LYRICS:

i been sitting here feeling so tired
i just wanna pass away and expire
i been laying in my room for days feeling so alone
so damn alone

there’s so many days where i just ignore my phone
of all my friends and family saying “don’t go”
but how would i even know if they’re being genuine and they actually want me here
and would they actually know if i disappeared 
and even if they knew it’s not like they’d care
they’d probably only morn for a few fucking years and move on and never visit my grave again

y is it so much to ask just to leave peacefully
and y is it that half of the time it’s hard to breathe
and i’m so done and i’m so done and i’m so done
and i just wanna run away from the problems
u better hope i don’t find a gun

disappear [prod. saint mike + yago + miguel III]

lyrics:

holding you slow in the candlelight
story got potholes it don’t seem right
it’s always katie & hannah
i’m in the back of her van ya
it’s always katie & hannah
she leaving my mind in cabana
damn i’m saying the wrong thing
i don’t wanna not bring
you were telling me one thing
you slosh it up get slow
i’m riding ‘round with her
i know, want it bad
phone, it bad
i’m on my own it’s sad
the fucking onus is up to you
i did not want to do
whatever was with you
damn i’m saying the wrong thing
and i’m helping you not think
can we get fucked up
can we get fucked up
holding you slow in the candlelight
story got potholes it don’t seem right
it’s always katie & hannah
i’m in the back of her van ya
it’s always katie & hannah
she leaving my mind in cabana
i’m on the road again
she wanna come again
asking me for a friend
i cant afford the baggage
you speaking my goddamn language
remember that fire we had to extinguish

katie&hannah (it's always) [prod.northeastlights/p3tro]

lyrics
---------

plastic eyeballs

WHATS GOING ON 
BECAUSE IM JUST FEELIN HURT
IM IMMERSED WIT THE WORST
IT GOT MY HEAD IN THE DIRT
N I BEEN TRYNNNA MOVE ON
BUT I BEEN IN MENTAL HELL
RINGING BELLS CASTIN SPELLS
I WANNA BE SOMEONE ELSE

ALL I DID WAS HATE THE WORLD
AS BIOME, N IVE NOTICED
MAYBE IM JEALOUS, BUT I BEEN LOSING MY FOCUS
YOU WERE FAKE
WHEN I WAS SO HOPELESS
ACT EMPATHETIC, BUT NIGGA YOU JUS A LOCUST

AINT BEEN MYSELF
IN MENTAL HELL
IF YOU COULDNT TELL
CUZ I BEEN BATTLING DEVILS
WHILE TRYNNA BALANCE MY HEALTH
CANT EMBRACE IT
CUZ EVERY NIGGA LOST ALL MY PATIENCE
BEEN IMMERSED WITH THE WORST
BUT IM THE BEST COMBINATION

I BEEN DOWN INSIDE THE GROUND
MAKING THESE SOUNDS
BUT I JUST HATE THE PERFORMANCE
BECAUSE IM OVER MYSELF

BEEN ABRASIVE 
FROM EVERYTHING IM STUCK IN THE MATRIX
FROM ALL THE SHALLOWS N GALLOWS
WHERE I WAS FEELIN SO BASIC

YOU DONT GET IT, THESE NIGGAS BEEN AFTER ME
FACTOR SEEMS, NIGGAS WANT MY ENERGY
PARANOID BOY WITH A KNACK FOR DOUBT
SAME DAYS WHERE A NIGGAS BEEN ACTIN OUT
WARBORN CUZ THESE NIGGAS BEEN RIDING DICK
BABYSITTING MY BALLS FOR A SNACK TO LICK
SAME BITCH WANNA SAY SHE AN ACTIVIST
SAME NIGGAS WHO CLAIM THEY A PACIFIST

