4/25/22

emptychest archive

i've been living in a daydream

8/12/22

sad chill

Hey it’s me I get paranoid from weed
I hate myself so much I think they think the same of me
I think it’s time to be everything I wanna be
A ceiling don’t exist if I compare myself to me

Imma fucking know it all
Talking to myself but I don’t listen
The impossible and the improbable
It’s getting hard to tell the difference

Consumed by my desires
Too tired to be tired
I’d walk into the fire
Just so I could climb higher

I might talk back but I’ll never walk back
I might be mad but it’s better than sad

I don’t like smoking weed but I’ll sell that shit to you
Questioning my own reality I need no help to do
But I do like getting lit shit I’ll take a pill or two
Now I’m looking in the mirror for once I like the view

You fucked me over you won’t admit that you did it
They say you acting so crazy no I didn’t I didn’t
Why don’t you listen?
My love for you is diminished
It’s time to switch like the minutes
I fucking hate you were finished

Imma fucking know it all
Talking to myself but I don’t listen
The impossible and the improbable
It’s getting hard to tell the difference

Consumed by my desires
Too tired to be tired
I’d walk into the fire
Just so I could climb higher

I might talk back but I’ll never walk back
I might be mad but it’s better than sad

I don’t have to go outside I’m too busy living in my mind
There’s a lot of people I don’t like I don’t got the energy to pretend to vibe

I’m the type of attractive that’s both ugly and cute
I got decision dedication with nothing to lose
I’m just another busy brain with nothing to do
You either build up yourself or when you die they say “who is that again?”

Imma fucking know it all
Talking to myself but I don’t listen
The impossible and the improbable
It’s getting hard to tell the difference

Consumed by my desires
Too tired to be tired
I’d walk into the fire
Just so I could climb higher

I might talk back but I’ll never walk back
I might be mad but it’s better than sad

hey it's me (mcx)

U lie cuz ur scared of the truth
U follow all ur fucking rules
U don’t know you but I know you
U had ur moment in high school

I got Everybody talking like we used to be homies
Why you the hell you capping I don’t like you, you a ohing
You used to clown me “he got no bitches he so lonely”
Well who’s laughing now ha ur pockets looking lonely

What goes around comes around
You got the first laugh I get last laugh now
U gon look like clown
When I run it up you run it into the ground

When I’m famous or I’m dead you gon try to profit it from it
Ur a selfish opportunist I won’t pretend that I’m above it
I’m bout my cheese like wallace, grummet, this that shit u cannot stomach
How you started from the summit now you rock bottom bummin

Everybody knew me as the tall quiet kid
Now I’ve really grown up Call me mr. flip a brick
I got xanny oxy addy whatchu want I’ll sell you it
But I ain’t popping shit except a bullet out the clip

I got Everybody talking like we used to be homies
Why you the hell you capping I don’t like you, you a phony
You used to clown me “he got no bitches he so lonely”
Well who’s laughing now ha ur pockets looking lonely

What goes around comes around
You got the first laugh I get last laugh now
U gon look like clown
When I run it up you run it into the ground

=lonely (prod. johnnyfriend)

produced by wisssery & jolst
i feel a little like my face is melting
and my truth is shaping 
into something that i dont want it to be
i dont want it to be
and i cant even change it
even if i fucking wanted to
but i dont :p
but i dont.
no i dont
no i dont
oh i dont
oh i dont
no i dont
no i dont
its easy to not care when youre fucked up
feeling despair has never been so familiar 
the grass is green and the sun is bright, but
you wont get me out my room tonight
out my room, room
out my room, room
out my room, room
room, room, room.
out my-
yeah
fuck writing
i just needa find a beat and throw my thoughts inside it
woah
woah
woah
woah
yeah
fuck biking
to your house in the freezing cold
frost bite on my god damn nose
where'd you go?
who fucking knows.
where'd you go?
who fucking knows.

frostbite (wisssery & jolst)

Lyrics:

Now my love is locked inside

(Verse)
Now it’s done will I ever find another one?
With a knife in my back I am holding on
And everything that we once were fighting for
Is burned up, all gone and I’m on the floor

We used to kick it in the summers at my pops place
You made me red velvet cake at my birthday
I still go down to our place and it still hurts
I wonder if you still got my Mayday Parade merch

(Pre)
I wonder could we ever get it back
I don’t know, no, I don’t know

Would everything be better if we tried?
I don’t know now, fuck if I know now

(Chorus)
And I don’t know where I am now
After all this time, yeah, I've
lost all sort of control that
Well, I thought I had back when

We walked down by the pier where you ended
Everything I thought I believed in
Guess the sun is just as deceiving

And I could never say goodbye
Now my love is locked inside

(Verse)
Now I’ve moved all the way to the other side
I wake up in the morning, got me a life
And yeah, I try to be happy but I’m hella tired
Nowadays I’m just hoping I’mma be alright

