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SYRUPITOUT

me and the moon

found this on my hard drive and idk why i didn't decide to post it earlier

[11/03/2023] Raga: a personal introduction by Ravi Shankar

lyrics:
derealizacja
nowa warstwa starego kłamstwa
za wysoko spadam tak jak gwiazda
z żołnierzami poza granicami miasta
smuga światła ostatnia szansa
wiem, że to trudne, żeby mi ją dać
nie liczę na to, duplikuję stack
ale mimo wszystko daj mi czas
jestem tak blisko, nie chcę spaść
dalej widzę ją i nie mogę spać
dalej widzę błąd sprzed paru lat
dalej słyszę głos, on mówi tak
i love u but i wanna die
nigdy już nie będę taki sam
wciąż szukam miłości, a nie wiem, czy nawet do siebie ją mam
nie chcę cię złościć, przepraszam, jeżeli coś powiem nie tak
chcę tylko pomóc
ale nie zrobię tego sam

ciągle widzę cię we snach
choć już nie mogę spać
czy tak zostanie już na zawsze
nie potrzebuje twoich rad
przechodze przez las
myśląc co czuje naprawde
oh
nie pytam, taki mój los
gdzie naprawde jest mój dom
tylu blizn nie widział nikt inny
nie potrafię ufać tak jak ty
los rozłożył tak karty
łzy na szybie spływają wciąż
wiem że mnie nadal nie widzisz
lecz ja już nie staram się
marzenie by być kimś innym
lecz to nie może odbyć się
zrobię o tym setki piosenek
a ty nigdy nie usłyszysz mnie

derealizacja
nowa warstwa starego kłamstwa
za wysoko spadam tak jak gwiazda
z żołnierzami poza granicami miasta
smuga światła ostatnia szansa
wiem, że to trudne, żeby mi ją dać
nie liczę na to, duplikuję stack
ale mimo wszystko daj mi czas
jestem tak blisko, nie chcę spaść
dalej widzę ją i nie mogę spać
dalej widzę błąd sprzed paru lat
dalej słyszę głos, on mówi tak
i love u but i wanna die
nigdy już nie będę taki sam
wciąż szukam miłości, a nie wiem, czy nawet dla siebie ją mam
nie chcę cię złościć, przepraszam, jeżeli coś powiem nie tak
chcę tylko pomóc
ale nie zrobię tego sam

ostatnia szansa w/ Nosgov (rainn god)

i cant go out tonight

Derealization
A new layer of lies
I'm falling too high like a star
With soldiers outside the city limits
Smuggling the light of the last chance
I know it's hard to give her to me
I'm not counting on it, I duplicate the stack
But still, give me time
I'm so close, I don't want to fall
I still see her and I can't sleep
I still see the mistake of a few years ago
Then the voice says yes
I love you, but I want to die
I'll never be the same again
I'm still looking for love, and I don't know if I even have it for myself
I don't want to anger you, to say something's wrong
I just want to help
But I won't do it alone

I keep seeing you being kidnapped
Even though I can't sleep anymore
Whether it's like this or forever
Don't carry a woman's advice
I'm walking through the forest
There is what I truly feel
Oh
I don't ask, this is my fate
Where is my true home?
So many scars, I haven't seen anyone else
You can't trust me like you do
Fate has dealt the cards this way
Tears on Secondary flows.
I know I'm still not ready.
But I'm not trying anymore.
The dream of being different someday.
But it can't leak out.
Make it about hundreds of songs.
And you'll never hear me.

Derealization.
A new layer of lies.
I'm falling too high, like a star.
With soldiers outside the city limits.
Smuggling the light of the last chance.
I know it's hard to give it to me.
I'm not counting on it, I'm duplicating the stack.
But still, give me time.
I'm so close, I don't want to fall.
I still see her and I can't sleep.
I still see the mistake of a few years ago.
The voice continues, it says yes.
I love you, but I want to die.
I'll never be the same again.
I'm still looking for love, but I don't know if I even have it for myself.
I don't want to anger you, to say something's wrong.
I just want to help.
But I can't do it alone.

domasnosebleed x nosgov - ostatnia szansa [Slowed & Reverb]

out on all plats 
https://open.spotify.com/track/69nRRctsVhBHI611bMIFsw?si=2c54bbc63d0c4a33

first beat prod advxrse
second beat prod me

lyrics:
guess i wish i u well
dont kno what u want
i cant even tell,
i got gas in my lungs, 
donut pack and it smell,
they said that i should run
guess i shoulda listened
i dont need no friends nah
they all want a picture get a headshot
heard he talkin on me he wont fess up
yea my life a movie like its red box

they tell me let go
yea these pills got me slow
with my squad we countin dough
so dont act like u dont know
guess im losing hope
cuz its getting hard to cope
feels like ive been on a tight rope 
guess ill keep my eyes closed

guess i wish i u well
dont kno what u want
i cant even tell,
i got gas in my lungs, 
donut pack and it smell,
they said that i should run
guess i shoulda listened
i dont need no friends nah
they all want a picture get a headshot
heard he talkin on me he wont fess up
yea my life a movie like its red box

they tell me let go
yea these pills got me slow
with my squad we countin dough
so dont act like u dont know
guess im losing hope
cuz its getting hard to cope
feels like ive been on a tight rope 
guess ill keep my eyes closed

i got highs n lows
i count x and os
i dont wanna go
friends they turn to foes
friends they turn to hoes (ya)
focus on the dough
they wont let me glow

i feel like shit
dont wanna feel like this
they say oh u on it?
i just flooded my wrist
yea i still reminisce
u not rlly on shit
u should go sprint
u should get fit

live another night
i say im fine
my flag is white 
dont wanna die
you cant say i tried
dont wanna lie
try to ruin my life
need u out of my sight
x2

wish u well

everything

I'm missing your touch and you're miles away
I want you to clutch me and tell me to stay
I'm sorry I fucked up I made a mistake

This shit disgusts me this shit a disgrace
I can't stop blushing you make me this way
The further apart the heavier the weight
Baby rip out my heart maybe this what it takes
Going back to the start maybe that's okay

What did I do, like what?
You pop pills just to hurt me, you know its fuckin' me up
Do whatever you will, but it's leaving me stuck
And I always get chills when you give me that look
'Cause its hurting me still, yeah that's more than enough
Plant pink daffodils right where I'm hung
Die a red death in the setting sun

I'm missing your touch and you're miles away
I want you to clutch me and tell me to stay
I'm sorry I fucked up I made a mistake
You're doing these drugs but this shit won't change
This shit disgusts me this shit a disgrace
I can't stop blushing you make me this way
The further apart the heavier the weight
Baby rip out my heart maybe this what it takes

What did I do, like what?
You pop pills just to hurt me, you know its fuckin' me up
Do whatever you will, but it's leaving me stuck
And I always get chills when you give me that look
'Cause its hurting me still, yeah that's more than enough
Plant pink daffodils right where I'm hung
Die a red death in the setting sun

red death

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[11/03/2023] Raga: a personal introduction by Ravi Shankar

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