I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAYS JUST TO SEE UR FACE IN THE MORNINNNNN

Came up in my likes and i was who tf is this angelic voice OH SHIT ITS DXNNY

fuck im never enough 
i wish that i was 
id break myself to turn this to dust
and i kinda thought 
you hurt when you love 
but who would i be if i still was
and im giving up
cause i couldnt trust
and everyone tells me what youve done
wasnt it fun
isnt it my fault
how can i fail if theres nothing to try for


where to go cant face no place like home 
gotta find my house dont feel like home 
so i run away til i break my bones
gotta find a place might sell my soul 

and i never wanna relapse 
but i cut my arm cause i feel that 
and i help myself without feedback
and i never wanna love but i need that

and i never wanna relapse 
but i cut my arm cause i feel that 
and i help myself without feedback
and i never wanna love but i need that


fuck im never enough 
i wish that i was 
id break myself to turn this to dust
and i kinda thought 
you hurt when you love 
but who would i be if i still was
and im giving up
cause i couldnt trust
and everyone tells me what youve done
wasnt it fun
isnt it my fault
how can i fail if theres nothing to try for

nothing to try 4 (prod. kt3lly)

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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/mrnicety
https://soundcloud.com/imnotenvy

COMMUNITY. Vol 2

temptations

SPOTIFY

autumndropsdead - temptations (ft. mr. nice ty & notenvy) [shiki xo & jolst]

hope yall enjoy
shoutout @seejayxo
prod. @splashgang

goner w/ seejayxo (splashgang)

prod. sorrow bringer
artwork done by my gf :)

you broke me down was it worth it?

you broke me down was it worth it?
i’m breaking beneath the surface
waiting for a higher purpose
but i know that’s worthless
i fear not for the end
i know that i’ll be fine
cause i’m the after life 
i know that you’ll still be mine
i’m letting go of the past cause it was flawed by desgin

failed from the fucking beginning 
they were out to get me
but i ended up winning
so i’ll sit back and wait
while you take your place
fucking your lying games
you’re such a fucking waste time for me
now it’s time for you to see

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

nothing can change my mind
nothing can help you now
watch as the blood drips down
from your eyes
while you cry
no surprise 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

the first single off my new album 'dearly departing', coming out 9/9!

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
album art by @/ashleydhe on instagram

so much time and effort has been put into this project and i truly hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i cant really see it here and now
and the lights behind my back are turning down
every sailor knows his in and outs
but i struggle every now and then with life so hear me out

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

and i stand and wait as cold air breaks the sail before us all
our fatal fate has taken everything that we once loved
so fuck it all
if i go down i’ll be swinging
a rope tied to songs i’ve been singing
the weight is enough for a fixing
so i tighten the knot and im ready for war
war
i still need more (from life, inside my mind)
more

i cant really see it here and now
so i contemplate the ways in which i drown
every time i’m lost im never found
i just suffer all the consequences, end up on the ground

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere 

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

im leading a life not worth living
and seemingly so, unforgiving
its time i let out this anger

dearly departing

anchor [jolst]

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V. anchor [jolst]

@emptychest
@noxious-nights
@northshoremusic
@failure404

(Ally)
talk about action, talk about problem
what do you know if you cannot solve em?
talk to my blank, im going insane, i need some recollection
weathers gloomy like my life, wont talk if its not my mind
walking backwards just to get to you, talking backwards just to get my head straight
my eyes been glowing and im popping over counter shit
i dont know what to say i think i messed the timing up
food kills how i feel in advance, i pop 2 pills in advance
late at night when i do my dance, no one can see me so i do my best
reinventing my shit popping off on a bitch mmm
i been watering my shit just fine so dont even ask me
in the backseat im fucked up and im nasty
empty
girl if my uber driver said im doin fine i told em say that

(nox)
i aint got shit to prove
i know who the fuck i am
regret some things that i do
but i did it for this cash

spending money like a fool
but i always get it back
grind like i aint got no roof
im still sad but i hide that

i hate how my eyes get wet but i don't cry
she looks at me but she can't be by my side
i've always been feeling like i'm meant to be alone
so i just write down the pain on my phone
i stare at the ground cuz im on my own
i don't hear u i got my earphones
i hate how life gets monochrome

i prefer staying silent
razor blade on my tongue
you tell shit i don't buy in
my trust is black like my lungs

my thougts get violent
i could kill myself when i'm young
i see clouds in the horizon
i only seem to smile when i'm drunk

