mixed/mastered by me and kinshii
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feat. https://soundcloud.com/kinshii
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prod by https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted & https://soundcloud.com/sainttomorrow
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//LYRICS//
its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and i swear that i am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today

in my room and I'm feeling so faded don't know what to grabbing my knife I'm gonna stab myself and you don't love me like before oh before 

its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and I swear that I am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today every time I wake up feeling wasted times moving really fucking fast and I don't like that why you talk to me I don't talk to you every time I wake up wanna sleep some more

(Kinshii)
now my beds the place i spend my days i can’t get up staring at a screen i do this every night and i don’t want to talk about it appreciate the thought but i’ve been trying to push away what makes me feel alive that’s growing up guess i can’t take it life used to be fun, now i live sedated don’t know why im smoking but still getting faded maybe the clouds free my brain from its cages sike no it’s not, causing a block life’s getting harder and harder than cock prosthetic leg maybe hard as rock kick to the face and it don’t ever stop and my family keeps calling me crazy probably cause i ain’t speak to them lately i been showing the signs someone save me and the reaper just said he’s done waiting truthfully not sure what im supposed do and the voice in my head, who im talking to is convincing enough, i might follow through or maybe i won’t just to stay with you

used to it w/ kinshii (prod. caspr & saint tomorrow)

music videos:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2RyIqxRFt4&ab_channel=Virus

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7JNY20h8h0&ab_channel=Toxic%E3%82%A2%E3%83%8B%E3%83%A1
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witch hotel x kennedyxoxo x killmesumday - love story (prod. noahmadethiss x jolst)

if you cant make room ft. steadysuffer *noahmadethiss + jolst*

cutdeep & epitomeoffailure - i didn't deserve this (caps ctrl)

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cycle thru my memories and burn all the bad ones
ill just let you go cause i really dont have nothin for you
smoke blows thru you
cause youre not here
youre a ghost
and i fear that ill go away too soon
before my time comes and my body goes numb and i cry out my lungs
and soon enough ill breathe dirt and worms
were all just numbers, some better some worse
i starve till my bones pop out of my shirt
if i want some gain from you ill extort it
i really dont have no importance
people come and go, my bleeding hearts on life support
feelings come and go and i know youve been dead before
2018 when my bones snapped apart and i took all them pills just to get a restart
they wanted to help it they wanted to stop it but honestly i dont know what they was stopping
i cried in her bed and said "momma, please stop it"
that was the end and beginning of all that i know now
i revolve life around pain when it slows down now

dirt and worms (nilöwh)

Concrete (ft. emptychest & NAVYXOWER)

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

And I know that I'm selfish, I'll tell you I'm sorry
But then I fuck it up again
I know you're trying to help but when you call
I know we can't be more than friends
If I'm not enough for you right now
Go ahead and leave
Cuz It's not getting any better
You can blame me if you want

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

And she said don't go
The nights get so cold
But I still ran away, I hate LA
Can't eat, my bones show
And I know that you're hurting
For that, I'm sorry
But I won't let you take it out on me
I won't let go of my hopes
Don't say it's just a dream

I think I should call it a night
I've been staring too long at this screen
If you wanna leave, you can go
It makes it easy for me

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

sometimes, i pretend like i don't see it

liar

(prodbylxcid)

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
im been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

you got my back and i got your back too 
rolls Royce Cullinan stars in the roof 
green eyes i swear i fell in love with them 
your not a 9 girl, your a straight 10 

you call me up and ill be there in 5 
look at my watch and i'm stood there on time 
you looking gorgeous you looking all mine 
Cartier rings and rollie 
i need the Benz need to ball like im Kobe
cut all my friends off
no movement they're frozen 
im in the lead like im cheating im doping 
i need to look back and saver the moment 

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
I'm been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

i push the beta shit up of my chest 
ive been grinding week days week ends and the next
grinding for the cash 
cause i just want bad 
wanna buy you a diamond ring and a Prada bag

driving in this whip without you still feels lonely

So True

first single off my ep "i never asked for this", dropping december 25th!

thank u so much to @fantasycamp for featuring on this
and @nevrfall and @sainttomorrow for the wonderful production
cover art by evan carr :)

lyrics:
[decks]
light fading
im waiting
give me a reason
something to believe in
i can’t go back and i know that
im desperate and i show that
am i right or am i too naive
why won’t you leave
why won’t you leave

[fantasy camp]
goin through the motions but we’re faded
yeah time and time again it’s still the same shit
and im sorry if i ever kept you waiting
i just think that we’re in two different places
and i know its gonna kill me just to let go
but its easier than trying to forget though
there’s a place for you inside my heart forever
in my spirit we will always be together
i won’t let you down again
and this time i swear i mean it
all good things come to an end
and i think we’re both defeated
so let’s just take time
to find ourselves again
and i’ll wait right here
to find you at the end

[decks]
light fading
im waiting
give me a reason
something to believe in
i can’t go back and i know that
im desperate and i show that
am i right or am i too naive
why won’t you leave
why won’t you leave

dirt and worms (nilöwh)

emptychest (kill breanna)

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