Single from the upcoming album "Echoes of a Shattered Mind"
w/ my boy Dream Tales

i'm stuck, can we slow it down? ft dream tales (mourning ave)

Put my all into this one i hope you enjoy. <3

LYRICS
---Chorus---
I don't like this place
wear a mask to hide my face
blast off into open space
i wanna move somewhere far away
far away from your embrace
this empty space inside my heart is worthless anyway
its worthless anyway

---Bridge---
its worthless anyway
a pointless fucking serenade
for times we spent together
i just log them in my database

---Verse 1---
I'm not afraid to be alone
that shits all I've ever known
you know how this game goes
and I know how you play it
you plan to kill me slowly
you plan to act like you don't know me
I don't care what you think bitch yeah you can fucking blow me
I just wanna get high
I just wanna leave myself behind and find a new life
I feel endless suffering when I open my eyes
I cant escape my feelings no matter how hard I try
no matter how hard I try
---2nd Verse---
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
SO CAN WE START AGAIN 
I DONT SEE THE POINT IN ALL THIS ARGUING
ITS HARD FOR ME TO GRASP THE CONCEPT OF LIVING HAPPILY AGAINNNNNN
WITHOUT YOUR HEAD ON MY CHEST
WITHOUT YOUR HAIR IN MY HANDS
WITHOUT YOUR BREATH IN THE AIR
ITS ALL WORTHLESS IN THE END
ITS ALL WORTHLESS IN THE EEEEEEEND

---Outro Chorus---
I don't like this place
wear a mask to hide my face
blast off into open space
I wanna move somewhere far away
far away from your embrace
this empty space inside my heart is worthless anyway
it's worthless anyway.

worthless (branwen x gorekompozitor)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

LYRICS
yeah yeah yeah
broke my heart, what? you fucked me over once
and i wont give you the chance to make it right

So come on baby wont you bring me in tonight
subordinate to your body on this fateful night
But thats alright thats alright thats alright
you said hold up get outta my fuckin sight

Oh im alright 
yeah im alright without ya
But i might fuck around with somebody else just to spite ya
I wait around wait around till timings right
but i dont mind i dont mind i dont...

Dont fall in love fall in love with your mind
Cos i just wanna fuck around with you tnite
Cos i got narc on me, "psycho", you're right
but i might yeah i might yeah yeah i might
yeah i might yeah i might yeah i might
Dont fuck me off or ima show you tonite
Cos i got narc on me, "psycho", you're right

psycho

what. the. fuck...
I dont know whats going on right now
So tell me right now
(please tell me whats happening right now, i have no fucking idea)
What the fucks this all about
pull up to the function for an hour and im out
lights out, im addicted to the substance 
Wonder how
Im still breathing with this molly in my body 
im out ciao
(bye bye)
wait for an Uber in the lobby
Might black out
im a psycho you cant ever work me out yeah

Dont fall in love fall in love with your mind
Cos i just wanna fuck around with you tnite
Cos i got narc on me, "psycho", you're right
but i might yeah i might  yeah i might
yeah i might yeah i might yeah i might
Dont fuck me off or ima show you tonite
Cos i got narc on me, "psycho", you're right

psycho you're right, you're right, you're right
you're right.

psycho (ryini)

https://soundcloud.com/secre_swallowtail?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

This is a cry for help

Lyrics

Im a zombie on the drugs isn’t it obvious
These days i swear even just breathing feels laborious
Overdosing on my sorrow, 
sprinkling angel dust
Take a couple more 
Ill feel my body slowly rust
Wont be long till my depression is victorious
post my final goodbye on my insta story huh
whats the point if all my happiness vicarious
thinking bout the future can be kinda scary huh

but “just stay positive”, is worthless when my feelings numb
“Just hang in there”, from my ceiling in a minute huh?
I make a point to never rely on somebody else
Cos When I’m suffering i try to keep it to myself

put my feelings to the side to try maintain my health
But its eating me from inside please somebody help
I think nobody heard my cries im on my own in hell
lying on my side i swear i can hear heavens bells

