thought soundcloud paused the song for a sec here lmfao

decomposing (switch)

i can make something out of everything i see...
prod. @jolst & @sainttomorrow
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
love u all, album next week
from the bottom of my heart, i hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i need help
could u lend me a hand?
cuz the foam on the waves
just threw me into the sand

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

to take, to give, to love
living is hard enough
im so used to the brace before the impact
that when i sleep i just wake before the contact

and now i wander
and i wonder
if its over, dead and gone
if my memory takes too long
are u someone i can rely on?

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

i think i waited too long 
i know the damage is done
im moving mountains just to solve
all of the problems i’ve caused
i’d rather take it all in
than try to fix what i broke
cuz every time i step a foot in
i just slip and then choke
i think im losing whats in front of me
and whats in front of me
is the ocean and some company
but what is company
when im all alone
i’ll try to cope 
but i dont wanna know
what’s really gone now

the weight is heavy on me
and i’ve been falling backwards
i cant stay steady i just
pray for better days when i think i need you
more than i’d admit
i wanna cry and fucking quit
my stomach pulls and shakes and twists
take me back to those i miss

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

VII. mountain mover [jolst x saint tomorrow]

spotify & apple music!

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & 2001
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
and I really have to do this for myself;
growing up, and facing fears, and learning i cant dissapear	
its one thing after another
study hard, and dont blow your cover
learn all the lessons you lost
cause school was tough, and inside youre soft
you loved your dad, cause he was all that you had
to pat your back on the way, and say its okay
you loved your mom, (I love you) cause she was your home
(my home) and your only friend or anything that made you feel a little bit less messed up  
cause a little means alot ;/
and now i got almost everything that i want
but im stil trying for what i- dont have,,
"dont look back" is what they told me,
so ill keep on living till the, old me dies
dies (What a-)
dies
dies
until-
until he dies.

I'm on my way

mixed, mastered, and written by Ally Holloway
produced by wissery & yago
٩(× ×)۶

it's really not meant to be,
i know..
i know..
but i get to caught up,
and i love it..
i love it,
i love it..

and yeah, he gets high,
and i know you do too.
he gets by,
and i know you dont,
and i know you dont.
(no)
seeping in, bleeding out,
do you know what i mean?
a world of pain, doesnt amount,
to what i need to learn.
yeah,
I'll do what he wants, and ill pull it back for you.
yeah,
him and her and all that fuckin bullshit,
and if i dont care, am i just a fuckin fool, man?

and yeah, he gets high,
and i know you do too.
he gets by,
and i know you dont,
and i know you dont.
(no)
seeping in, bleeding out,
do you know what i mean?
a world of pain, doesnt amount,
to what i need to learn..

Just getting by

im still learning

mixed, mastered, and written by Ally Holloway
produced by Jang0 & Autrioly

(pre-chorus)
You're right, I'm tryna' find love again.
Am I wrong, to say that you don't care?
Or maybe I don't care enough,
To save myself or walk away.

(chorus)
You should know by now,
I don't plan to tone it down.
I'll scream even if it's not loud enough.
I'll break my shell, cause my angels' askin' me;
"Why?"
"Have I haven't yet?"
(I haven't yet)
Got my license yet,
I'll tell you why; I just wait.
I'm bound to say yes if it's still real but,
I'm not down to wait around for you.

(breakdown)
I.. don't,
Wanna get back at you.
I'm talkin' about
Nobody but Me.

(verse)
You're wrong,
Cause I don't wanna love again,
And every night, I'm guilty for the wrong things.
I wanna be unique,
To save myself or walk away.

(chorus)
You should know by now,
I don't plan to tone it down.
I'll scream even if it's not loud enough.
I'll break my shell..
And they ask me why I procastinate
(Haven't yet)
For what I mean, I'm growing up.
I'll tell you why; I just wait.
I'm bound to say yes if it's still real but,
I'm not down to wait around for you.

I'm still learning

momentary 

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
I'm still waiting on like everything, thing's like,
boy, come here
I'll make this our year
light up the street lights with the power from our love, dear
you can stay here, angel don't fear
I'll dive deep inside your mind cause it's my frontier, yeah.
we got time to be contemporary, yeah
and it'll happen, but it's momentary, and we'll feel pain
until one day life's ours

and I just want you
can we cross the borders, and claim our mind's back?
can we stay up all night till the sunrise, and think back..
to better days? :')
(no..)

crossed your path once again
didn't mean to, but i love you, and i mean that shit
i got lost again, am i learning?- i don't know.
you hate talking to me, but it's mutual,
and i can't be happy so just shut up.

we got time to be contemporary, yeah
and it'll happen, but it's momentary, and we'll feel pain
until one day lifes ours

and yeah, your presence's enough! :(
probably numb,
sleeping in love,
problems a dove,
and i can't get enough
of my ignorance
to better, days.

