svnam - recluse (xmichaelwarren)

double xp w/ speedlmt

sorry for the inactivity, working on some better music!

without you my day sucks (guda)

about last nite...

lyrics

wait for me 
when th darkness comes
my heart still beats 
so u havent yet won

bae im looking out 
do u not hear me when i call
r things really that different 
i havent changed, not since last fall 

lock me in a cage, throw th key
sure you’d like that
coz every time i bring it up u all ways talk back
to me
baby 
this dont hav to be th last time 
can we take it back to last night
they dont fucking know about the words we’ve shared
so baby why the fuck u looking over there

uuuuhhhh fade in to the night
take another third at least ill tell u that i tried
but then the worst thing comes to mind
i knew that this would happen but i still let it fucking slide

no way its th worst thing that could do
no way, i held my peace and im not coming back to u
i gave it time so dont think id forget u 
i live my life like a ghost so should be thankful
that i got a use

last nite (flesh)

Brainwashed (domesticsoul)

do this, do that w/ sideview drive (thislandis)

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
mixed/mastered by me
quote from spice and wolf <3

Lyrics:

oh, i been feelin lately, the hole you left in my cardiac
i guess you could say it, but i really want the privilege
every conversation we're having always feels frivolous
oh yea you think her tongues sharp, just wait until the knife comes
i really hope he loves you, in the same way that i did
cause i gave half my life in pursuit of what you said
blood been pumpin faster, she a heart attacker
these chains around my ventricles shackle me to the chapel

don't wanna break it down but i got words for you baby
this sonnet i'm singing, oh it don't do it justice
oh, im so full of rage uhh, all i feel is hate now
every syllable from your mouth feels fuckin disgustin
i can't shed now, my tears have burned away
oh my passionate admiration for ya, has only turned to disdain

[bridge]

my heart's been disfigured by the shadow of a sinner
every time you text me oh my sanity runnin thinner
we were meant to be but baby we can never be
cause i see right through you and every lie ya said to me
you thought of yourself as knowledgeable and worldly
but honestly you're as immature as it gets
and with every nerve ending in my body
i wanna be loved in the same way i love another

clearly you dont see me
heart's green with bleeding envy
i see right through you chest untempered glass
even the holy blessed temple won't offer sanctuary to your ass
everything you wrought, was of your own accord
and honestly i think you left cause you were bored
and that might just be fine if i could get you out my mind
striving for that point where i don't love you anymore

cardiac_arrest (secre x heyrick)

lyrics 

lovedi3d:
Sitting here and I wait lose myself I’m not okay thought I had it all figured out but now I realize I’m such a clown I hate myself I hate my face so many flaws Ima damn disgrace want to see it all go away every little ounce of this pain. 

cutdeep:
I’m sorry that I cannot take your pain away it’s so hard to look you in your face okay and laid on the floor in pouring rain ask if me if I’m fine I’m not okay not okay and begone I won’t give up on you I can’t forget what I did to you 


lovedi3d:
Thought I had it all figured out but now I realize I’m such a clown I hate myself I hate my face so many flaws Ima damn disgrace.

disgrace ft. cutdeep (prod. aureola)

no one gets inside
produced by @prodlilnightshift




fugitive mindset always on the run 
from everything ive ever done
it isnt fun
living in all your regret
and letting the guilt make you wish you were dead
aint talked to no one in almost a month
shoulda seen this from the jump
down on my luck
sorry just goin through stuff
nothing i do will ever be enough



I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time
Operation overdrive
Get in gear
Speed of light 
Live in the lost galaxy
astro mega suicide 
I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time


Yeah thats great but it could be better 
The effort will never seem to matter 
Move in the shadows
Live like a phantom 
Gets me through the bullshit faster
Every breath ive ever taken has debt behind it 
I can’t deny it   
What stays inside will eat me alive 
Its what I deserve baby 
its justified 

stop bein all up in my ear dawg
what the fuck you want?
talk shit on the squad like im not there
bitch are you dumb? 
i feel like a spy kid the way i fucked up a sore ass thumb
off the judi juice and im seeing red bitch im not the one 

I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time
Operation overdrive
Get in gear
Speed of light 
Live in the lost galaxy
astro mega suicide 
I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time

ih8myself (prod. lil nightshift)

prod R3DQX

paperthinwalls:

somebody give me a sign
sick of wasting my time
feel like i’m rotting my mind
you take it all away from me

from me to you
deceive that’s what you do
believe, that i knew
those teeth you lie through

you can have this heart cause it’s broken
i wanna leave words unspoken
but the clock keeps on ticking 
already 12:25 in the evening 
and i know that you just wanna leave me
leave me, leave me alone 

epitome:

leave me alone 
i’m not gonna pick up the phone
there’s no one even home
my minds been gone since so long ago

i’ve lost control
i’m trapped inside a hole
that i dug for myself now i already know
that my fate is sealed in the void
and that’s something i can’t avoid
there’s no use to reaching out
for anyone’s help
just know that this was never my choice

brain dead at 12 in the morning
i’ll fake death just so everyone forgets me
(but i’m) still here growing mold like the flooring
my forgetten story

and there’s no sense to re-write this
my ignorance was the catalyst 
the reason, i was lost in the abyss
hoping i would never be missed
blood runs from my face to my chin
dripping down, the sirens’ sound
this is the end..

i’ll still let go so, darker and colder
i will not know, what crying on a shoulder 
feels like…

i have no mouth, but i must scream w/ paperthinwalls (R3DQX)

Mixed/Mastered by me
Prod. Red Eyez

Lyrics: 
oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

uhh feelin the covenant pressure
7am filled wit longing 
inescapable terror
let her fight back, what a frightening
sight it must be to see
oh i'll yearn for the chest feeling we used to hold so deeply
learn to breathe on my own
take this coat from my arm
trade the cuts for complex sedatives
we both suck for sentiment
call for several syllables, i only need three
baby tell me that you need me

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

oh cut deep, we'll make new scars 
baby what's that tone for 
but every sentence that spills out your mouth makes me feel the resentment a little bit more
cut from the cloth but your more like a feather
every second we're spending apart puts us closer and closer to never
uh and honestly, maybe, been feeling it lately, i wish that i never had met her
you still got my sweater don't you?
lately you been cold like weather, so cruel
let me stay inside, i hope we get some snow soon 

oh god, could i survive this on my own for another year?
let me break the silence that you call upon, it's only fear
hold me here in this december wasteland
rip apart the fragments of my memory
salted wounds, you'll never know what you mean to me
overbearing i hope you never thought that of me
sick to death in a second, i hope you realize
overnights at your house, it never felt so nice

Brainwashed (domesticsoul)

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