I spent the last few days just tryna figure out myself
i struggle doing basic shit without somebodies help
i struggle functioning without the pills on top my shelf
Maybe one day i will feel better about myself

Im a zombie on the drugs isn’t it obvious
These days i swear even just breathing feels laborious
Overdosing on my sorrow, 
sprinkling angel dust
Take a couple more 
Ill feel my body slowly rust
Wont be long till my depression is victorious
post my final goodbye on my Insta story huh
whats the point if all my happiness vicarious
thinking bout the future can be kinda scary huh

zombie (secre x just rt productions)

Never have I ever been addicted to the 'presence' of someone who's so far, so fast, until now. I don't know how to feel, or how to act.

LYRICS¬

all the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
im a ghost dont hit my phone x2


All the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
Ima ghost x3
Ima

Ahem
Uh (yeah,yeah)
Anyway (yeah)

I fell in love 
i know we haven't met but you still hit me up yeah
so far apart
Thinking about the distance got me feeling lost yeah
And I need your love, but your so far
Ion think ima get it baby I lost out
But
If we met in a past life would it be different or not
Would it be different or not 

all the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
I'm a ghost don't hit my phone x2

All the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
Ima ghost x3
Ima

Ahhh
Bcos
To be honest im pretty uh

fucked up
I should prolly warn you that im fucked up 
insecurities a product of my past love
So im sorry if i keep my mind locked up
Yeah
Open up
Even when i really wanna i keep shut up
Dont ever wanna bring up what once was
stop digging through my past oh my god
Yeah

all the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
im a ghost dont hit my phone x2

All the lies 
Leave me lone
Keeping guard
Of my thoughts
Ima ghost x3
Ima

distance (secre swallowtail)

LYRICS¬

I'm feeling desolate
a pessimist
call me professor X
a specialist
perfectionist-
mutation on the beat leavin em breath-e-less
I'm heaven sent
I'm at my best-
Assembling 
Assembling my wildest dreams 
I'm manic see
I'm manifesting being a better me

but I often let my feelings get the best of me
I'm evil see
Intense imagery digesting me
Its killing me
My blood spills carefully
On mahogany so blissfully
its clear to see
Its clear to see
That I'm dying baby wont you come and save me
Come and save me x2
That's the least that you could do to try repay me

to try repay me
For the pain that you caused me
Yeah
It still haunts me
Oh
It still haunts me


Oh 
Writing songs on a starry night
Intertwining my pain within every rhyme
Write down feelings on my phone when I'm alone at night 
but my music echoes pains of a shattered mind
And it helps me vent frustration when I'm not feeling right
Helps me bring my thoughts into clearer light
Jotape introduced me to the artist life
and I'm slowly getting better I'm so thankful I
yeah
I'm so thankful i
yeah I'm so thankful i
Jotape introduced me to the artist life
and I'm slowly getting better I'm so thankful I

mutant (secre swallowtail)

Lyrics¬

Ohh its alright
Ive heard these words a thousand times
And it doesnt get easier
No it doesnt get easier
But i dont mind
If you lie to me tonight
just lie with me, alright?
I know its kinda sad
Thinkin about the times when 
we were alright

So hold me tight
tell me bout the things you like
And lets do this together
Ill take care of you forever i dont mind
keep you warm in stormy weather its alright
Never know how to react, when, we fight
but we always work it out by the night

And i looooooove you
and i cant help my-jealousy
But ill take care of it
if you take care of me

And i know
That of
Everyone
You know the most
I get too attached and i hurt myself 
On loving those
That care for me the most
And i still dont know how
To control
My feelings all
Emotions overflow

i cant stay afloat
heartbreak overdose
Wondering what to do 
and where to go
Only god could know