It's miserable..
I can't be happy,
so just shut up.

Momentary

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
mixed/mastered by me
quote from spice and wolf <3

Lyrics:

oh, i been feelin lately, the hole you left in my cardiac
i guess you could say it, but i really want the privilege
every conversation we're having always feels frivolous
oh yea you think her tongues sharp, just wait until the knife comes
i really hope he loves you, in the same way that i did
cause i gave half my life in pursuit of what you said
blood been pumpin faster, she a heart attacker
these chains around my ventricles shackle me to the chapel

don't wanna break it down but i got words for you baby
this sonnet i'm singing, oh it don't do it justice
oh, im so full of rage uhh, all i feel is hate now
every syllable from your mouth feels fuckin disgustin
i can't shed now, my tears have burned away
oh my passionate admiration for ya, has only turned to disdain

[bridge]

my heart's been disfigured by the shadow of a sinner
every time you text me oh my sanity runnin thinner
we were meant to be but baby we can never be
cause i see right through you and every lie ya said to me
you thought of yourself as knowledgeable and worldly
but honestly you're as immature as it gets
and with every nerve ending in my body
i wanna be loved in the same way i love another

clearly you dont see me
heart's green with bleeding envy
i see right through you chest untempered glass
even the holy blessed temple won't offer sanctuary to your ass
everything you wrought, was of your own accord
and honestly i think you left cause you were bored
and that might just be fine if i could get you out my mind
striving for that point where i don't love you anymore

cardiac_arrest (secre x heyrick)

prod. tracyxo x joshbae

see me blowing rainbows
i dont care bout you hoes
im on my ten toes
ran around this dome
(if we're talking bout it,)

i dont give no shit about a ciggarette pack
i dont care about frozen time
uh huh?
i dont care about golden why?'s
uh huh
this shit bothers me
i dont wanna deal with the shit in my head
i just wanna smoke white runtz till im dead
thoughts come up from the bottom of my mind
aye, i gotta climb back up, i gotta wake up
i dont wanna be late!
i dont know what to say :(
i dont wanna be anyone i try and replicate
5:00 am, waste of time, oh my god..
6:00 am, and im tired as fuck

it still wont wake me up
thc in my gut
faded or nothing bruh
this preroll is all for us
we're living like we're still dumb
who am i kidding?
no one does it better than you.
no one will bother me anymore
dont lie
dont try
dont cry to me anymore
i painted the walls exactly like i wanted to
the stripes i made were pink and blue for you
will you be okay..?

(you were only a momment away)

dont, even bother
coming back.
im sorry,
but im not.
I'M TIRED OF THIS COLD WAR!
I'M TRYNA HELP MYSELF AGAIN!
I'M TRYNA BE ANYONE

up,
i gotta wake up ')
DONT WANNA BE LATE
I DONT WANNA BE ANYONE I TRY TO REPLICATE
FIVE AM WASTE OF TIME OH MY GOD
SIX AM AND IM TIRED AS FUCK
AND DONT WANNA WAKE UP.
ah...
ah...
can you run that by me once again :(?
ah..
ah
i dont know, how else i will-
(find some comfort in my home again)
THIS ROCKING CHAIR DONT FEEL THE SAME
THE PORTRAIT FELL AND SOMETHINGS CHANGED

the portrait fell, & something changed

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up daisies hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (w/ notahero) (malloy x jkei)

Produced by Jolst
Fanlink: fanlink.to/lovelessgroup

Lyrics: 
Svnam @sideviewdriveca
I know it's hard, but I'm getting used to it
Spending nights alone

I took our picture frames all down off the wall
There's no memories of us here
Just a ghost dancing down the hall
& I know it's hard to admit
& I'm getting used to it
Spending nights up all alone
Still waiting by the phone

I can't look at you the same
Still hear your name
In the back of my head
Ringing in my ears like
I can't sleep the same
I toss & turn 'til day comes
Sunrises don't look the same
I can't sleep at all, no
Without you by my side
Can't sleep at night
Don't feel right
It's not alright

+++++

@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup

++++

I'm still learning

emptychest (kill breanna)

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