Love was the Reason

Painkiller Twilight (Deluxe)

dygytaldysmorphya (expanded)

DESERVING RELEASE

where did this all g0 wr0ng

Intoxicated
Drunk with emotion
Shouldn't be driving tonight
Now that it's dark out
I'm getting lost now
So used to having your light
This love is faded
I been so jaded
I swear I thought I was right
Switched up intention
To create tension
Now all we do is just fight

You're so destructive
Way too addictive
You're stuck like a parasite
Break my heart again
No, we can't be friends
Fuck I'm starting to feel light
Why are you this way
Can't tell if I'm safe
Hard to know what's wrong or right
Maybe I'm poison
You're so important
But I couldn't say it tonight

Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care

Fucked at a party
Called to say sorry
Babe, it's way too late for you
Said that you're nauseous
Fucked up my conscience
Should I just say that we're through
A cheater, a liar
Your vices desire
No filling your sweet tooth
Guess I'm a loser
Built walls with shooters
Wasted my god damn youth

Let this fall apart, no, I don't care
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care

Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care, yeah
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care, yeah
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care, oh
Just let this fall apart, no, I don't care, yeah

Mix & Master: @nickniker
Production: Colin Munroe, Jeff Hazin
https://orcd.co/painkillertwilight

Fall Apart

UR WHERE UR SUPPOSED 2 BE

Smoking cigarettes to feel something
Daddy issues don't mean nothing
I tell myself that he means nothing
But who am I kidding? Yeah

Saying I'm worthless and good riddance
Maybe we should just keep our distance
After time we can try and fix shit
Trust right now I ain't tryna fix shit

So am I selfish
Am I selfish yeah
I've seen your worst
So now I'm hurt so I'm fuckin selfish
I'm fuckin selfish
I'm fuckin selfish
I put me first I know my worth
But that makes me selfish

Working hard to break your grip
No way that I sustain it
Yeah, you've got your expectations
Can't expect no one to take em

You don't see
What I see
All the pain all the agony
You don't believe what you don't see
Having to be less to love me

But now I'm selfish
Am I selfish yeah
I've seen your worst
So now I'm hurt so I'm fuckin selfish
I'm fuckin selfish
I'm fuckin selfish
I put me first I know my worth
But that makes me selfish

Tell you how I feel
Feelings you ignore
Made me feel unreal
And feel nothing at all
Hard to choke my words
I'm against the wall
Yeah, you cut me deep
And you let me crawl

But now I'm selfish
Am I selfish yeah
I've seen your worst
So now I'm hurt so I'm fuckin selfish
I'm fuckin selfish
I'm fuckin selfish
I put me first I know my worth
But that makes me selfish
That makes me selfish
I put me first I know my worth
But that makes me selfish

Mix & Master: @nickniker
Production: Colin Munroe, Jeff Hazin
https://orcd.co/painkillertwilight

Selfish

Kicked me out
Cos I'm all fucked up yeah
Look what you've done
I'm not here for pity, yet
Look what I've become
And I'm so stupid yeah
Falling for you
Kicked me out the apartment so I say fuck you

Cos you need more
Be somebody else because you're fucking boring
You don't answer back you been ignoring
No I never even got a fucking sorry
Coming off the percs I took like 3 or 4
Every time you're round I need like 20 more
20 more but why the fuck you keeping score
Showing you the fucking door

Cos I'm all fucked up yeah
Look what you've done
I'm not here for pity, yet
Look what I've become
And I'm so stupid yeah
Falling for you
Kicked me out the apartment so I say fuck you

You didn't call me on my birthday
Stomach full of pills cos you hurt me in the worst way
Love already gone you didn't mean it in the first place
Only let you in because I thought you wouldn't hurt me
Every time you come around it's been abusing
I don't really wanna be fucking amusing
Baby why you always having mood swings
Truth stings nobody making me feel the same way

Cos I'm all fucked up yeah
Look what you've done
I'm not here for pity, yet
Look what I've become
And I'm so stupid yeah
Falling for you
Kicked me out the apartment so I say fuck you

Mix & Master: @nickniker
Production: Colin Munroe
https://orcd.co/painkillertwilight

Kicked Me Out feat. SuziWithAnUzi

Stream/Buy "Pretty Little Lies" here: https://orcd.co/elkoprettylittlelies

Mix & Master: @nickniker
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Production: Colin Munroe
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—Lyrics—
 