Ohh its alright
Ive heard these words a thousand times
And it doesnt get easier
No it doesnt get easier
But i dont mind
If you lie to me tonight
just lie with me, alright?
I know its kinda sad
Thinkin about the times when 
we were alright

a thousand times (iof)

LYRICS

Noizeyy

Tryna cope so i block you out
I Swear to god this shit never works out
not too long till i move down south
emotions they flowing right outta my mouth

Hold me back hold me back fore i say something i regret
I hope i meet you at least once this summer that’d be the best
Cos i know, you been feelin streesed, promise that i got you
I would never hurt you
you can trust in what im saying
cos i know the best how it feels when they betray you
So i stay true
i always stay true
Never worry bout a thing when im there with you
Cos i promise that i fucking got you

Do you got me too?
I wanna vibe with you

Even though you’re still healing
Do you reciprocate my feelings

So im here for you to fallback
But theres one little drawback yeah
were running outta time promise that ill call back Always here for you and you know that yeah

Mæsk

Yeah ya know that
Feeling like a ghost
U wanna take it slow 
And then jus see where this shit goes 

Wasting all this time, playing around
Just put it all out there im ok if u break my heart again
I can seal it on
Just lay it all on me
She say she can feel it too 
Just building up all day 

And I can feel it in my veins
Pouring up another but thats not all I wanna taste

All these notions in my brain
Now im falling im ok
I can not wait 
No way
I been fuckn round 
Dont gooooo

I cant keep a hold 
Of all these emtotion

All o deez nutz run rampant
My soul holds this passion 
That I cant control 
When ur on my line laughing
Time is passing
It might end up tragic 
But we’ll never know if u keep acting passive

Noizeyy

So im here for you to fallback
But theres one little drawback yeah
were running outta time promise that ill call back Always here for you and you know that yeah

fall back ft. maesk (eric godlow)

noizeyy has been a fun journey, but this is a new beginning i've been needing
thank you https://soundcloud.com/tearsonmygucci for the amazing feature <3

LYRICS

dxnny ¬

Can we slow it down cos baby i been exhausted
my intentions are good im just being honest
wasnt up for loving again until our eyes met
so give me time to adjust to this and process
dont want my fragile heart-becomin a target
but the last thing i want is to disregard this
spent the last few months, guarding my conscience 
but ima try give you all of me regardless

Regardless, regardlesss

ill let myself love you and hope it doesn’t turn toxic
see your actions turn bittersweet and turn caustic
tugging on my heartstrings- human fucking guitar pick
Finally put my soul in its place but then i lost it
dont wanna rush into your life without precautions 
without precautions without precautions
Ion wanna rush into your life without precautions

tearsonmygucci ¬

thought i took precautions
everything is rushing and it's got me feeling nauseous
i still got a hole where my heart should be
coz inside of her resides a piece of me

oh i can't forget
i feel her skin when I'm touching you i guess
I'm just hopeless
i can feel it
building up inside of me 
but i still hear it in my dreams
all the things you said to me

dxnny ¬

YOU TOLD ME YOU’D PROTECT MY HEART
THATS ALL I WANTED 
BUT YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME 
THAT TIME BACK IN AUGUST
I DONT WANNA FEEL YOUR LOVE IF ITS GONNA HARM ME 
ILL GO TO BACK TO TAKING THE SUBSTANCES THAT CALM ME
AND I WONT DIE, LEAVE MY BODY BEHIND 
LEAVE ME TO ROT INSECTS EAT MY INSIDES
I DREAD TO THINK BOUT THE SCENE YOU WILL FIND
WHEN YOU COME HOME
oh ohh oh

precautions ft tearsonmygucci (cian x lavendertxwn)

mixed, mastered and produced by yours truly.

lyrics ¬
Moonlight bouncing off your pretty face 
i knew that id fall in love with you anyway
Cruel eyes infiltrate the shattered gates
Crumbling to ashes as she celebrates

I got a sickly feeling that i met my fate
but i dont wanna face it, if it means "so long"
and i dont think you really wanna know my name
formalities are pointless if you cut me off

