so, i guess this is goodbye. w/ skrwd & unz3n (nothempts)

i should've told u~


--------------------------

and so, its a tragic, fuckin mess
i been so lost, i cant seem to depend
on ur  attitude, its all i ever meant
all i ever said

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

~autumn~

i let my roots dry
that shit has taken it's toll
so i sit instead consuming these souls
(oh) it's getting old
why'm i even scared of being alone?

i hear tapping on the glass
shadows engulfing my past
my thoughts growing rash
I watch the waves while they crash
let me assess where i'm at
because this shit's getting bad

oh if i tried a little harder, 
then i'll be what i want one day
but every chance that i get, 
all of the memories fade
it's like my lips are sewn shut
i'm playing endless charades
or i'm just stuck in a dream
i must be stuck in a dream
~
i was always on you, in yo messages
i wrote a song to fill the void, yet i created it
and yet we know, we said our sorrys, bitch i meant that shit
I WANNA PACK UP ALL MY SHIT AND TAKE A TRIP

BUT IMA TAKE A SHIT
think about my past life, and everything i did
i fucked up my system, with alcohol and wished
i never fuckin did that, i wish i only said
I LOVE YOU MORE, TO THE ONES WHO GAVE A SHIT!
i broke so many hearts, man i wish i never did
magnified distress.


*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch.

/end

break a branch w/ autumndropsdead (prod. dercept)

i like this one, my girlfriends kina in it too, enjoy

<3 much love too sorrow bringer as well

lyrics
---------------------
so.
i just wanna let you know
drinking in time for the show
its better to get ur heart broke
no one could know, no one could care

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldnt imgaine, it feels like

i swear my heart is a mess
you came to my life and you made it amends
im focusing energy to my own time
i cant let you go, cause i swear it feels right

im not as pretty as people would say
its all in the edits, i cover my face
im fake and im nauseous i guess
yeah im broken hearted, im ugly, so goo

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldn't imagine, it feels like

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldn't imagine, it feels like

I Swear It Feels Right (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

throwaway of ours that'd prolly have never seen the light if we didn't post it LMFAO

Lyrics:

[emptychest]

never rly know what i want or what i need, i always complain
and if i got a fuckin problem, i wont ever solve it
tell me u need me
tell me u need me
tell me u need me
tell me u need MAE-EY-YEAAA

[hero]

yea tell me u need mE
i need some reassurance
with a straight face say your words aren't alluring
the evidence i need i'm having trouble procuring
despite all the witnesses i
aAaAaA

i can't say it for certain
no matter how many people i ask i'm a servant to you
killing u would be such suicide
card castle come down
wah ooh i 

and time files so damn fast in this place
and they're fucking on my trail and i think that this is it
oh god

tell me u need me more than anything
tell me u need me more than there are trees
tell me u need me
tell me u need me
tell me u need me

[emptychest]

never rly know what i want or what i need, i always complain
and if i got a fuckin problem, i wont ever solve it
tell me u need me
tell me u need me
tell me u need me
never rly know what i want or what i need
i always complain
and if i got a fuckin problem
i wont ever solve it
tell me u need me
tell me u need me
tell me u need me
tell me u need MAE-EY-YEAAAH

tell me u need me w/ emptychest (boyfifty)

[emptychest]
cold green eyes
yeh
yeh
pop out
i said pop out
FTP when this shit goes to rot down
yeh
yeh
hot now 
im on now
aint nothin i aint seen but my god now
fell in love but im right back at home now
scared to call, wont survive if i dont now

cold green eyes
hypnotize her soul
whats outside..?
they let them know

[LOVENude]
ok like top me now
your in my fucking town
i do not want to talk to you baby i need u now 
youve been so lost inside my head i really get it now
i had to sought around i drive away to crash it out

and i take drugs baby
and i just like to numb the pain because im so crazy
and i do not just like to talk to you so crazy
you are just like a stranger 
get in danger
i just need to the pain im movin thru 

pain in my sanity it never goes away 
im lost lost ion like to talk im movin to another day
she been in my head she like a stranger not another day
illucidated ive been so damn crazy need a fucking place to stay

but im so upset
i cannot loose you
and i dont want to walk alone

so baby hold my hand
were almost there
i keep on talking to you your a stanger in advanced
we hop inside the ride and ride away so we can dance
i wanna find a place with u and
die slowy with you

but i dont know what to do
ive been gone i found the truth 
shes fucking with another guy oh man what a suprise

scared2call +LOVENude [p. lxst ghxul]

s/o soundcloud.com/boyfifty and soundcloud.com/user-530621763
enjoy :)

lyrics:

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck

therapy's expensive and exercise is pendin
thoughts are goin wild and anxietys expandin
you need everyone to hear you, but cant seem to open up
yeah your confidence is lackin and you couldnt give a fuck

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

i miss them all
i need someone to catch me before i fall
i need love and composure
something i looked over
i cant even function, i fucked myself over

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself x2

look them in the eyes, bruh
you cant love yourself if you gonna hide and run
from your confidence its killin you inside of us
im tryna help but you fuckin up the life of us

okay maybe im depressed right now
cant leave the room (go out)
i need some rest right now
i don't got time to show out
i cant find a reason for anything
i cant find the motivation that im chasin so desperately.

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck x2

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

callin' out to myself

spotify

callin' out to myself (prod. boyfifty x eeryskies)

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

Prod. Venus

Lyrics 

This song’s a message to my older self
Huh
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts don’t keep you up at night
cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
Hope that you overcome ur anxious mind
or it’ll be your fucking funeral

tides changing, and i been contemplating my thoughts, 
smooth sailing is not smooth if you bail when its hard
I hope you beat the demons that left you so broken and scarred
hope you surround yourself with people that wont
TEAR YOU APART

AND WHILE YOU’RE AT IT WONT YOU LET SOMEBODY INTO YOUR HEART

START TO APPRECIATE THE TIME YOU SPEND WITH HER IN YOURS ARMS

CAUSE RIGHT NOW IM DISSOCIATED I FORGOT HOW TO FEEL

WOUNDS REOPEN THAT I SWEAR HAD 
ALREADY FULLY HEALED

Its like everything that’s happened lately hasn’t been real
life’s been feelin kinda pointless uh 
oh
maybe higher powers set me up
But I dont know if its just me who’s lost oh
I give up i fucking guess they won

This song’s a message to my older self
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts dont keep you up at night
Cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
I hope you overcome ur anxious mind
Or it’ll be your fucking funeral

message to my older self

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

prod. maxchris x ayoley

lyrics:

if you're in pain reach out to me !!
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with u i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
you'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second

oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds
they'll beg you for an open till you cave so grit your teeth and give a scrap you made a month ago and let them
send a single snippet and they rip it just so they can load it up in fl studio and slap a halfass verse around it
god i wish i was kidding
but feels nice to vent all the shit that i live with
there's two types of friends and i know which is which
yea i've got my ways but i'm not spilling shit

-

if you're in pain reach out to me
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with you i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
u'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second
oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds

message to my older self

dxnny

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