I just took a tab,
help me to forget,
show me everything that you never had,
gave me what I wanted-
but that was in the past.

drugs in my bag, everythings in my backpack.
reach if you want,
and I can't promise that you'll be good tonight,
at least I'll be here by your side,
I don't have what you want, and you're more than I like...

I do this shit often; i get too high way too often,
my head is caving in the end, it feels awesome,
I bet my mom wouldn't want this.

what do you want from me?
you do not talk to me?
you'd rather talk to him?

wish I could see you now,
wish I could tell you how?
you left me feeling.

People Are Poison

prod. @yungspoiler
mix & master by me as usual <3
artwork: @astrosux
spotify pre-save: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kanashi/frustrated-

lyrics:
i just need to escape this hell x2
i been feeling so frustrated
wake up in the morning
empty bottle 
still a little wasted
fuck i kinda hate this
i been stuck in a cycle 
somewhere between okay and suicidal
when you find me past out 
pls dont check my vitals
i did this for myself
i just need to escape this hell 

yeah i need to escape it
all you motherfuckers always playin
if u got a problem whey dont you just say it?

why dont you just say it?
im sick of acting like i like you
i dont need that energy inside my life anymore
i dont

frustrated ! [+yungspoiler]

i see her face everywhere i go 
takes me back and i feel cold
my bedroom walls are growin mold
but i feel safer on my own
lately all my pants have been fallin from my wasteline 
i'm just waiting until i flatline 

molecules turning into some smaller particules 
nothing new watch my body decompose as i watch the moon 
and the stars on this dark night 
baby i'm a dark knight 
i'll probably lose this fight 
getting consumed by the darkness
it's controlling my body 
but my mind is clear 
the same old thought the same old fears
when i hear your voice i still burst into tears
blacked out from all of this pills 
feel the zoloft runnin through my veins i'm so ill 

i give up
i give up
imma fuck up
imma fuck up

i see her face everywhere i go 
takes me back and i feel cold
my bedroom walls are growin mold
but i feel safer on my own
lately all my pants have been fallin from my wasteline 
i'm just waiting until i flatline

flatline (pekarot + jolst)

no consideration
no consideration
for ur future
just look at urself
all consideration
all consideration
for ur past
my nails ill bite fast
i wont ever get a bag
its no wonder im sad
i really didnt choose this
i really didnt
stuck in my room screaming till someday
i finally got what i want someway
slow
slow 
slow ur fuckin roll now
ur getting too caught up 
in the paper that u roll now
you can tell me anything
i promise that ill understand
yeah i know life sucks 
but just hang w me
gotta do so much just to get by
its really hard just to be happy
gotta do so much just to get by
its really hard just to be happy

no consideration (sogimura)

just the beginning...
@jolst // @pekarot_161 // art by @ejcarrmusic

lyrics:

i can tell u wanna hang it up
with the way u never say u love me
and i never even needed ya
maybe it was just the way u bugged me

i’ve been bothered by the time i’ve wasted lately
fallen through, my saving grace
it was the one thing that kept me in place
rather forget than forgive

cuz i’ve been kind
i’ve given patience u dont deserve
i’ve followed trails to the core of this earth
i’m reading books cuz i never fucking learn
you’ve run a fine line too long this time
i gotta move on im sure im right
cuz it was nice with u here
i’ll be fine with u gone
i don’t like all this fear
you should just move along

i can tell u wanna hang it up
with the way u never say u love me
and i never even needed ya
maybe it was just the way u bugged me

time, wasting time 
but you don’t realize 
what you don’t realize 
these are the days of our lives
you got caught up in your lies 
emotions trapped inside your minds 
hidden behind a disguise
now its too late for goodbyes

i can tell u wanna hang it up
with the way u never say u love me
and i never even needed ya
maybe it was just the way u bugged me

i’ve been bothered by the time i’ve wasted lately
fallen through, my saving grace
it was the one thing that kept me in place
rather forget than forgive..

hangitup [jolst x pekarot]

spotify & apple music!

timeless gng

unwrote books and passages
time will wake me up id rather be dead
take this plate away from me before i get sick
i love this life and now i dont wanna live
sad.
they live for themselves but they ignore you
thats how it goes it shouldn't surprise you
theres alot of people who wanna look like you
including me you really tinted my hue
you said im bad but im doing fine 
so what the fuck do you mean?
yeah i learned from being a bitch
now im not really that mean no more
i promise ill do better.

unwrote books and passages
time will wake me up id rather be dead
take this plate away from me before i get sick
i love this life and now i dont wanna live
sad.
they live for themselves but they ignore you
thats how it goes it shouldn't surprise you
theres alot of people who wanna look like you
including me you really tinted my hue

what do you mean?
i know im not
i promise ill do better.

unwrote books & passages (wisssery x sharp)

Produced, Mixed, Mastered by hazenova
ALL PLATFORMS APRIL 10th

Lyrics:
(hazenova)
you dont know me like u think that u do
when its all said and done
i meant nothing to you
you feel make me feel so abused
i feel broken used
and my skins turning blue
oh my skins turning blue

rain rain fuck off dont come again
ive been tryna make it out
tryna make it big
i been tryna talk 
aint no body listening
so u mfs gonna have to hear me sing x2

oh ive been gone for some time
oh ive been wasting my life
on people that dont care if i live or i die

(Epitomeoffailure)
don’t fucking get me started
i’ve been falling apart in the cold damn rain
while you’ve been sitting back watching
it’s kinda funny to me
that you would take the time
to abuse me
over and over again
when it seems to me
that you could be
doing anything
than looking over in my direction
still view you as perfection
and there’s nothing i will do except stare in this gun

Abused (feat. Epitomeoffailure)

produced by wisssery & jolst
i feel a little like my face is melting
and my truth is shaping 
into something that i dont want it to be
i dont want it to be
and i cant even change it
even if i fucking wanted to
but i dont :p
but i dont.
no i dont
no i dont
oh i dont
oh i dont
no i dont
no i dont
its easy to not care when youre fucked up
feeling despair has never been so familiar 
the grass is green and the sun is bright, but
you wont get me out my room tonight
out my room, room
out my room, room
out my room, room
room, room, room.
out my-
yeah
fuck writing
i just needa find a beat and throw my thoughts inside it
woah
woah
woah
woah
yeah
fuck biking
to your house in the freezing cold
frost bite on my god damn nose
where'd you go?
who fucking knows.
where'd you go?
who fucking knows.

frostbite (wisssery & jolst)

emptychest