A battle stalemates
Sacrifices in vain
lost the war, pay in blood for mistakes that i made
bet you came out unscathed 
Completely unfazed
I have no doubts you’re truly proud of the path that you blazed

X2

Moonlight bouncing off your pretty face 
i knew that id fall in love with you anyway
Cruel eyes infiltrate the shattered gates
Crumbling to ashes as she celebrates

I got a sickly feeling that i met my fate
but i dont wanna face it, if it means so long
and i dont think you really wanna know my name
formalities are pointless if you cut me off

Moonlight bouncing off your pretty face 
i knew that id fall in love with you anyway
Cruel eyes infiltrate the shattered gates
Crumbling to ashes as she celebrate-

Prod. Venus

Lyrics 

This song’s a message to my older self
Huh
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts don’t keep you up at night
cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
Hope that you overcome ur anxious mind
or it’ll be your fucking funeral

tides changing, and i been contemplating my thoughts, 
smooth sailing is not smooth if you bail when its hard
I hope you beat the demons that left you so broken and scarred
hope you surround yourself with people that wont
TEAR YOU APART

AND WHILE YOU’RE AT IT WONT YOU LET SOMEBODY INTO YOUR HEART

START TO APPRECIATE THE TIME YOU SPEND WITH HER IN YOURS ARMS

CAUSE RIGHT NOW IM DISSOCIATED I FORGOT HOW TO FEEL

WOUNDS REOPEN THAT I SWEAR HAD 
ALREADY FULLY HEALED

Its like everything that’s happened lately hasn’t been real
life’s been feelin kinda pointless uh 
oh
maybe higher powers set me up
But I dont know if its just me who’s lost oh
I give up i fucking guess they won

This song’s a message to my older self
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts dont keep you up at night
Cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
I hope you overcome ur anxious mind
Or it’ll be your fucking funeral

message to my older self

lyrics¬

he's everything
that i wanna be but never was
and i bet he treats you better
than i, ever could
we,
were always fighting i
think i misunderstood
what you meant when you said you loved me
i didnt think anybody could

im sober now
dont cut me out
i fell in love
too fast, for my own good
but you're the one that loved me too
i cant imagine a life without you
cos we stick together like feathers and glue
and i would be finished if i lost you, too

he's everything
that i wanna be but never was
and i bet he treats you better
than i, ever could
we
were always fighting i
think i misunderstood
what you meant when you said you loved me
i didnt think anybody could

inevitability ill get replaced
missing the times i wake up to your face 
reminiscing on places we visit apart but together 
in juxtaposition oh
why does it have to be this way?
i hate its not us spending everyday, together
what ever happened, to, forever? 

he's everything
that i wanna be but never was
and i bet he treats you better
than i, ever could
we
were always fighting i
think i misunderstood
what you meant when you said you loved me
i didnt think anybody could

misunderstood (marco)

LYRICS¬

I been so 
Fucked 
sing my heart out feel the scarring on my lungs
Start a fight with emotions i think i lost
i can express all my feelings so tell me why
when im alone i still struggle to get a cry
out (struggle to get a cry out)
Hate this place, if i had money i think id fly outttt
travelling the -planet- sounds like good shouuut
drop social media then ill head south
tell my mama im sorry im turning-

Ghost now
Ghost now
Tell my mama im sorry im ghost nooow
Ooooooohhh

everything kept the same
but thats just commonplace

I wanna leave so bad
im sick of familiar faces
Ill play your games no longer
Ima discard your number
put the memories to rest in an 
eternal slumber

im in an astral state
blood-running cold through my veins
Stare through my pale face
hate -that you treat me this way
personality fades
but thats expected cos 
Lately baby ive been feeling so-