You know I still run up to that hilltop
To see the view of the place where we grew up
It’s messed up cus they building like a city
On the fields where we used to kiss, pretty

(Pre)
I wonder could we ever get it back
I don’t know, no, I don’t know

Would everything be better if we tried?
I don’t know now, fuck if I know now

(Chorus)
And I don’t know where I am now
After all this time, yeah, I've
lost all sort of control that
Well, I thought I had back when

We walked down by the pier where you ended
Everything I thought I believed in
Guess the sun is just as deceiving

And I could never say goodbye
Now my love is locked inside

thank u for listening <3

Locked Inside

Slowed and Reverb version of "ESCAPE (feat. Swiiif)
Shoutout "Harmony" on YouTube for making this

ESCAPE (feat. Swiiif) [slowed + reverb]

single off of my new lofi ep "duskdreams"

lyrics
this jet fuel got me like space cadet
tryna move on but im not ready yet
i got all this fucking time to spend
but im just holding on to past life
while training and its draining me

burn the candle but its on both ends 
oh all for what, im in my own head
u make ur bed u  lie in it, jus lying in ur own dread
im on my own on this one but i know ill get hit up when all is done and said

still, u wont face me
all the rocks u through it didnt phase me 
im glad that u won’t feel the guilt coz i been living in day dreams
reserved is more an understatement, observing u more lately

I been skipping all these meals
empty stomachs best for pills 
i just wanna fuckn feel

7 years in this state
20 years gon to waste 
im in space its so cold
if i fold would u still stay

you wouldn’t, u wouldn’t understand the 
pain and suffering it took to get me to this place
floating away into nothin but space
she said give me space
no problem, no complaints
from ur mind, hope u erase 
all th times that we spent
coz u wont feel like that again

hit me up late night
she wanna talk on the face time
sorry cant talk im in space im
losing my self
and my soul 
but im still on incline

my visions aren’t for this world 
im thinking way bigger 
beyond the picture
ur limits they pushed me 
ur rules made my eyes clean
and u cant accept that
yeah i knew it i figured

space cadet (sleepy fish)

one of my favs ive made

i just wanna come alive 
i just wanna see me smile 
know it might take a while
hits deep i cant lie x2

all i can see is dirt
laying in the dirt
im laying in the dirt
feeling like the worst

laying in the dirt
i been feeling like the worst
laying in the dirt
just hoping this’ll work

i dont wanna i hurt
i dont wanna feel like im the worst
congratulated on achievments
but i dont feel its deserved

taking every pill i dont think its working
looking for solutions but have no idea for what im searching 
for
i jus wanna tag my toe, im bored
i jus wanna take myself ashore

hey 
i just wanna say that 
all my dreams are like that
forcing me to fight back

i jus get these dreams 
i just get these dreams that 
i might make it 
but its gone take a lot

its a cold, cold world 
but i can make it,
 we can make it out

so much more to feel alive 
i jus wanna see u smile 
i cant see ur face go down like that 
if u want me to sleep at night that aint ever aloud 

this is all i have (no) 
this is all thats left 
im gon sprout a lie 
and hope u dont forget

i jus wanna feel th calm breeze
running by the lake again 
back in th day when 
we hadn’t the faintest, clue

i jus cant feel that anymore 
im not the same kid 
im not the same kid
im not the same

i jus wanna see me smile i just wanna come alive
i dont ever give myself time

ur smile (sleepy fish)

My Shitty Love Songs On Her Playlist (jean parker & aidan han)

IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT (5head X Flower)

sk8miles

lyrics ♡

let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
full of sharks
let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
we got hella shards, breaking hella shards
let's swim
let's swim

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

post chorus
in your room

verse
ha, i hope that
when you're w him, you're screaming my name
ha, i hope that he knows
that you liked when i fucked on your face
ha, those were the better days
those were the better days
take me back to those better days (no they weren't lolll)
when i was w you, damn i made it a wetter day
and now im chilling watching anime
fucked a new bitch, it's like any day
but anyway, ive been gaining
like hella weight
cuz of raising canes, so
working it off
balling so hard, like im in the nba 
im the one like an ace of spades
but fuck it imma leave you anyway

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

outro
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

let's swim in an ocean full of sharks

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

limbo (2022)

run from you feat kii. (malloy x max flynn)

Produced: Misogi
Vocals: Misogi
Background vocals: Little Shadows (@lilshdws), Jxsh (@jxshjxsh), Teddybear (@tddybrr)
Written: Teddybear (@tddybrr)
Co-Written: Misogi
Artwork: Ian Harris (https://www.instagram.com/latdeboy/)

WWW.TWITTER.COM/XXMISOGI
WWW.TWITTER.COM/TDDYBRR
WWW.TWITTER.COM/LILSHDWS
WWW.TWITTER.COM/JXSH15TH

"Violent Candy" features Nessly (@nessly)
twitter.com/nessly24k

"Little Brain" features nothing,nowhere. (@nothingnowheremusic)
twitter.com/nothingnowhere

