nevrfall sequel 😈

shoutout @ztope for mix and mastr

lyrics

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth, picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

ill wait, wait for u to call my name 
uh, but
we dont got long i wont be forming greys
hey,
this aint my fault i was saved 
had no choice, i was left in acid rain
 

no, now u jus stabbin me
dont, dont let me off easy
woah i cant tell if this a dream 
mirror always fogs when i think i know what i see

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 

pulled on strings oh im more than aware
oh im not lost i just reak of despair

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth while picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

paying fees to the dark and unstable
sparks flare as the tags on the toes are unabaled
hearts warm but its taking its toll on the brain
step forward, im in need of updating

everythings gonna be ok

everythings gonna be ok (nevrfall)

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/sakuradoves 
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Cover Art By https://soundcloud.com/vendilmz
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(akiradoves)
you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

so tell me why you stabbed me in my back 
you're acting like a little bitch don't know why
you ripped my heart i think i'm just a waste
i think it's about time that you let me go

(sakuradoves)
darling let me go im falling in the snow
i wonder if you know
how much i need you sleeping with me 
baby im so empty maybe they gon envy
when im going up with you now

yeah yeah yeah up with you now
come bring me out 
stuck in this crowd of the memories
from the past living 
fast have fun killing me

(akiradoves) 
i should of known that you'd leave me for him
oh i apologies for the things i did
i fumbled my words way too much 
i wanna be together forever

you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

mistake w/ sakuradoves (nevrfall)

i remember fl 12 up on my satellite
i remember when i got the shitty focusrite
2nd gen solo wit the broken always lit up light
dropped 200 on it but atleast i got a mic

i got a way to uncompress all of my feelings
the folders way too big its gone corrupt no chance of healing
anxiety and  stress just raise the pressure to the ceiling
until i fuckin burst and all my friends just see the real me

but i dont know who i am
im almost 21 years old and what the fuck is my plan
im sick of people claiming family but dont give a damn
i try to grasp on to what i love but my fingers are jammed
fuck

shoutout pluto for the way you helped me from the start
was always there for me you hold a place inside my heart
ur like a brother and i cannot thank you quite enough
id love to stay but all this shit has gotten way too rough

id love to stay but i believe that its my time to go
i hope that when im gone youll listen to this as a note
i hope you start to analyze the lyrics that i wrote
when i was at my fuckin lowest wit no chance of hope

and i cannot see the birhgt side
always been a pessimistic cunt without a lifeline
never had someone to hold or even one to talk to
but that was until october 19th when i met you

thank you ally for the way you make me feel okay
thank you ally for wiping the tears off of my face
maybe ill be perfect and ill have the words to say
but at least for now im happy wit u in my place

i just hit 10 thousnad plays and its because of you
never woulda had an outlet for my navy blue
now im burnt out and i dont know what the fuck to do
so i guess il say goodbye and leave the scene to bloom
and i know that you gon be okay without me
everybody doin their own thing and founding
their collectives and their labels fuck the indsutry
aint nobody give a fuck abou you in the scene

everybody only care about themselves
try to latch onto the edge of fame and i just fuckin fell
try to battle wit the music and my own mental health
i cant keep it in no more im scared ill end up in hell

for the sins that i project upon the people in this room
am i really blowin up or am i left here to be doomed
i wanna hot box in my car wit the motherfucking exhaust fumes
cuz you never woulda been there for me motherfucker fuck you
fuck

but now im movin on to bigger things
i pinky promise im okay dont worry about me
dont worry bout the things i do dont watch me as i bleed
onto the flower carpet that i got when i was 17

so believe me when i tell you that im sorry
i know my disappearence is super fuckin dishearteniing
but its good for me dont see it as alarming
im like a loaded gun with no safe method to disarm me

i know my friends are really sad to see me walk away
got 10 thousand plays but got no raise within my little fame
i wont see the day i hit a million cuz ill be gray
and 6 feet under with the way that things have gone today

so i guess this is the end my final time has come
i declared a war not knowing of the outcome
i went in over my head i thought that i had won
but i ate my fucking words like ima eat this fucking gun

they say that you can only get so high
before you crash and burn when you fall out of the blue sky
im done acting like i car im sick of this disguise
so ima bite the bullet literally and meet demise

dont act like you knew me whenever i die
everybody saying "oh i rly liked that guy"
then tell me why you couldnt help when i was alive
so this is the ending of my life
this is my last goodbye

goodbye. (jewelryboy)

somewhere you’ve abandoned

drawn 2 u (flesh)

