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you tore my heart apart 
now I try to put it back together 
you’re my only love 
I wish that I could be with you forever 
Yeah I fucked up and now you’re gone 
and I don’t know what to do with myself 
Every days the same 
I can’t wash away the pain
so I switch up my meds 
can’t sleep in my bed 
cause I’m always wondering if I’m in your head 

wakin up every day to this life it Fuckin sucks 
Always having you on my mind and I wanna wish you luck 
wish we could’ve worked, I’m always drinking now, I’m fucked 
im going days without eating and only filling up my cup 

I’m running on empty 
cause I don’t have you here anymore 

I do the same thing every day 
Getting high is my escape 
so I don’t have to think of all the problems 
how I couldn’t solve them 
so I write these poems 
singing how I feel so numb 

nothing works anymore 
I’m so empty down to the core 
you closed up all of your doors 
left me here on the floor 

I’m feeling so anxious 
Cause I be fighting this depression 
I never learned my lesson 
always waiting for a message 

God don’t even listen to me 
answer all my questions 
I am always fuckin stressed 
living without any direction 

You were such a blessing 
gave so much affection 
just enough attention 
a beautiful connection 
I always see your reflection 
When I am looking for perfection 
writing songs about you 
fuck, I’m feeling so depressive

everyday's the same (prod. Afterlife)

Project: Neon Inferno 

Prod. by Metlast

Featuring seejoyy

Socials:

Neon Dion: https://www.thoughtformwi.com/neondion
SeeJoyy:  https://www.instagram.com/seejoyy/

Lyrics: 

Intro(Neon)

Woaaah, woaah

Hook (Neon)

Two Hearts thousand miles apart broken
A bond of souls, something unspoken
intertwined in dreams I've awoken
safe with the answers still unopened
lost in all of limbo's illusions
pieces of my life left in ruins
awaiting destiny's reunion
either way fuck all your conclusions

na na na na na woah

Verse (Seejoy)

Like twin flames 
hurt me more than anyone I've known
your eyes 

like twin flames 
hurt me more than anyone I've known
your eyes had me heartbroken 
I dream of you 
I can't fight this 
know I'll see you again
somewhere other than 
the back of my eyelids 
the connection we shared
was more than average have
or ever find in their lifetime 
I don't think I'll find another you...
another you

Hook (Neon)

Two Hearts thousand miles apart broken
A bond of souls, something unspoken
intertwined in dreams I've awoken
safe with the answers still unopened
lost in all of limbo's illusions
pieces of my life left in ruins
awaiting destiny's reunion
either way fuck all your conclusions

Limbo (w/ Seejoyy)(Prod. Metlast)

produced by irby and jolst

mixed and mastered by luke seeley (flowers for you)

will you still keep me in mind when he holds you like i did the last time our eyes locked?
miss the way our hands intertwine
i hope i cross your mind in the warm sunshine

seclusion, unwarranted exclusion
can't help but think of what you're doing, but i gotta keep it moving
now the only way to admire is afar cause straits are dire
so i'll just stay at home cause i know youre sick and tired
used to slam with the best, now i jam like the rest
after all your detests i just wish you were on my chest

don't wanna go back to searching for you in everyone, i just wanna be the one you wanna call your only one.
and i know that we said that we were both just having fun, but life without you seems much worse than staring down a loaded gun.
you were the one for me, i let you slip away.
it eats me alive, makes me wanna die. i miss you more every day.
wishing for you on falling stars, still i wonder where you are.
i hope i cross your mind in the warm sunshine.

keep me in mind (prod. irby x jolst)

prod frevel & 5head

i decided to try and recreate my old 2019 mix for this one and i rlly like how it turned out

lyrics:

run it back run it back, yea 
snow so cold that i cannot feel my hands yea
ima need to take a break lil baby 
but i’ll be right back
and her smile so sweet
that i can’t stay mad

but i can but i can yea 
runnin shit sendin shots at ur man yea 
she the queen, she hold it down
in the netherrealm 
when i’m not around 
catch the smoke
from 100 rounds
can u hold it down 
4 the GANG (no idea why i said that, i’m sorry)

think u need to switch it up
go change ur attitude 
and i can’t wrap my head round this shit
he can’t have you too 
x2

ur the sun and the stars and the moon and the sky, 
nah i don’t wanna talk to u lil bitch go get offline’d 
and i’m never fuckin sober smokin cookie till i die, yea
i jus need some help think i’m struggling tonight 
x2

run it back run it back, yea 
snow so cold that i cannot feel my hands yea
ima need to take a break lil baby 
but i’ll be right back
and her smile so sweet
that i can’t stay mad

but i can but i can yea 
runnin shit sendin shots at ur man yea 
she the queen, she hold it down
in the netherrealm 
when i’m not around 
catch the smoke
from 100 rounds
can u hold it down 
4 the GANG

netherrealm (frevel x 5head)

<3 
lyrics vvv
[empty]
i needa
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
took ten steps back 
just to realize i was gone baby
every single night that i been writing
i been zoned baby
every single time that ive been dead
you were right besides me inside my head
think a little, think a little
i know that shit hurts
but you gotta be aware
if i really want everything,
ill prove it.
yeah ill prove it..