As if I got no choice
You make too much noise
I'm tryna be in silence
Can’t hide from your voice
All the pain it pilots
Take me on a trip
Don't know where we started
Baby I'm so broke
Hearts empty lost soul
Can’t you simply be honest

Drowned out and distorted
Your feelings imported
Mine ain't been important, yeah
Drama been avoiding
Love ain't meant for forcing
Vibes are feeling foreign, yeah
Pretty little lies in your eyes, yeah I see it bad
I been on your mind all the time now I'm seeing that
Drama been avoiding
Love ain't meant for forcing
Vibes are feeling foreign, yeah

Emotions consume me
I'm no longer bleeding
Swear I feel so empty
All I need is healing
Your feelings I deal with
Cut me up I feel it
Dealing with these demons
Bet they steady scheming
I been going out ya baby I need an alibi
Pretty little lies I see you sleeping with devil eyes
Heavy is the heart that you got weighing up on your mind
I'm not on your mind, yeah

Drowned out and distorted
Your feelings imported
Mine ain't been important, yeah
Drama been avoiding
Love ain’t meant for forcing
Vibes are feeling foreign, yeah
Pretty little lies in your eyes, yeah I see it bad
I been on your mind all the time now I’m seeing that
Drama been avoiding
Love ain't meant for forcing
Vibes are feeling foreign, yeah

Mix & Master: @nickniker
Production: Colin Munroe, Caleb Jacob
https://orcd.co/painkillertwilight

Pretty Little Lies

confrontation

You were gonna fix me
Never needed fixing
How’d I end up dead
Baby look at the sky
Cry baby lullaby
Put a gun to my head
I swear all these girls lie
Maybe it’s just by design
Demons all up in my bed
Hurt me like the last girl
Thought you were my whole world
Slowly kissing him instead
Baby yeah we toxic yeah, yeah, yeah
Colder than the arctic yeah, yeah, yeah
Why you been dishonest yeah, yeah, yeah
You’re fucking up my logic yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah
Why you been dishonest
yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah
Why you been dishonest
Oh look now I’m stressing
He got you undressing
Never had to be this hard to begin with
Why you run and do that
I can;t fucking do that
Wanna leave but i don’t know if I’d do it
Yeah why’d you break my heart turn me to a monster
You’re pushing me too my edge
Putting me through all this hell
Baby no I’m not doing well
Burning like a cigarette
Baby yeah we toxic yeah, yeah, yeah
Colder than the arctic yeah, yeah, yeah
Why you been dishonest yeah, yeah, yeah
You’re fucking up my logic yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah

Why you been dishonest
yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah
Why you been dishonest

Mix & Master: @nickniker
Production: Colin Munroe, Jeff Hazin
https://orcd.co/painkillertwilight

PAINKILLER TWILIGHT

Dishonest

Shame on me for what I said tonight
I know what I said just wasn’t right
Baby I thought it was justified cos you broke me twice yeah
So don’t you go and leave for somebody else
And if you need space babe I can help
Promise that you don’t need no one else but me
Maybe i’m being overdramatic
I used to think that we’d always have it
Baby I know that I’m overreacting
But baby this shit is common
Going back to you often
Told myself that I’d stop it, can’t stop yet yeah, yeah
But baby this shit is common
Smoking trees in the commons
Thinking of you pretty often
Wanting you back but we can’t yeah, can’t yeah, yeah
Why’s it always like I’m fighting myself
Piss me off I think it’s somebody else
Tryna put the blame on me
I can feel the stress weighing heavy
I don’t know what’s real I can’t say
I don’t know how to break away from all this pain
Baby girl things aren’t the same don’t know who changed
But I can’t stop thinking when
Maybe i’m being overdramatic
I used to think that we’d always have it
Baby I know that I’m overreacting
But baby this shit is common
Going back to you often
Told myself that I’d stop it, can’t stop yet yeah, yeah
But baby this shit is common
Smoking trees in the commons
Thinking of you pretty often
Wanting you back but we can’t yeah, can’t yeah, yeah

Common

purrfect

Made this while I was in New York this summer and it’s not on the album but I thought y’all would like it.

it’s been you (prod. andy polk)

