Featuring @p33_fyb
Produced by @jakkyboi
Mixed & mastered, additional vocals by @horoshamusic
Art by @spookygang

LYRICS
Is this really how it ends
You swore we'd always be the best of friends
And foolishly I believed that
Everything would work out like you said
What happened to our best laid plans
Blood stains my hands again

(P33)
For real is this how it ends
I never thought I'd live
Long enough to lose you as a friend
I miss having you by my side
Summer night getting high in your ride
You'd pass me over the aux
Bump Blink and we would get lost

(P33, Horosha & Carlby)
Knives in my back where you put them
You closed the book and wrote the end
Curtain falls and now they're all laughing
I hope this makes you happy

(P33 & Carlby)
You really think you did something
But truth is you're still nothing
I'll sleep without a problem
'Cause I got a clean conscience

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Best Friends Means Forever w/ P33 (Prod. jakkyboí)

I don’t wanna do this anymore 
leave me dead here on the floor 
I don’t wanna sleep in bed 
Since you left me all alone 
I feel your presence everywhere 
your voice is in the air 
I wish you didn’t think that I just never fucking cared 

I’m falling apart again 
I get no rest at night 
heart beating, I’m alive, I’m never getting high 
cause I’m broken from the feeling that you left inside 
my heart, cause It was hard for me to stop feeding you all those lies 

there’s no excuse for my shitty behavior 
maybe you just fuckin did yourself a favor 
I’m a fuck up and I don’t deserve you 
5 years of every memory I’ll never forget you 

I don’t blame you for leaving me alone 
Cause I know, you’re better off without me 

I’m going days without eating again 
I’m broke and I’m barely getting out of my bed 
I’m getting fucked up every chance that I get 
cause I never want to feel this feeling of regret pounding my chest 
In my head it’s always gonna be my fault 
I’m closed off and I bottle up everything I should talk about 
it’s so hard for me to say it out loud 
But I am not okay and I don’t see a way out

i don't wanna do this anymore... (prod. Afterlife x Pekarot)

Original song "Emily" by From First to Last

Emily (From First to Last cover)

this is the first beat I bought and the first song I made with jolst :)

lyrics 

painful like a blister
optimism is a sickness
call a liar as ur witness
just to cover up ur tracks
contemplating on my wisdom
do u take the chance n miss em
do u turn around n kiss him
just to validate ur act
but u don't stick to ur bones
there's time to change ur mind n call ur parents n go home
christ, God, put down the phone
binary solarity too hard for u to cope

oh, I'm nothing but a stoner
I'm a deadweight better as a loner
u can cry girl I can be ur shoulder 
I'm alone and I'm only getting colder

my brain has faulty wiring
tryna get undone
the doctors call it bpd
I'm messed up as they come
cause every minor set back 
leaves the feeling of a gun
pressed to my head n then I panic
cause the the chamber to be spun
hey aren't u shamed?
aren't u so n sos ex?
idk maybe I'm just tryna forget
I find it kinda funny that I'm known for my regrets
but the people that uv loved will always try to get revenge
the pain is in my brain n I swear it's gonna last
I'm still got up on the shit that happened to me in my past
disregarding all my feelings cause the time is moving fast
and my friends are placing bets on how long they think ima last
oh I bet that I'll see u in the nighttime 
bad dreams, cracked seams with the red eyes 
my bloods worth less than ur damn time
I'm a corpse tryna fight off these damn flies
oh I already told ya
I won't be sober till some point after October
time flies everyday we gettin older
we grindin hard, we just tryna find some closure

binary solarity (Jolst)

i really gotta go to sleep but i'm thinking bout u
you don't know how much it hurts when i say i miss u
i stopped shedding tears cuz i couldn't afford the tissues
we both got way too many issues

we both live a life of sins
we bottle up so many things
you've got a lot of lies in your head
and we might drown them in your bed

you give me love and let me live my life
so i don't mind u talking to other guys
i just wanna dry all the tears in your eyes
it's okay if you fall as long as you try

we got opposite problems,
 i think i got way too many friends
if my life was a movie 
i wouldn't watch it again

you make smile and you make me wanna cry
we don't talk much but i'm 
addicted to your vibe

i really gotta go to sleep but i'm thinking bout u
you don't know how much it hurts when i say i miss u
i stopped shedding tears cuz i couldn't afford the tissues
we both got way too many issues

we both live a life of sins
we bottle up so many things
you've got a lot of lies in your head
and we might drown them in your bed

you give me love and let me live my life
so i don't mind u talking to other guys
i just wanna dry all the tears in your eyes
it's okay if you fall as long as you try

we got opposite problems,
 i think i got way too many friends
if my life was a movie 
i wouldn't watch it again

you make smile and you make me wanna cry
we don't talk much but i'm 
addicted to your vibe

a life of sins

a life of sins (metlast x 5head)

prod.https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCaQubUq-qq53t8CH6rlh5Bg

sifar (prod.VOV)

self-prod

ibleedicare - https://soundcloud.com/slaughter-tone-records
epitome - https://soundcloud.com/failure404
xipz - https://soundcloud.com/xipz_sad

Encore w/ IBleedicare, epitomeoffailure & lil XipZ

all credit to green day!

thanks to IOF for this amazing production!

blvd of broken dreams. COVER [+IOF]

~from the tall trees
~to the clouds above
~time will never stop for us
~I guess I'm out of luck.

tired eyes

lyrics:

you know i tried to leave behind
all the foolishness that i let wring my neck
still my demons chase me
and i let them hold me down instead
yeah, i'm slowly killing all them
and i know i need to hurry this shit up now, but
all the time it takes to kill these motherfuckers
takes its toll

ooh, tried to be the bigger man and it fucked me
ooh, tried to make peace with all of my long lost love
oo-ooh, pretty sure most of them are sayin fuck me
oo-ooh, none of them give a shit cause i fucked it up

knew that walking this path to kill off my ego 
wouldn't be an easy one
know that all that it takes is one little thing
to get me mad or leave me crushed
i've been trying to asphyxiate all the old me,
shit that always gets me stuck
but i don't wanna lose my soul in the process
cleaning up the mess i've caused

ooh, tried to be the bigger man and it fucked me
ooh, tried to make peace with all of my long lost love
oo-ooh, pretty sure most of them are sayin fuck me
oo-ooh, none of them give a shit cause i fucked it up

feel you now [prod. rinne]

evan carr