Sad life

🗿

@jvbeats666

in my dreams i just stand there shaking

think im better off never waking again

toxic [prod. jay vee]

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

https://youtu.be/jC7zDQt944M

I get high through the night...

Litter Bug <3 <3 <3 (Prod. Casual Affairs) ***video in description***

i redid it so i dont feel so bad about posting it. luv u.
beat by LXVE - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWouqy0lObxP_6kKIZvIiDg

voodoo [remastered]

Now on SPOTIFY & APPLE etc.

Produced by: @otterpop123 Feat. @beabadoobee
Suggested from Martin <3

Lyrics:

Hook

Dont stay awake for too long
Dont go to bed
Ill make a cup of coffee for your head
Ill get u up and going out of bed

v1
I don’t wanna fall asleep
I don’t wanna pass away
Thinking of r future cuz 
Ill never see those days

I don’t know why this has happened
But I probably deserve it
I tried to do my best
But u know that I’m not perfect

Ive been praying for forgiveness
you’ve been praying for my health
when I leave this earth
Hoping you’ll find somebody else

Cuz ya we still young
Theres so much we haven’t done
Getting married
Start a family
Watch ur husband with his son

I wish it could be me
But I won’t make it off this bed
Hope I go to heaven so I see u once again

Ya my life was kind of short
But I got so many blessings
happy u were mine 
it sucks that its all ending

v2
Im happy that u here w me
Sorry if I tear up
When me and u were younger
U would always make me cheer up

taking goofy videos
And walking through the park
U would jump into my arms 
Every time u heard a bark

We would cuddle in your sheets
Sing me sound asleep
And sneak out through your kitchen at exactly 1:03

Sundays go to church
Mondays watch a movie
soon you’ll be alone
Sorry that u have to loose me

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death bed | Feat. beabadoobee

produced by @hxrxkiller



i never mean to start shit
you left me in the darkness
i loved you regardless of your flaws
but you left me fucking heartless

i never mean to start shit
you left me in the darkness
i loved you regardless of your flaws
but you left me fucking heartless
[x2]

you left me fucking heartless
pretending that we never existed
and now i'm all alone reminiscing
if i wanna talk would you listen?

or should i just save me breath?
and now i'm just wishing for death
ever since you left me to clean up the mess that you made
i haven't been feeling good i've been feeling less than okay
i tried to help you but you said i just get in your way

yeah you thought you could change me
you thought you could be the one to save me
after all this time i'm still the same me
now i'm going crazy

and i don't wanna feel this way
i got a lot in my head that i wish i could say
but you're gone and i know that you're not gonna stay
and it hurts cause i know that i'm not okay

not okay
tell you that i'm fine but i'm not okay

why'd you have to go and leave me heartless?
[x2]

i never meant to start shit
you left me in the darkness
i loved you regardless of your flaws
but you left me fucking heartless
[x2]

heartlessღ [hxrxkiller]

another banger from the boyssssssssssssss <3
s/o nate kobain for the mixing and production <3
like n share pls :)

guitar song - yorgan & halfanounce (prod. nate kobain)

Produced by @user-949132137
Featuring @kammichaelmusic and @beabadoobee

Out on Spotify and Apple etc.

God can heal anything & everything

Spotify

talk tomorrow | feat. Beabadoobee, Kam Michael (M.E.)

