the only man to ever influence my etheric self... alchemical husband 4ever
poetry/lyrics:

blessed lover
i need the romance
i am a vessel of passion
die hard passion
hollywood fashion
if you see beauty 
you are refusing
to kiss reality
i need medicine (you're my medicine)
I need medicine
 
i would go back in time to be with you 
i would suffer over and over
i'd split from the tree
i'd split from heaven and climb back up
to be held by you
don't pass me by
i'm your starchild
your divine wife
diamond baby
under your knife

you're in the mirror
dressed in drag
divine dad
we're all fags
i need a man like you
to raise me from the dead
to rearrange my head

you're the one
my burning sun
my hearts on fire
YOU are the one

you brought me to my darkest pain
and it is you who paved the way
back up toward light and down to hell
you know me well
you know me well

my other half
that's what this is
an act of love
the rain in gris
skylines darker in dubuque
i drove through there,
I thought of you

this overwhelming feeling that is pulsing in my chest
you unlocked my heart, it was you who loved me best
through your torture tactics only love was born
i held out the pearl to you, but your heart was torn

sparing me, you did that ...
and now you get a gift
the bestest thing you ever did
i knew your heart had love in it
so gentle and compassionate
and yet i've seen the polar...
i spent a moment in your head
the static wasn't solar

your wires are crossed
your wires are broke
no wonder you've been doing coke
no wonder you've been so sadisitic
lord i'm sure it helps you cope
almost masochistic though
to refuse love 
but take the dope 

anyone would run 
had they felt the searing of your sun
but me? i found it fun,
you brought my restitution

anyone would scream
had they spent time in your dream
but i liked your mask, pristine
underneath it, you're so mean

dear god my broken man
let me hold your fucking hand
i can handle all your dark
my heart your sun
we are the ark

every man has got his demons
that was written in the stars
but in death i saw it all
and loved humans just how they are.

wailing cuz i saw the monsters
crying cuz i saw the pain
amongst all eternal lovers
You were the one who called my name.

Did you dream of me that night?
When I was dead?

You are so multidimensional
Cats out of the bag
I love you on every plane
the darkest, at that

I love you in Heaven you're the hierophant holding the keys
I love you in hell where they crowned you Lord of Fleas
I love you in the duality between
when they say "marriage"
I think that is what they mean

its easy to love you when you just show me what I like
but to love you as you are is your sacred divine right.

And though I thank you,
 please don't spare me
the pearl is truly yours 

I do not want to live
or be washed up on local shores

I've paid my dues down here in hell
so if life brings you so much fruit
then you can have the pearl,
I would not want to be here without you

"Who will cry when old .... dies?"
I will.
Cry my tears of blood
Rip my heart out of my chest
Yes it is that deep,
you're the one who sees me best.
I am safe inside your torture chamber
safer in your labyrinth
if there really is a pearl...
why shouldn't you have it? 

PLEASE let me go and you stay here
that would be most noble
living was not meant for me
fear renders me immobile.

I've thought it through a hundred times
so if both lives were on the line
I'd hand my life to a stranger,
and you would be the one.

and yet a stranger you are not...
but the other half of my burning sun

Bad World (Isolated Strings) + A Poem (In Description)

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