Fucked 
sing my heart out feel the scarring on my lungs
Start a fight with emotions i think i lost
i can express all my feelings so tell me why
when im alone i still struggle to get a cry
out 
Hate this place, if i had money i think id fly out
travelling the -planet- sounds like good shouuut
drop social media then ill head south
tell my mama im sorry im turning -

maesk

-Ghost now
Been keeping to myself, dont wanna talk
If I could I'd move out of this place at once

I look around im so misplaced 
Id love
Too press a button that would erase me, turn to dust

She shaking with the knife
Blood all on the carpet this not the first time
Nooowww
But my emotions underground 
I cant feel a thing I think my fuckin souls crushed

maesk & dxnny

Fucked 
sing my heart out feel the scarring on my lungs
Start a fight with emotions i think i lost
i can express all my feelings so tell me why
(Tell me why)
when im alone i still struggle to get a cry
out 
Hate this place, if i had money i think id fly out
travelling the -planet- sounds like good shouuut
drop social media then ill head south
tell my mama im sorry (im turning-)

ghost ft mæsk (cian)

LYRICS¬

I don't really wanna explain
got a lot on my chest that im struggling to relay
so i keep it hush for your sake
nobody ever listened in the first place
i could cry my heart out on a track and you’d forget it in like 4 days 
If you listened to my lyrics then you’d never be surprised that im not okay
no you’d never be surprised that im not okay
Woah,
lemme it slow down for a minute
i been fighting, im abouta reach my limit
Need pills with the potent stuff in it
cross out my own name off the hitlist
Uh 
and its non of your business
Who called it
But its obvious…
…oh its obvious

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant tell you how to make it better,
but i can understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

and oftentimes the thought of something’s
way more daunting than the fucking process
Panic causes me to digress and i push shit to the side when i should progress
and its holding me back
And i cant accept the facts
but it
Its fine
I
Ill make it 
this time

(I could never 
I could
I could never save me from myself
My hearts broken, 
i fall apart
all, the words i left
Unspoken)

helpless case
dont give me hope baby i know that you’re not here to stay
I know you’ll leave one day
Like everything ive ever loved you’ll slowly fade away
fade away

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant, tell you, how to, make it better,
but i can,understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

save me from myself (idealism)

Its been a while
I got some short inspiration for this beat, ive got a dozen songs half complete that i just havent gotten round to finishing
For some reason gained most followers during my hiatus, welcome to the family! and to those who listened before.. 
Sorry for disappearing two months <3

Lyrics~

got a fear of missing out, but i never leave the house when im asked to come out so what
Say she leaving me now tough luck
but i wouldnt rly call this love 
blunt the pain with the alcohol, drown my sorrow in a cup
cant walk in a line, lost track of the time , cant you tell that ive had enough

(If i recite my last sad song
Would you hold my arms for the last time
Before the end wish its this sad tune
No matter where imma miss you)

Body walks, souls locked in a basement
Promise that i didnt know the pills were laced man
You’re already working out my replacement 
Worked so hard to build us up, you erased it

fomo (autrioly)

prod by the legend skyp

LYRICS¬

If i tried explaining this shit you wouldn’t get it
and ive had enough of you callin me pathetic
I dont wanna talk about it no
I dont wanna talk about it no
press me like i owe you something 
but im not fucking stupid know i owe you nothing oooh
Play me for my weakness bae thats low
But Im not surprised in the least you know

She was obsessive, wouldn’t confess it
all of the games, she keeping me guessing 
Fucked with my mind, shit got me stressing
mixing the codeine to deal with depression and
think i need sedative medicine
Might just OD for the hell of iiiit

But to you thats an occasion to celebrate
like what the fuck is that about
Am not even leaving the house
Im scared of the actions you take and im fearing the words that come outta ya mouth

everything just seems so played out
and it took me forever to try break out

It wont be long till im not special to you
and you can call me ‘Liar’ but ive seen the truth
to be honest i cant ever fucking trust you 
Cos i know that i could never compare to hiim