Painkiller Twilight

Dishonest (one take)

ydoineedu

dygytaldysmorphya

wefightsomuch

putthatonurgrave

cantbmyfault

mindurnonsense

wishucouldseemenow

Kicked Me Out

Aaliyah - At Your Best [Cover]

Sorry Mama

so don’t you wait on me babe
you know i’m gone don’t stay 
fuck me up
don’t you wait on me babe
i ain’t got shit to say
fuck me up
i’m sure he’s texting you
why don’t you run that through
and fuck me up
tell him you need him too
baby you’ll see him soon
just to fuck me up

cos you’ve been leading me on
fuck you and your mom
babe i wish i could stay
but you ran away
it wasn’t my mistake
going fast hit the brakes
girls be asking for fakes
then say i’m a fucking fake
got you on your fucking way
from the man you hitting ay
yeah i know you hit em ay
you don’t know i know his name
he’s a bitch i’ll make him quake
i say what i fucking say
i say what i fucking say
i say what i fucking say

so don’t you wait on me babe
you know i’m gone don’t stay 
fuck me up
don’t you wait on me babe
i ain’t got shit to say
fuck me up
i’m sure he’s texting you
why don’t you run that through
and fuck me up
tell him you need him too
baby you’ll see him soon
just to fuck me up

so don’t you wait on me babe
you know i’m gone don’t stay 
fuck me up
don’t you wait on me babe
i ain’t got shit to say
fuck me up
i’m sure he’s texting you
why don’t you run that through
and fuck me up
tell him you need him too
baby you’ll see him soon
just to fuck me up

Fuck Me Up

Drunk And Out Of Town

blushed

why am i on ur vsco?

YOU'RE FEELING THE SAME THINGS

everytime

YOU’RE FEELING THE SAME THINGS [Skulkids Remix]

workinworkin

LYRICS

Wish I could change your mind
Maybe then you’d still be mine
I know it’s not me i treated you right
But you just needed to learn how to smile
It hasn’t been that long
But feels like a while
Wonder who you talk to now a days
And I hope you’re not making too many mistakes
I know it’s not, it’s not my place
But i can’t help

To wonder if you miss me
Wonder if you’re still thinking about me
You seem so put together but i’m drowning
I’m falling apart fast feels like i'm flying

Baby I know it’s hard on you
But lately
My minds been stuck thinking the same things
If you’ll ever change your mind
You're mine
Baby I know that you’ll be fine
But I’ve been
So lost up in my mind
So save me
Cos I’ll be up waiting for you tonight

Wish I could turn back time
Maybe then i’d see you smile
Wishing you would just call me tonight
I know it’s not it’s not my right
But I can’t help

To wonder if you miss me
Wonder if you’re still thinking about me
You seem so put together but i’m drowning
I’m falling apart fast feels like i'm flying

Baby I know it’s hard on you
But lately
My minds been stuck thinking the same things
If you’ll ever change your mind
You're mine
Baby I know that you’ll be fine
But I’ve been
So lost up in my mind
So save me
Cos I’ll be up waiting for you tonight

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I’m falling apart fast feels like I’m flying

Drunk and Out of Town with phem

[Verse]
See it’s all good it’s all fine baby
I’m basically stuck in my mind
Seeing you post pictures with other guys
But I’ve realized, yeah I’ve realized
[Pre Chorus]
That there’s nothing to work out baby
That shit hurts no doubt,
But I’m losing my whole mind, right now
Don’t come back this me
Farewell
[Chorus]
We can’t stay friends, not like this
Cannot pretend, not like that
All in the end, we fucked up
It’s not just you both of us
[Verse]
Don’t you remember this car
Baby I got it for us
Unl we both fell apart
Maybe I’m shit out of luck
And I worked way too damn hard
Just to throw it away
Having trouble to start
Don’t fucking come near my lane
Cos I’ve made up my mind and so have you
Said that you moved on guess that I should too
Know you’re fucking around maybe I should too
Cos I’ve realized, yeah I’ve realized
[Pre Chorus]
That there’s nothing to work out baby
That shit hurts no doubt,
But I’m losing my whole mind, right now
Don’t come back this me
Farewell 
[Chorus]
We can’t stay friends, not like this
Cannot pretend, not like that
All in the end, we fucked up
It’s not just you both of us
[Bridge]
Hol’ up lemme switch it up on em’
I can’t stress take a toke
Can’t see nothing through all this fucking smoke (all the smoke all the smoke)
Yeah,
I been way too busy driving around mad as shit
Now you hit me up you wanna ride around and shit
Just for me to come around find out you hiding him
Going back and forth just to be fucking hurt in the end so
[Chorus]
We can’t stay friends, not like this
Cannot pretend, not like that
All in the end, we fucked up
It’s not just you both of us
We can’t stay friends, not like this
Cannot pretend, not like that
All in the end, we fucked up
It’s not just you both of us 