[casperrr]
i know you are loyal i know you're by my side
but my head keeps on telling lies
i'll keep my thoughts out of ur sight
i'm just trying to do what i think is right 
sorry didn't mean to cry 
dunno if this is love dunno if there's a why
hurting and bleeding baby u're like blade
if i hold you tighter i'll feel more pain
blood keeps on leaking from my veins 
blood on my shirt it's full of stains
i can't fucking think i'm killing what's left of my brain 
don't want all of my efforts to be in vain

[empty]
i needa
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..

formula. w/ casperrr (splashgvng)

single #2! new EP out November 5th!

featuring @bruiseronline

produced by @kingtheta

lyrics:
(verse 1) 
funny how they always call it a “good”bye 
when all i ever really felt was a big lie 
i’ll never play it off like this was nice try
i’m settling for nothing, lay me down on a land mine 
am i numb? 
is this anything i want? 
past the point, where i’m done
should i still be holding on?
ill say i’m disappointed 
truth is i’m just annoyed it’s 
not what i really wanted 
one more word i’m wasting my breath (fuck)

(hook)
it’s a cover up 
what i say to myself 
feelings bottled up 
i’m all alone and i’m trapped in this hell 
no signs just yet but i’m still trusting 
that you’ll be back it’s so disgusting 
are you gone or are you bluffing 
you’re in my head while i do nothing 

(verse 2 - bruiser)
you never called it out so now you're sitting by yourself
down and out, i'll play my part - did you play your cards right?
so don't get teary-eyed in my demise
is it a point to make or am I missing something?
i'll say i’m disappointed but i’m just annoyed 
it’s not what i wanted don’t waste my breath 

(bridge) 
while i do nothing, it brings you back 
try my best to just leave you in the past
are you gone yet?
are you bluffing?
in my head while i do nothing

while i do nothing (feat. bruiser) [prod. King Theta]

Featuring @scoobisalright
Produced by @jolst, @dercept & @horoshavibes
Engineering, additional vocals by Horosha

LYRICS
Had a lot of dark days back then
I was in a dark place back when
You fell out of love with me
And fell in love with him instead

Like how does that work
Does he treat you better
Than me
Probably not
I should just forget her
All my friends keep telling me that I should just forget her

But I can't
I don't know how
I could ever let go
I'm an old soul
I need you to hold me down
Stuck inside a ghost town
Nothing ever goes down
Might as well go ghost now

(Going ghost)
Stuck inside a ghost town
Looking for a way out
(I can't find a way though I really fucking want to)
Nothing ever goes down
In this ghost town

(scøøb)
In this ghost town
I feel I finally let go
Of my old self
How I was so blinded by your cold stare
Tell me would you wait there

Wait for me
Forever and after
'Cause I can't hold back the memories that haunt me
Yeah I feel them running back when had our first kiss
Way way back then
Yeah I never thought it'd come to this

Listen on Spotify!

Ghost Town w/ scøøb (Prod. Jolst, dercept & Horosha)

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below (branwen x rvrhiv)

listen on spotify plz

u did dis 2 mee (dercept & jolst)

EPITOME:

holding on to my chest
i’m barley breathing
cant get you out of my head
now on the floor i lay bleeding
your eyes were deceiving 

i’ll crawl until there’s nothing left of me
oh cant you set me free
from this sick life i lead
disgusted with how i look
can i even wake up from this
never ending nightmare
might as well just die here
if i’m just gonna lie here

might as well you might as well
leave me in this hell

EMPTY:

ion take care of myself
i got blood on my fuckin pants
barely eat right 
procrastinate the goddamn advance
in body process 
cause it makes me mad
cus it makes me mad
and it makes me sad

i got 10 grand inside my fuckin duffel bag 
i got 10 g pure diamonds but im empty n thats a fact
"i got, i got, i got, i got, i got,"
what you got?
doing all this talking shit but bitch aint barked but once, like

you're fake
im bait
what did u say
what did i say
i mustve said something wrong cus nothin rly ever lasted
every single time that we was otp u was blasted
i just fucking miss u man who the fuck r u now
i just need protection or else im heading 4 the ground

spotify <3

no matter how hard i try i’ll never be enough w/ emptychest (fijin)

I tried my very best,
it didn't go to plan,
it probably hurt you more,
all you wanted was a friend,
to you I was never that


You're chasing waterfalls,
Please catch me when I fall,
pretend that you're in love again,
like everybody else
and ive been off these drugs again i dont care abt my health

And I suck, at types,
I always seem to be lied to,
when we fight, your eyes,
they change, its like I don't know you

Waterfalls (prod. Hieloways)

new album 'for better or worse' releasing March 24th!!

while i do nothing (feat. bruiser) [prod. King Theta]

evan carr

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