A letter to my mom who passed away when I was 11.

Dear Mom w/ Lantis

Lyrics:

- handwritten letters -
'Member when we'd run through those fields, and
Had broken hearts but they healed? I,
Thought it would last forever, but,
I guess that we're not together, so,
I'll carry on and pretend that
What we had never ended.
I know that all of it's fake, but,
Thoughts of you, I always hate.

Seeing all these flashbacks,
I just want the past back.
But if I can't find it,
I'll have to pack my knapsack.
Ay, tryna hit the road,
I've got so far to go.
I know it's been two months
Since the last time we spoke.
I know that when I left,
I left things in a mess.
Try to wash out the stains,
That I can't forget.
Thought this would be better
With us not together.
Now I see I was wrong,
So lets fight this weather.

(Yeah,)
(Yeah-ah.)
(Ay, so let's fight this weather)
(Yeah,)
(Ay, eh.)
(Now we're together)

- Lxst Boy -
yeah, tryna fight this weather
but you kept all of my sweatshirts
getting rained on,
clouds getting heavy never better
said to myself that I'd forget her
but I'm handwriting these letters
you will never read
I wish we were still together
you're one I won't forget
counting down until sunset
and I'll never get a rest
you were my only friend
stuck in these flashbacks
just want the past back
I wanna talk
without getting laughed at
don't wanna try
cuz you'll just attack back
I wanna run away
packing my backpack

- handwritten letters -
Seeing all these flashbacks,
I just want the past back.
But if I can't find it,
I'll have to pack my knapsack.
Ay, tryna hit the road,
I've got so far to go.
I know it's been two months
Since the last time we spoke.
I know that when I left,
I left things in a mess.
Try to wash out the stains,
That I can't forget.
Thought this would be better
With us not together.
Now I see I was wrong,
So lets fight this weather.

flashbacks (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. jxsie beats]

Written by Senzu
Produced by Eric Godlow

Lyrics
[Verse]
you and me, walkin down the street holdin hands
we on sesame, yeah, thats the street
where we met
always pullin me out of the center of the deep end
always been there as soon as i start, to sink in
giving you tons of hugs and kisses
anything for my future misses, i played the game 
and i got my riches, and im not gon waste it
on other bitches, you're hella fine and hella mine
you treat me right you're by my side like all the time
 i cant imagine you  never being inside my life
you came into my life
changed it for the better, i don't really see
rainy weather, since you joined me
on my adventure, venture 
look, you and me we the best 
we don't compare to the rest cus we're
above, yeah uh we in love
we in love

[Hook]
i love you more than you love me, no you don't
shut the fuck up, yes i do, oh, yeah thats
true, woah
i laugh when you say you hate me cus we both know
that that isn't true, yeah, lets get a room
lets get a room

[Verse]
you and me in my bed you're inside of my arms
hope it feels like a scarf, yeah the type that warms your heart
never lettin go again, i learned that lesson before
you're the only girl thats on my mind 
that i can't ignore, almost the 25th buyin you presents
for me what i want is just simply you're presence
i love spendin time with you, yeah you're the light
before you walked in i was grey in the eyes

You And Me (prod Eric Godlow)

Lyrics:

(Hey pretty girl
I'm calling to let you know
That I'll be staring at the skies tonight
With you)

Well now really when we go back into falling in love
And say, “it's crazy”
Falling, you see?
We don't say "rising into love"
There is in it, the idea of “the fall”
And it is goes back as a matter of fact
To extremely fundamental things
That there is always a curious tie at some point
Between the fall, and the creation.

I’m sorry, but it’s about that time where I let you know
I can’t keep going on living with this pain, need to let it go
Which I hate that I have to say this, but it’s getting to where I know
That if I don’t deal with all of this now, I won’t ever let you go
I’ll stay jealous of the people that you group yourself around
Knowing that in the noise of your life I will never make a sound
So I'll focus on the good, I’ve got an album and a date 
And a dance that’s coming up, and I’m not afraid of hate
When it comes to all my music or every word I ever wrote
I know that I’m the safety for someone who’s in the same boat
As me, who feel all the same feelings I conceal
The words that I write down on pages knowing damn well I’ll never heal
From all the stress or all the pain, all the anxiety in my brain
The depression I maintain because I always try to refrain
From breaking down, scream out loud, contain yourself, my man
I’m scared right now, I’m lost, not found, now, why do I feel so damned?

I’m calling to let you know
That I gave up on you so long ago..
And it breaks my heart (x2)

Break it, and break it, every word you say just breaks me down
It used to kill me that you weren't mine, now I never want you around
I’m beginning to realize all the lies you threw in my face
And placed in my way so that way I’d never win the race
You say you’re sorry you’re the toxic one, I already had known
Was that supposed to bring consolation, so I could let my phone
Finally rest upon the bed where I never place my head?
Cause both you and God know that only nightmares plague my head instead
Of dreams that will unfold, of the life I wish I could have had
But you left so I gave up on them, and forget it now I’m glad
To finally have you away, forget when we’d spend all day
I’ll remember nothing but the bad so I have content to drop today
Finish up some final songs and I'll finalize all of my drafts
So you can take all those apologies and shove them up your ass
I don’t wanna the one to tell you but I’m done looking above
I gave up on you, all that’s left is to say goodbye, love

Taking this ghastly risk is the condition of there being life
But this is the most powerful thing that can be done, surrender
See, and love is an act of surrender to another person
Total abandonment
I give myself to you..

igaveuponyou.

this a song i’m working on about my aunt whom passed away in late December.

lyrics:

so listen up, listen to my voice
can you hear the sounds 
and all the noise 
why must it always be this hard 
wanna wake up, 
from this nightmare 
yeah we are all here 
and we are all scared 
can you hear me screaming, 
out your name 
can you hear the sound 
of all this pain

sound of your name [demo]

used to be the opposite way

(Chorus) - Gio

Everybody so impatient
I see fake people walkin' round; make 'em anxious
Used to be the opposite way bitch


(Verse 1) - plante

Riding in a hatchback I don't need your snapchat
Know I got a fat ass and my girl slap it
I can make my voice deep, i can make it higher
I said that i got some sleep but I'm just a liar
Famous in the cyberspace, wont see me in a flyer
Look at all my clothes, baby im just looking flyer
Got acetaminophen inside my melatonin bottle
Don't call me baby I don't sip on bottles 
i like the way she walks; she likes waddles
when I'm in the stu' this shit fire need goggles
I'm with Matthias, been bros since fossils
I'm writing midis like this shit a novel

Sound Toys [ft. plante]

unfinished, next set of verses <3

~lyrics~
cause i still listen out for you
so tell me if it's true 
that heaven is a good place 
so i don't have to worry 
about every little, every little thing
that’s running up in my brain, up in my brain 
cause i, 
i’m having a hard time 
coping with this

sound of your name x2 [demo]

elizabeth jules