This song was based on when i found out she had moved on and found someone else..

Nothing to Work Out

this track is based on a toxic relationship where you feel both the need to stay and are scared to leave.

ep our minds clear
Maybe we, have it all
Have it all wrong

[Chorus]
Cos lately you’ve been making it hard on me
Lately you’ve been all in my face baby
Maybe we should sit down and talk it out
Maybe fuck it out
Would you like that right now

[Verse]
So somebody help
Cos I’ve stopped feeling things
I guess I could live
With no feelings
Losing touch of time
Losing touch of you
I’m losing my whole mind
Losing when I’m without you (without you)

-lyrics-
[Pre Chorus]
So could we just stay here
And make me feel no fear
Maybe we, had everything
All along

[Chorus]
Cos lately you’ve been making it hard on me
Lately you’ve been all in my face baby
Maybe we should sit down and talk it out
Maybe fuck it out
Would you like that right now

[Verse: TeZATalks]
Too late baby
Lately i’ve been feeling so alone
Playing phone tag with you all night
But a text will bring you home
Why you switching up?
Can’t relax?
Only hitting me when it’s from the back
House arrest
Heart attack
When it’s all good it’s really all bad
Easy is emotional when feelings
aren’t attached
So let’s skip the conversation
Put your mouth straight in my bag
But you can’t forget
How you fell
I let you down softly but in hell

[Chorus:]
Cos lately you’ve been making it hard on me
Lately you’ve been all in my face baby
Maybe we should sit down and talk it out
Maybe fuck it out
Would you like that right now
Cos lately you’ve been making it hard on me
Lately you’ve been all in my face baby
Maybe we should sit down and talk it out
Maybe fuck it out
Would you like that right now

Lately (feat. TeZATalks)

streetlights

Changing Pace

deserve

dream

remind me

[Pre-Chorus]
Going through your pics
You ain’t make this easy running right back to Your clique 

[Chorus]
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit

[Verse 1]
Shit don’t go away it just only just gets fuckin quiet 
How come all our best conversations we have are silent
Running from these demons cos you hurt me oh the worst yeah
Shit I would be lying if told you, you the first yeah 
I can’t help it that’s just something out of my control
If I tried then baby I’d be doin you the most
You and I both know just how that conversation goes 
4am you texting sending pics without your clothes

[Pre-Chorus]
Going through your pics
You ain’t make this easy running right back to Your clique 

[Chorus]
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit

[Verse 1: LiL Lotus]
I just think we’re wasting time 
Baby tell me when it sinks in
You stay off the shits 
baby you ain’t even thinking
I could feel the paranoia creeping up my bones
Time to take you home baby time to take you home
And i just think it’s toxic
I could find another bitch like you she down to hop it
And I just wouldn’t stop it
Baby I got options
Baby I got options
Baby I got

[Pre Chorus]
Going through your pics
You ain’t make this easy running right back to Your clique 

[Chorus]
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit
I just wanna let it go and quit

QUIT feat. LiL Lotus

--lyrics--
My cheeks hurt
From the laughter
We shared
And my heart builds
Because I know
Before you go

So tell me I love you
Tell me I need you

We can stay
Far away
On the moon
Dance in stars
Wrap my arms
Around you
And you're
Everything I'll ever need
Could you stay for the hours please
I'll hold you like I held you every time

So tell me I love you
(Tell me baby one more time)
Tell me I need you

Saying all the things I know we used too
But I never took you for a fool
And we both know that I don't deserve you
Wishing we had everything to lose
Oh we live and approve
But now you say you need me
So stop, question why I'm leaving
Same three words I keep repeating to you

So tell me I love you
(Tell me baby one more time)
Tell me I need you

Elko

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