Track 9 on my album 'for better or worse'!

produced by @livingpuffy 

Lyrics:
grey skies through bloodshot eyes 
i still can’t feel a thing but at least i’m trying 
take me there to a place i’m not terrified 
can you see in my face all the black and blue i hide 
it takes a toll when you walk in circles 
working miracles just to find a new low 

when you found me 
i had nowhere to hide 
broken felt dead inside 
transparence amplified
took the long way 
to find a reason why
needing to rectify 
strung out from taking my time 
ill call it bad but youll call it luck 
meet in the middle shake off this rut 
that i’ll kick when i find my place 
when you found me 
you caught me in my fall 
had nothing left to give 
so i gave you my all 

start to think that maybe i’m colorblind 
pull the shades feel the light as i try to remind myself through the fear and doubt
what it’s like to be strong when the lights go out
but maybe i’m wrong and maybe you’re right 
that we’re not all gone to win a desperate fight
and i know that 
it’s beginning
if you’re with me
then i’m winning

when you found me [prod. LIVING PUFF]

unfinished
oct 22
scrap
night

lyrics:
remember when u said that it was the little things
that were differing
like the potholes we danced in, my street filled with rain, like a symphony
is that what you mean?
fallen branches littered every chance of us
i might cancel on you
the night we split is ringing in my head, im done
i can’t see this through

watch the last
two years of my life
slip away like a bad dream
u never quite had me at all
im just lookin onward
it pains me to think about
you while you sleep in his arms
remember the night
we sat under stars
soaked it all in
while we’re fallin apart
i hope this is all just a bad dream
i’d be happy

press pause, you can resume later [king theta]

Track 1 on my album 'for better or worse'

Guitars by BENNYKAAY 
Drums by me

Lyrics:
i’m waiting for something i don’t know exists 
imperfect reflection of a hope for happiness 
can something remind me why i started this 
from the start to end 
feel like i’m lost again 

i’m waiting for something i don’t know is true 
a perfect example of what I’d want this to do 
but i worry what the story has for me and you

give me a second just enough so i can empty my head 
a second chance that I could use to heal
clinging to moments where I thought that it would all stay the same 
my coping method cuz i still feel 

lost (x2)
so if you read between the lines 
you can see why this is dying 
but until then 
i’m spent 
wasting away, never enough

beginning of the end 
or the end of the end of the beginning 
i try to keep my head up 
but there’s always something missing 
darling 
what’s missing darling 
what’s missing?

at the beginning or the end 
i think i’m lost

lost pt. II [prod. BENNYKAAY & evan carr]

Missing 
Missing all the pieces that I’m into 
Missing every turn when I’m with you 
I can’t move 
I can’t lie

Missing 
Missing all the pieces that I’m into 
Missing every turn when I’m with you 
I can’t move 
I can’t lie
If only, if only I knew
Hitting 
Up your phone again
I’m addicted 
Say I lose, I win 
You’re convincing and committing 
To these love lies

I don’t want to step down on your toes 
I don’t really want you to ever know  
How it feels to try to lie

Heavy 
Feeling like the games been ready
Hefty 
I can carry baggage in me
Deadly
Making it sting much worse than a bee 
Steady
Insects rolling in my belly 
Sweaty 
Buzzin off just like a tele 
Petty
I’ma keep it to myself this week 

Missing 
Missing all the pieces that I’m into 
Missing every turn when I’m with you 
I can’t move 
I can’t lie
If only, if only I knew
Hitting 
Up your phone again
I’m addicted 
Say I lose, I win 
You’re convincing and committing 
To these love lies

Missing 
Missing all the pieces that I’m into 
Missing every turn when I’m with you 
I can’t move 
I can’t lie
If only, if only I knew
Hitting 
Up your phone again
I’m addicted 
Say I lose, I win 
You’re convincing and committing 
To these love lies

love lies

love lies (prod. S&S)

ft. 13 year-old me
prod by @tiedforsilver
mastered by teddyboi
Stream "Fall Again" on all plats:
https://open.spotify.com/track/0DWB3T60GOLC5e6oY4rlVL?si=201a522488bb4a79
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUqyBof-Thk

lost pt. II [prod. BENNYKAAY & evan carr]

evan carr

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