BECAUSE I AM MY WORST ENEMY
OVERTHINKIN MY TONES
LEAVE ME ALONE 
WITH THE BULLSHIT
BEFORE I BLOW OFF MY SKULL
I CANT FOCUS
JUS MAKING THINGS THAT HELPIN ME COPE
WHILE I BEEN DROWNIN FROM NIGGAS
WHO MAKE ME FEEL SO ALONE


music video 

https://youtu.be/Js6gPQoI-YQ

mental hell |prod. erlax (music video in description)

feeling a world away
in cematary light where i could lay
feel a lil alive maybe one more day
maybe feel the sun for a couple days
but i feel

nothing at all in fact
the feeling alone gives me heart attacks
and tell me whats the point of taking all my time
i wonder if you feel alive
feel alright
coming down

--

bury me
underground.
and i
 
(whats the point of fucking, bury me.)

Bury Me

I think I'm Losing her

It's 2 am I'm steady trippin on computer words 

Give u the gun I said can u be executioner 

If theres a god then someone's gotta be the lufcifer


Yuh yuh yuh get the pack then I go and zip it up

I remember times where I ain't have shit now the paper stacking up 

I walk alone up in the night I said like no one dap me up

Can't pass me up  can't feel my face I put my pain inside a cup


U was my special person inspiration for my verses

But ever since u fucking left I've never felt so worthless

U was my audience to me I had to close the curtains

I put my soul up out for auction im looking for a purchase 

I know my momma disappointed tryna find my purpose

But if I don't then I might die I watch my body flourish

And I've been tryna fill that void I'm always fucking searching 

But at the end I'll just be under all the hands of surgeons


Batter up no idk know said I dont know no nobody 

I feel alone when I'm with people what's wrong with my body

Self destruction was a curse I turned it to a hobby

But now I cannot function without a blunt can someone show me something else show me something else 

I cannot breathe it's seems I'm just tryna please everybody

Pick up the phone the only answer imma get is when the devil call

All I wanted was for me to go and hold somebod

If I jumped off of the bridge like would you even care  would you even know at all



LOSIN’ HER (PROD. SIXTHSIN)

changer

INSTRUMENTAL:
FORGOTTEN - THE PLOT IN YOU (VASTIVE BOOTLEG)

VOCALS:
Commander Erwin - Attack on Titan

"MY SOLDIERS RAAAAGE" x FORGOTTEN (THE PLOT IN YOU vs Attack on Titan) [SwoleRuto Edit]

NYPD (PROD. TRIPLESIXDELETE)

DIGITAL PURGATORY

MELANCHOLIC

MELANCHOLIC (PROD. WICK)

prod. @flexedfanboy

it feels good
that's all

every movement feels like a malfunction
i keep all my chemicals inside my jar
i keep all my chemicals inside my lungs
let em out of my brain into my blistered heart

tired of playin these games, let me know where your sisters are
i want a bad itty bitty bop to rip my skin apart
i'm gettin low, my vision slow, a witch controlling me
adrenochrome, i'm drinkin o's
i'm smokin dopamine
would you rather cry or would you rather orgasm?
pack it down deep, feel as all my senses spasm
i feel like i'm changing as a person every second
i'm so overwhelmed and i can't avoid a tantrum

we have a problem
long as we continue to play
we can differentiate
question if you're high all the time
i know that i poison my mind
you can make the choice to unwind
we forget it all has a price

every movement feels like a malfunction
i keep all my chemicals inside my jar
i keep all my chemicals inside my lungs
most the world don't even know who the fuck you are
every movement feels like a malfunction
i keep all my chemicals inside my jar
i keep all my chemicals inside my lungs
let em out of my brain into my blistered heart

y'all don't mean that much if you cannot bring the pleasure
don't take it personal, it hurts the soul
we fuck ourselves until we're purple
you need to make me happy, that's my standard

ORGASM

CELOSIA w/ fl.vco ( prod. redmosk )

(enigma) 222

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rift walkin music video

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mental hell music video 

https://youtu.be/Js6gPQoI-YQ

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mental hell |prod. erlax (music video in description)

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