If i tried explaining this shit you wouldn’t get it
and ive had enough of you callin me pathetic
I dont wanna talk about it no
I dont wanna talk about it no
press me like i owe you something
but im not fucking stupid know i owe you nothing oooh
Play me for my weakness bae thats low
But Im not surprised in the least you know

Yeah
Feeling mindless
Fucked up alone i suffer in the silence
I can feel my brain collapse behind my eyelids
I cant do this anymore, were always fighting
A please wasnt enough to change your mind i guess
that you pray for the day that i take my final breath
And i can take the fall if its my final test
I just dont wanna be alone if this is not the end

plz (skyp)

An intro + EP teaser for anxious in anticipation
the ep aims to be a collection of lofi songs i've made, including "plz (skyp)", and "fomo (autrioly)"

lyrics

anxious in anticipation

it just doesnt make sense
i feel like im alone in this again

everytime i break out
i fall right back in

and i dont think im gonna make it
i feel myself
spiralling
im spiralling

anxious in anticipation (poppy ozu)

19.


Uh
Found happiness and lost it
Fuck sake, least im drippin like a faucet
she said danny you’re so obsessed 
well my obsessions haven’t fucking killed me off yet

14 i was on ket, 
Sippin Jack from water bottles talkin’ nonsense
bleedin, hard drugs, from like every single orifice
Nothing ever goes right, least i still got options 

Firstly, no-one, ever wanna fuck with me
Second, chances  given out constantly
Third, day-operating on an hours sleep
Fourth, drink got me walking round nauseously 

nauseously naseously
Ima need pills just to fall asleep
Excercise caution when you talk to me
unpredictable, a fucking walking fiend
Empathy Never meant much to me 
i cant feel a thing when you’re touching me, fucking me, this isnt that fun for me
Honestly
Im better off alone you see

Im not interested in apologies
unfollow me and fuck off pls
i, never believed in the chemistry
You’re hell to me, what we had was fallacy

obssessed (pandrs)

lyrics~

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe you’re
heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

Oh If you could see me..

If i told you my secret..

Would that stop you from leaving..

Or would you still go
far away from this place in the snow
Stuck in mud i cant move anymore
Say you fucked up
So am i
Oh noo

I just wanna be the best for you 
Dont know if im up to the task
i was a drug addict, it surely wont be that long till i relapse
Can you handle it ?
Cos if you can, lemme know fast
I just want that guarantee that you’ll be there for me when i crash

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe your heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

angel (autrioly)

Hi, i been hella struggling to make anything for a while now. 
Feel like i lost my edge n i cant hit a note for shit anymore, never feel content w what i make n i end up scrapping stuff without really giving it a chance.

Sorry i been gone so long. Love to all you that still listen daily. Thank you for 4k on misunderstood and message to my older self. 
I want to get better and do more but the mental barrier can be so unbreakable sometimes.
Even tho this isnt the best i could do, I hope you enjoy
<3


Lyrics

backed out too soon
never leavin my room
Problems never go away man
Gonna be a while till i face that
words i produce never make sense
2 mins from painting the ceiling 
dont ever tell me you get it 
You can never know what im feeling 
but if you ask 
I Say im fine
But I feel stranded without you by my side
I cant make it
But i dont mind
Will you miss me when i die

been like 4 days
and im just wishing someone save me from this dark place 
i got nobody i swear no one even know my name
i hate this feeling like im motherfucking suffocating
Please just end my pain
x2

I never have any energy
I been lacking on the calories
Feel my body rot yeah im not dead but i can tell you that im bouta be
Nothing left to see here, nothing left inside of me
I know ive not got much time left, could you believe im just 19?