Download

Comeback Down (feat. dylan xo)

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool 

let go of the feelings that you felt right here
ask me how i feel i'll say i'm feeling like shit
open up my eyes, see you in disguise
just tell me you're here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

it's been a minute and all the tension is killing me
i been driving for hours 
yeah fuck a meal or a shower 
I just been waiting to see you 
dressed in hot pink 
but this time the colors 
will fade into nothing
quit saying that you don't remember 
crying on my sweater 
i tried to make it better 
you just pulled over 
said that me and you can never be together
tears so soft like a feather
wait, the darkest heart cannot be harmed
we've had enough time to depart
you have my heart dont leave it broken here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

crash inside ur pool (prod. pretty boy ron x van beats)

(Another night spent alone)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)
(How much you fuck with my head)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(I'm constantly on the edge)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)
(Sometimes I wish you could know)

Another night spent alone
Sometimes I wish you could know
How much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking, drinking coffee
Scars on me like a zombie
For you baby I'm crazy
Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep

I can't breathe, sinking deeper
Things are different, we're older
The world is on our shoulders
I feel it growing colder

Crush my dreams, watch them shatter
None of this even matters
Wanna die when I think about her
Wish I could know what's after

I'm a ghost, yeah I feel like Casper
When you're near me, my heart beats faster
And when I see you my mind starts racing
I've been working, now life's changing

No sleep, my body's aching
I'm no good at conversation
Need you like medication
'Cause every night I'm contemplating

Another night spent alone
Sometimes I wish you could know
How much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking, drinking coffee
Scars on me, like a zombie
For you baby I'm crazy
Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep

(Dive headfirst, now I'm too deep)
(Scars on me, like a zombie)
(Maybe I'm going crazy)
(I wish that you would love me)

spotify

zombie (prod. jody)

Cold Play (prod. Jakkyboi)

"You can never be there for me like you did :(" - van

Demxntia: @demxntia
Mix/Master: @polearm
Prod by: @deadyami
Artwork: @Ihateshota (on twitter)

My Spotify playlist: https://tinyurl.com/yx9xprau

"Is Anyone Even There? ft. Demxntia (Prod. Dead Yami)”

Lyrics-

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
Nobody ain’t even help 
I’m fighting this on my own
Don’t need anybody els 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Verse-
I doubt you would even care
If I came to you with my heart in my hand
You’d let me wait outside in the pouring rain
I want to feel loved, but it’s always the same 

Pre-chorus- 
You can never be there for me like you did
I haven’t felt love in my heart since a kid
I’m sorry if I burden you with all of my words
No matter what I do I’m still stuck with this hurt

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
don’t need anyone else
I’m fighting this on my own
Nobody ain’t even help 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Demxntia/ 
it’s just me and myself in the end
even if i told u u won’t understand
don’t wanna burden my friends
don’t wanna hurt u again
never said i was heaven sent
everyone needs me for something
get what they want like it’s nothing 
can’t get a second to myself
lemme be myself for a second

Pre-chorus- 
You can never be there for me like you did
I haven’t felt love in my heart since a kid
I’m sorry if I burden you with all of my words
No matter what I do I’m still stuck with this hurt

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
don’t need anyone else
I’m fighting this on my own
Nobody ain’t even help 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Is Anyone Even There?

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Is Anyone Even There? ft. Demxntia (Prod. Dead Yami)

Produced by @beowulf
Mix & Mastered by @berler
Cover Art by @fucknine

you dont like me (prod. b e o w u l f)

prod. hisohkah
mixed by @powfu & @scapexgoat


powfu: 

felt so magical 
you look so beautiful 
when i held your hand 
when you wore my coat 

we could’ve been permanent 
but then things turned to shit 
and you slit my throat 
when you wore my coat 

fell asleep on the sofa 
in my dream you appeared as a cobra 
faintly smell your aroma 
will my eyes stay shut forever 

i keep on falling down 
i’m falling 
i keep on falling down 
i’m falling 

scapegoat: 

tell me is it real 
i can’t feel the pain no more 
i just need to heal 
searching for my way back home

 tell me is it real 
i can’t feel the pain no more 
i just need to heal 
searching for my way back home 

i found my way i don’t wanna stay 
maybe we’re better off this way 
so many objects in my way 
yeah, yeah 

you don’t know the half of this at all
if i go down you’ll break my fall 
i’m sorry i missed your call 
yeah

Atom Bomb (prod. CMak)

Elijah Heaps