boulders on my chest

its real
but all of the rest 
don’t care how you feel
so i think its best
this blood I’ve spilled still goes to waste

i get that membrance of your face
while I’m walking in the downpour of this rain
outside your place, I’m breathing your name

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities

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Blades & Roses -(prod. reaper)

Guitar/Prod; https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke <3

Lyrics:

GrxyIce:
Is it too much 
to want this to fade 
can't i, jus relieve the pain 

distanced myself
fucked up my health
nothing really helps
nothing really helps

GrxyIce & 93:
wear myself thin
bones are snapping again 
an is it too much 

93:
nothing i take 
helps the ache 
numbs my pain 
nothing i do 
lifts the hate 
from my face

giving up on sleep 
i don't wanna breathe 
hide that i'm a fiend
just give up on me 
i'm a waste you'll see 
save your energy

GrxyIce & 93:
wear myself thin 
bones are snapping again
and is it too much 
and is it too much

Is It Too Much w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (Prod. 93)

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scraped my knee on the drywall w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE

produced by @produnown
mixed by @iofmusic

[lyrics]

i don’t mind that you,
won’t get out of bed,
please don’t cry,
when i die, when I’m dead,
and i still try ,
erasing thoughts in my head,
but all i find is,
that I’m so fucking useless,
cigarette ash falls to the carpet,
blood stains in the sink of your apartment,
yeah you stole my heart,
and you swallowed it whole,
i guess ill love you while I’m young ,
because i won’t grow old,
i want to see your face as i fall asleep,
place your hand upon my chest while laying next to me,
I’m gonna break your heart but you knew this,
and i can’t do shit because I’m useless,
i see it when i look in your eyes,
I’m just gonna waste your time,
i see it when i look in your eyes,
I’m just gonna waste your time,

Useless - (prod. unown)

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

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Ｉ　ＷＡＮＴ

//古いルーツ//

ＦＯＬＬＯＷ　ＤＥＣＫＷＩＮＥ
https://soundcloud.com/deckwine

lyrics
--------
it's just like you
to fall back to your old routes
nothing is true
fall in love with someone new
and their face
& their eyes
their hellos
& goodbyes
you're chasing a high
and it's making me cry
i'm sick of the lies
don't tell me you'd die for me
just to lie to me
baby why do i believe?

when you tell me that you love me
no joke i've been cravin' your company
last minute you switched you don't fuck with me
that's rough kinda sucks but luckily 
i don't need you as much as i thought
sever all ties with the love i want
sitting alone in this restaurant 
with a ghost of a girl you'll forever haunt

she's not around no more
vacancy screams from my bedroom door
i cannot take this shit anymore
writing these words till my fingers sore

it's just like you
to fall back to your old routes
nothing is true
fall in love with someone new
and their face
& their eyes
their hellos
& goodbyes
you're chasing a high
and it's making me cry
i'm sick of the lies
don't tell me you'd die for me
just to lie to me
baby why do i believe?

follow deckwine

old roots (prod. by deckwine)

@splashgvng
@barrenwaste

premiered/hosted by sad chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBF9w0jchUM

dont you hate the part
when we start to fall into pieces?
and its a work of art
the way you walk into my room
and how u keep me awake
even when ur not around
she always puts me to shame
its such a lame relation
ill take all the blame as long as it helps you sleep at night
i hope to haunt your life

maybe someday we’ll get past it all
but for right now you can watch me ball
got your front seat on the sidelines
and i dont give a fuck if u start to cry

yeah u sow what u reap baby
ive slept in all damn week baby
im still waitin for u to come back to me

lost it all again
but ill get back up every time til i win
lost it all again
if u loved me once, u can do it again

i loved you once but thats the last time itll ever be
ill be fuckin damned if u ever again make a fool of me
wastin all my money on the drugs that keep me lonely
anxiety ridden phony
let the 9 cock back and blow me
out of this planet
and ill b damned if
any of u fuckers take the one thing that i need; its singin a song
for all u singin along
tried to love u once but now u know im done

Follow me <3

like melo, baby (ft. barren) [prod. splashgvng]

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ＤＥＳＴＲＯＹ　ＥＡＣＨ　ＯＴＨＥＲ？

//私たちは病気です//

tysm to @jvbeats666 for creating this beauty with me
go show him some luv 

lyrics
--------
whiskey pour another cup
nothing like the feeling of getting so fucked up
off the last lost breath of a lover that you once
had but she ran with a man much better than yourself
i think i need help
i think i can touch the sky & grip orion's belt
taking off my vans full of sand and some shells
heaven ain't the place for me but i can hear the bells

they say that an angel is self defined 
so when i describe
the girl that lost her mind
the sky will probably cry
but the rain won't mind
if you cry too
feel alive when the sky makes the clouds move
raindrops fall but i fall harder 
light reflects off the water in the harbor
i don't care to compare what i'm told
to what i believe cause i'm still all alone


i've been tryna get back home
but i don't know which road
to take before i can awake from this nightmare
i'm cold
all alone
got the wind straight blowin' in my face i can feel it in my bones
if i smoke
will the clouds lift my body from this place cause i don't feel at home

what's a home without a lover
what's a road without another
how did we destroy each other
how did we destroy each other

follow jay vee

all alone (prod. jay vee)

stella // @edacityy

7.  over you
feat. lil lotus
mix by brody 
prod splashgvng & brody

[Lil Lotus]
Fuck your new tattoos
And your sweater in my room
It still smells like you
And there's nothing I can do

I was just waiting for something more
And I guess that you were too
So I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you again

[Edacity]

I'll be a fly on the wall watching all of your pitfalls
Every time im comin down i think about you
If anybody ever calls askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell ‘em all the things i do

The ways i move
The words i choose
When im beside you
When i try to be alone

Mirror mirror on the wall
Whos the fakest of them all
Took a moments time to paint a picture like you
If anybody ever calls Askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell them All the things i dooo

What do i do?
Ill remind you
Im beside you
When i try to Be alone

Come on out here why you doin this 
We be on that good shit like 
yeah yeah we doin this 
Come and throw it down like you done do this 
Got my shit together i got iced wrists  

But this glass heart it stays broke
Hell its endless 
Youre heartless i'm choking
How dare you come around 
when you just know that 
Life will end this 
And we're so damn hopeless 

I want to breath life into misery 
I’ve spent enough nights alone at peace 
Never knowing where i’ll be
Not coming to terms is on me

I'll bury all these bones from our history (it's an artifact)
It took 3 years to feel complete
Never knowing where i'll be
Not coming to terms is on me

over you (ft. lil lotus) [prod. splashgvng & brody]

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