And what i can give you?
that you cannot get from somebody else
Im nothing special
Im better off, dying-by myself
you call me crazy, but did you ever stop to check on yourself
struggling lately, if by now you could not fuckin tell

been like 4 days
and im just wishing someone save me from this dark place 
i got nobody i swear no one even know my name
i hate this feeling like im motherfucking suffocating
Please just end my pain
x2

4 days (nobel beat)

Thank you @caspywaspy for the beautiful feature <3

Dxnny 

No use for my flesh
guess im crawling out
backed up into the corner
Fucking done it now
Dip out of the function and im running till my legs give out
(Till my legs give out)

I was never invested
But the sex is..wow
i dont think that i was ever ready for the hell inbound 
she wishes that we were telling eachother our wedding vows
i dont think im ready for commitment there i said it now

She told me its your loss
Well Baby i think that you’re lost
nothing you say is making its way
Through to me
X2

Casperrr

im hurting and im aching
My pain will only make my back break
I love you, you hate me i should run away for my sake
all of the trauma Im facing
I cant believe its a part of my fate
i spend a lot of time of my life just thinking bout solving problems in any other way

She told me it was my loss 
Cant really tell if shes wrong
I just cant think i feel lost
I’ll hide it with addys and bongs

your loss ft casperrr (boy50)

Sorry for my inactivity recently. been finding it hard to put my thoughts into writing. thank you for 2k on your loss with @caspywaspy, thank you for my first 5k, and most importantly thanks for sticking by me. Ill be back fully asap.

Lyrics

man fuck why does nothin ever last
Wonder what that means for the people that i have
Will they miss me like ill miss them?
if they dont then what does that say about my worth 
Uhh , will 
I be okay?
usually i can sleep off all the pain
I tell myself the same every night 
Tomorrow ill be feelin alright

ill be fine when i wake up
Hate when they treat me like something im not 
trying my best to suppress the depression but im so damn close to just giving me up
Fuck
Sorry mum
I wish that i could be the son that you want
A credit to you but im useless as fuck
I should kill myself i wish i was enough
(I wasnt enough)

not doin enough
promise im trying my best to keep up
with all of my friends and my family my loved 
but this shits so hard with my mind in the mud

ill never be who i wanna be
Just a fat piece of shit with a brick for a mind
How did people ever like me?
What do you see in this excuse of a guy
Why do you all stick by me?
i did nothing to deserve that
shit would be best if i died, see?
Spilling my blood in the cold bath

ill be fine when i wake up
Hate when they treat me like something im not 
trying my best to suppress the depression but im so damn close to just giving me up
Fuck
Sorry mum
I wish that i could be the son that you want
A credit to you but im useless as fuck
I should kill myself i wish i was enough
(I wasnt enough)

enough (autrioly)

Lyrics

wishing on stars every night
cosmic the light from your eyes
it hurts so much when we say goodbye
But i know were better with time

and if i could hold you tonight
I know that id be alright
And Id know that im still alive

Id know that i

And if i
Could hold you tonight
Id be alright
id know im alive

and if i
Could hold you tonight
Id be alright 
know im alive

you’re best alone for the week
Cos i know you’re fed up with me
You say “its fine watchyu mean”
But i think your lying to me

And if i 
Could hold you tonight
id be alright
id know im still alive

Oh if i
Hold you tonight
Id be alright
id know im alive

alive (theoptimist)

Lyrics

What if im nothing more than a chapter in your story 
Will i see you again
Will we leave this place together or will you be with another man
and i can bet he’d treat you better
Better then i ever can
Cos I’m hopeless little fuck up
and i dont think you understand 
theres no hope left for me
Just broken dreams and empty plans
And you could fit all of my self respect
In the palm of your tiny hands
and id end myself in an instant 
If you gave me a painless chance 

Cos i don’t wanna be here 
But I still don’t wanna die
just the thought of losing you my darling is
eating me alive
But i dont wanna force you
if this love is all lies
I sincerely think you’re better off without me in your life

So please believe me 
i hate that i hate myself
i wish there was something that you could do to help 
But im too far gone to help myself 
Help myself 
I think im stuck like this
And i dont have the energy left to change a thing
I can barely get out of my bed 
too many thoughts inside my head


help me 
Somebody save me
Help me
Somebody same me now
Help me
Somebody save me

dxnny

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