(Kev)
I think a lot about what’s in my brain
Feelings cloud my judgement almost every single day

People say I’m completing driving myself insane

Pull me out the water n put a bullet in my brain
Think about how we could’ve gone our separate ways

Fix yourself, I got nothing in my brain
All the answers to my problems are just locked up in my brain

I know
I know

(epitomeoffailure)
i know that you want me back
but know that i don’t need that
still you’ll come crawling back
knowing me i’ll cave under the pressure and crack

letting go is one of the hardest things that i’ve come to learn to do
when fate and morality come to a crossroads and you don’t know what to choose

Backseat w/ emptychest, noxiousnights, The North Shore (ft. epitomeoffailure) [+ Caprichioni]

prod. maxchris x ayoley

lyrics:

if you're in pain reach out to me !!
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with u i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
you'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second

oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds
they'll beg you for an open till you cave so grit your teeth and give a scrap you made a month ago and let them
send a single snippet and they rip it just so they can load it up in fl studio and slap a halfass verse around it
god i wish i was kidding
but feels nice to vent all the shit that i live with
there's two types of friends and i know which is which
yea i've got my ways but i'm not spilling shit

-

if you're in pain reach out to me
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with you i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
u'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second
oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds

hurdles

lyrics~

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe you’re
heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

Oh If you could see me..

If i told you my secret..

Would that stop you from leaving..

Or would you still go
far away from this place in the snow
Stuck in mud i cant move anymore
Say you fucked up
So am i
Oh noo

I just wanna be the best for you 
Dont know if im up to the task
i was a drug addict, it surely wont be that long till i relapse
Can you handle it ?
Cos if you can, lemme know fast
I just want that guarantee that you’ll be there for me when i crash

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe your heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

angel (autrioly)

double xl bape tee
it feel better when it drape me
i know i’m never on time
sorry if i kept u waiting
double c on my cologne 
it’s always blue just like my mood
she not used to hearing no
and so she loves it when im rude

she the reason why i put myself thru hell
i’m the reason why she mad u can’t buy her chanel
way too faded so she taking off my belt
i know “i love u” is just a lie u tell
um i been flying to close to the sun
um sorry baby i know i can’t be the one
um she start catching feelings and i gotta run
i don’t like it when they like me back the chase is fun

She keeps on
Coming back to me
Ignore th signs and jus say yes to all this tragedy
It says a lot ab u if im honest
U see its chronic
But somehow wants to stick around coz of these melodys

She saw 16 bottles
Still I couldnt open up
Goin full throttle
In th backroom & im thrown up
Toxic waste it surrounds us 
How it was growin up
Safest place, it grounds us
But we’re stuck inside th substance 
Its so fucked

she the reason why i put myself thru hell
i’m the reason why she mad u can’t buy her chanel
way too faded so she taking off my belt
i know “i love u” is just a lie u tell
um i been flying to close to the sun
um sorry baby i know i can’t be the one
um she start catching feelings and i gotta run
i don’t like it when they like me back the chase is fun

too close2 th sun w/ maesk (secre x splashgvng)

Thank you @caspywaspy for the beautiful feature <3

Dxnny 

No use for my flesh
guess im crawling out
backed up into the corner
Fucking done it now
Dip out of the function and im running till my legs give out
(Till my legs give out)

I was never invested
But the sex is..wow
i dont think that i was ever ready for the hell inbound 
she wishes that we were telling eachother our wedding vows
i dont think im ready for commitment there i said it now

She told me its your loss
Well Baby i think that you’re lost
nothing you say is making its way
Through to me
X2

Casperrr

im hurting and im aching
My pain will only make my back break
I love you, you hate me i should run away for my sake
all of the trauma Im facing
I cant believe its a part of my fate
i spend a lot of time of my life just thinking bout solving problems in any other way

She told me it was my loss 
Cant really tell if shes wrong
I just cant think i feel lost
I’ll hide it with addys and bongs

angel (autrioly)

dxnny

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