Haute Couture

misogi - i'll never cry again

sample: ak9 - when you come home

i'll never cry again **(misogi)

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

----lyrics----
this boy's got me going insane
if im dead inside baby you're the one to blame
its such a shame that we ended like this
I fucked it all up before it even started
now im sat here brokenhearted
I guess home is where the heart is
you know I've been heartless
I wanna be alone
I wanna turn off my phone 
I just wanna go home
and get stoned but
you're the reason that im here
and now I wanna disappear
waiting three months for you
to make a motherfucking move
now you don't know what you do
or what you put me through
its sad, but it's true
I'll always be here for you
I'll always be here for you

boy you're making me look so dumb
now tell me where did it all go wrong
someone tell me what the fuck is love
cuz' I don't ever get none
I often feel so numb
believe me baby
im going crazy
people love to hate me
now no one can save me
how can you sleep at night
leave me high and dry
when you know that shit aint right
yeah you know that shit aint right
but theres nothing I can do
ima leave it up to you
you found someone new
it'll always be you
it'll always be you
it's always been you

-----

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CottonmoutH: https://soundcloud.com/buddycottonmouth

one to blame (prod. CottonmoutH)

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

genius.com/Softheart-you-dont-know-me-lyrics
thank you everyone for the support, it really means the world to me love ya

You Don't Know Me

lyrics: https://bit.ly/2S1uQHP

GUITAR BY CAM FUCKING QUINN

Through The Wood

lyrics: https://bit.ly/2PXEleV

this song samples and interpolates "alone made of ice" by maldito @malditotheindigokid

other instrumentation done by Noah Walker

Recluse

new music soon


prod. by boyfifty
mixed by mighty assassin
hes actually a legend and u should go check him out
twitter.com/boyfifty_

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PR3TTY (prod. boyfifty x mighty assassin)

my first actual project, I'm aware that its rough but things will get better with time.

light

you see with bright eyes,
i cant back down.
through black walls,
you make that sound.

she say she love me for myself,
yeah not for my frown.

and she know that I'll be fine
when I got no rounds.

said,
"do you really love me anymore?"

said,
"you're all I ever want please, and more"
and more and more,
and more and more,
and more and more,
and more and more.

she start going out with friends,
way past 3.
now she love me for my money,
man I thought it was me.

now I'm crying all alone 
with nothing but this beat,
and all my friends are asking 
where I am but I'm too deep,

and I said,
"do you really love me anymore?"

and said,
"you're all I ever want please, and more"
and more and more and more,
and more and more,
and more and more,
and more and more.

--
MIXED BY @mightyassassin
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preTTy
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@prettyftw

and more (ft. kuja) | prod. rizi

werent you the girl with the white striped shoes,
kicking rocks at the yard, half past two.
you can take my number down and i'll be here,
you get in your car and you changed the gears, huh
did i say i loved manual, well i do
guess we have a couple things in common too.
you can take my number down and i'll be here,
girl, i'll be here, yeah, i'll be here
yeah ill be here.
yeah ill be here.

as my eyes turn to night, i question if you're one thing that'll spark a light inside me.
as these petals fall to the ground, i contemplate if you'll still really love me.
we can be sad, and i'll pull down the curtains, stay inside, we dont gotta fight please.
baby when i'm with you i still get the same butterflies its like the world's in perfect harmony.

werent you that girl with the white striped shoes,
kicking rocks at the yard, half past two.
you can take my number down and i'll be here,
you get in your car and you changed the gears, huh
did i say i loved manual, well i do
guess we have a couple things in common too.
you can take my number down and i'll be here,
girl, i'll be here, yeah, i'll be here
yeah ill be here.
yeah ill be here.
--
MIXED BY @mightyassassin
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preTTy
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@prettyftw

ill be here (prod. 8rokeboy)

don't worry i'm not gone, i'm just sleeping in the clouds right now
drivin raris in the heavens, i'm just waiting for the crowd right now
i been lonely since eleven, but i'm countin all my blessings somehow
all these people think i'm god, but where was they when i was broken down?

i got two cups of that faygo,
pint of lean, pound of weed, with a death note.
wonder if she'll call my phone, what do i know?
wonder if i'll be alone, how do i know?
i see people walking by with their eyes closed,
thinking to themselves, where the fuck did time go?
and lately i been thinking bout that one hoe,
bruh i know that it hurts, trust me, i know.

but don't worry i'm not gone, i'm just sleeping in the clouds right now
drivin raris in the heavens, i'm just waiting for the crowd right now
i been lonely since eleven, but i'm countin all my blessings somehow
all these people think i'm god, but where was they when i was broken down?
--
MIXED BY @mightyassassin
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preTTy
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