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Can I talk to you Annie,
didn't really occur to me that I may or may not have said some things to you about myself when I was younger.
This may have to do with some 'certain things' about me.

When I was younger,
probably around kindergarten or about a year before,

my mom would give me handjobs;
I'd take her hand, and I'd make her stroke me.
I didn't think much of it until I was older.

There was this one day,
when I just wanted to be with my mom in her bed and sleep and lie down,
kid stuff,

my dad was there too.

I reached over to grab my moms' hand to
you know
for her to stroke me.

After 'I was finished' I suppose,
I found out it wasn't my moms' hand.

It was my dads'.
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Sometimes when I was younger too,
I'd hump my moms' legs,
in-between her thighs,
to 'get myself off', you know....

Now that I'm older I just think why they would allow this at all to happen.

I don't know what you think,
but if you had a young child wanting to feel sexual pleasure,
would you allow that?

Not even as a want,
it shouldn't be allowed, I believe.

The more I think about it,

I think I have some sexual tensions and unresolved sexual trauma that I take out on you sometimes.



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I'm so stressed out about using my own trashcan at home,
because my dad WILL go through it and take things out that he thinks can be reused. Containers, plastic bags.

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He's getting wasted again.
Makes me feel sad and disappointed.

The priest who heard my confession said it was unrealized childhood trauma that can't resolve itself and my conflicting emotions are the result of that inability.

He told me I should pray when I feel this way
especially when I'm angry

and "that I shouldn't throw bricks at windows."

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Ein (@ein.garden)