it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine is where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to


maybe they got me thinking way too strong
ive been gone too long
causing thunderstorms head to the concrete
how can i save her when i can't save myself
its funny when u start saying no
they start acting different
im a egoist i just act this way
i do this all the same
tell me all these drugs the same
i dont want nobody, nobody
its all the samee

it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine its where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to

egoist (prod. augury + sunrisess)

prod me & @cdgrl

i stay locked in
i hate writing
cant accomplish
what imtrying

im not lying
only to myself
i be crying
wanna kill myself

early well
is it early still
only love my pills
cashapp only real

stuck standing still
dont like bein real
dont wanna stop be real
i dont wanna feel

i feel bad enough i dont need yours too
itd be catastrophic if it fell through
i dont wanna lie dont wanna tell you
i dont wanna try, know i cant help you

hate the feeling you dont trust me
hate this feeling, do you love me
youre my favorite, so cut me
dreaming every night about you

i cant live without you
do i care about you
what do i amount to
id be dead if i aint found u

i cant say a single thing of value
i cant stop feel so bad without you
hold my breath u choose what to count to
want the fucking pills im not allowed to

        breathe when im sposed to
u can sleep on me but im gon wake you
nothing special bout me i cant save you
im so fucked scared im gonna break you

spotify

locked prod. emorave & cdgirl

prod @kggn & @1awliet

i stay lonely
bitch dont call me
i smoke plastic
you smoke broccoli
die soon prolly
roll like trolley
we gon tax him
i like money

ur not like me
i smoke oxy
pharma, pricy
u jus copy
tails like furry
get it so cheap
girl dont worry
i jus love sleep

i dont like you
i cant trust you
you dont know me
i cant love you
give her nose bleeds
im so pretty
schedule 1 bitch
keep it on me

hoes jus want me
ex dont block me
dont reply much
she jus hurt me
dont control me
high like always
i like cashapp
try to stop me

smoked too much now im a zombie
ilove downers so ur all above me
once its not cap they all judge me
i fucked up but try to trust me
got to deep now she dont love me
drag the razor hope it cut me
free drugs cuz they all wanna fuck me
stayed alive isnt it lovely

keep a cutter closely
she go down, below me
they dont really know me
stay up late i dont sleep
i stay gone im ghostly
shawty push up on me
fuck ur girl im sorry
she jus rly want me

i stay down in philly
bitch i feel like f1lthy
she like sober 4 weeks
i dont care not really
it wont ever kill me
i stay high i still geek
fallin thru the building
i dont leave the city

trolley prod. kuru & lawliet

now + kiryano

Thankful

produced by @pw4prez

Baby girl u kill me
Baby girl its filthy
I been speaking clearly
I hope u can feel me
How im moving bounce right through the ceiling
Im jus tryna show u dis the real me
Baby how'd u kill me?
Baby can u heal me
Baby i been feeling
I just lost all feeling
I been going crazy i cant chill man
Why they always treat me like the villain??!?!?
UR THE WORST N U CANT FUCKING FACE IT
I been going dumb getting dangerous
Love it when they treat me like im nameless
Walk up from my grave im still stainless
U can trust me baby swear im harmless
Roll one up lets get it started
I fucked up again i know i caused it
I jus hope u kno im all in

U can treat me like im crazy i kno its true
Walk around the fog eyes hazy feet glued
That shit aint even phase me i swear i need u
I swear i need u
They all feels so fake everyone is see through
Said u wana escape i feel dat like me too
Feel like "why me?"
I keep trying
I keep fighting
I keep dying
Feel like "why me"
Its exhausting
Im so tired i cannot keep fighting
Go get higher i think that u might need it
Might need it
I start bleeding
Im still bleeding
I cant feel it
I cant feel it
I been dreaming
I need it
I need u
I need it
I need u

Why me

senses & inssekt - sick (lovbug sg37)

prod @rubbishrubbish

i jus dropped a pill in the drink i cant walk right
nodded off to much lost my breath i cant talk right
i cant let go wanna die but im terrified
i love you so much but we cant get the time right

see u tonight  
come close when the moods right
sleep holding u its too nice
scared to fuck it up i wanna do it right

i can never do it right
fuck my life up but it feels nice
orange oc 40 railed two lines
how u gon relapse over two lines

i dont feel so good about goodbyes
seconds i would live in for lifetimes
i dont wanna live by the guidelines
spend my fucking life in the sidelines

waste my time
try to act fine
shawty so fine
always ride with a crime
skye capture all our good times

20 milligrams imma sleep skip a whole day
ketamine in my leg got me flyin no way
i jus showed her my whole stash she like no way
i dont fuck with that sprayed shit i smoke propane

say it straight im not tryna play ur fkin mind games
i wake up take my pills try to have a good day
routine episodes dont waste ur energy
hate how much i love how i feel on amphetamines

its okay sometimes i feel okay
its okay shawty ull be okay
its okay we all gon be okay
when i hold u close i feel okay

we gon be okay
promise me youll stay
something in the way
i cant see my face
i just run away
but this time ill stay
time with you cant waste
i belong in places

different every day
wanna keep you safe
please dont walk away
need to see your face
i wont get in your way
all work and no play
i work just to stay
keep my head in place

fuck saying goodbye i want to live forever prod. rubbish

every day i be on the same shit
every day u be on some lame shit
how u gon split and not say shit
switches not no glocks im talkin faces
i think u was racist
tired of these bitches who think all this shit a game bitch
i jus pop lil pills n wake up in new places
i dont pop real shit all them xannies fake bitch

i need payment
u need pavement
u cant say shit
cuz then ill say shit
just the way it is
just the way it went
fuck with another girl u gon hit the pavement

i could make a call n get u bent yuh
never take another breath yuh
shawty fw my scent duh
how u gon smoke fent yuh
how u cant pay rent yuh
ion wanna see ur face again yuh
all ur bitches pillfriends yuh

how u gon have pills and pillfriends n still lose them yuh
u been down bad had so many chances how u still fucked them up
i jus wasnt gon be there n watch you fuck yo whole life up
how u let me do heroin just cuz u scared of me bein sad yuh
not a fuckin thing i could do to make u make good choices
u was always hearin voices
i know that shit hard but how u gon destroy me
know i had them warnings
but i was too young fried off them fuckin bars i was so avoidant
i be stuck inside my head be stressin bout the future
terrified im gon lose her
I wish I could just be with u when I want but I cant be a commuter
crush a pill up im a user
i was always so sure shit wud be okay thought i knew the future