a song about my roots and the childhood i lost

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veered into a ditch
theres no coming back from that
hard to find my way
visions in and out of black
is there nothing to look forward to at home?
is there really nothing, nowhere i could go?

im just so imperfect
how was i made from scraps of you?
and my childhoods fading
im just grasping at scraps of youth
i swear im really trying to see the light in this
i wake up not to silence, but to a deafening hiss
the choir is getting louder, they tell me i should quit
they tell me that if im not dead, then im not doing shit
(how was i made)
im just so imperfect
how was i made from scraps of you?
and my childhoods fading
im just grasping at scraps
your words are falling flat, youre fading in the mix
its so hard to forget about this feeling that ive sinned
i think about the time that, he brushed against my skin
and even when he tried to push, the issue didnt fit
(how was i made)

save your breath for another day
save excuses, please
you gave me all that youve got
but now its starting to rot
i cant take it

its not enough, not enough, not enough,
its not enough, not enough, not enough

how was i made from scraps of you?
how was i made from scraps of you?
i didnt get to be,
the girl i wanted to be
how was i made from scraps of you?
how was i made from scraps of you?
its not my fault

scraps of you

i watched a man die last night
shoveled pills but they couldn’t even keep him alive
and when i saw my reflection in those empty eyes
i bit my tongue

and he said
“boy, it seems i’ve finally reached my time
the gross unknown, the twisted blurry lines”
and i couldn’t help but stand there
stoned and petrified
i wish i’d said goodbye

if i see your face again i think i'll fall apart
conflated, left in idle stress, you found your way in to my art
floating down the lake bed, tears piled in my arms
cos it all leads down to something less, we feel so small amongst the stars

if i die here wondering, "was i ever enough?"
deflated, lost the confidence to bottle it up
falling through the mattress, fear boils and erupts
no lifeline can save me drowning, i'm giving up

so i looked to myself
and asked “who the hell am i?
was the death of who i was a noble sacrifice?”
shoveled pills and then drank the liquid suicide
i’ll let fate carry me tonight

and he said
“boy, it seems i’ve finally reached my time
the gross unknown, the twisted blurry lines”
and i couldn’t help but stand there
stoned and petrified
i wish i’d said goodbye

PERMADEATH

healing (feat. saoirse dream)

The public becomes disillusioned by the recent behavior of a once beloved celebrity.

fragile creatures

Lorem ipsum - Fame itself ✼

Sglily Scream Cover

Met with nothing but hate from the world she knows, she seeks out a new comfort. 
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The first single to expathmia's upcoming concept album!

The Occurrence

samples used:
demi lovato - heart attack
ericdoa - dancinwithsomebawdy
calvin harris - i need your love (feat. ellie goulding)
daniel caesar - get you (feat. kali uchis)

[LYRICS]
You make me glow
But I cover up, won't let it show
You make me glow
But I cover up, won't let it show

So I'm putting my defenses up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that,
I think I'd have a heart atta-

think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-

think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart attack

Dancin' with somebody, please never remind me
That one point in my life I ever wanted you by me
She pretty, but she conniving, giant waste of my timin'
Always leaving me crying, some reason I like it
Dancin' with somebody, please never remind me
That one point in my life I ever wanted you by me
She pretty, but she conniving, giant waste of my timin'
Always leaving me crying, some reason I like it

Ooh, who would've thought I'd get you?
You make me glow
Ooh, who would've thought I'd get you?
You make me glow

think I'd have a
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-

think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart atta-
think I'd have a heart attack

think I'd have a heart attack
think I'd have a

leumas - deadwithoutlove

uhh jish loop

[LYRICS]

[ intro ]

in my psyche ur overzealous and its more than likely, love u wanna fight me

she wanna try me, going in my head she's trifling

u dont wanna go, don't wanna conversate

all these feelings in my head u cant accommodate

oh no, she wanna pick my brain apart it goes like numb

thought ud love me like nobody else

what happened to trust u made me overwhelmed
i'm going insane in my head, some things i wish you never said

so i fall in the dark

i wont fall too far

fall apart

[ chorus ]

wanna be my counterpart u aint allat
stop hitting my line don't call back
try running my line, gonna crawl back
not a single time that i thought that i would fall back

cuz i dont love u no more
i'm focused on the bands now, run it up run it up

do u wanna say more i don't wanna say so i don't wanna say nun u gon bring the payload

wanna be my counterpart u aint allat
stop hitting my line don't call back
try running my line, gonna crawlback
not a single time that i thought that i would fall back

yeah i dont wanna fall in love again, got money in my mind got a couple checks
check boy u dont wanna go, think i lost my love for u so u dont wanna know

[ bridge ]

said im falling apart
ooo
she fell from the stars
now im running for more
she tried to knock on the door
no im gone
no im gone

[ chorus ]

wanna be my counterpart u aint allat
stop hittin my line dont call back
try running my line, gonna crawlback
not a single time that i thought that i would fall back

cuz i dont love u no more
im focused on the bands now, run it up run it up

do u wanna say more i dont wanna say so i dont wanna say nun u gon bring the payload

wanna be my counterpart u aint allat
stop hittin my line dont call back
try running my line, gonna crawlback
not a single time that i thought that i would fall back

yeah i dont wanna fall in love again, got money in my mind got a couple checks
check boy u dont wanna go, think i lost my love for u so u dont wanna know

qlein & lightt - fall in the dark

lyrics written and recorded by josetta, dylan longworth, & silkscarf (aka phoebe andromeda)
guitars and extra instrumentation provided by silkscarf & josetta
produced and mixed by jish!
mastered by silkscarf

[LYRICS]

[josetta]

starting to think you’re not serious
i put in all this goddamn effort, just to get paid back with dust
this shits been making me furious
i guess you can tell it’s been getting quite hard to adjust

we haven’t spoken in a month
thought that i’d get a response by now
you’ve been testing my patience, losing all of my trust
i’m still wondering why and how

you never called me back
call me back
please call me back sometime
you never called me back
there’s so much to unpack
please don’t lose track of our time

[dylan longworth]

starting to think that i’m delirious
for two weeks, i felt weak, you did it again
why are you acting so mysterious?
i’d speak, but hell we aren’t better as friends
labels bring security, you exhibit no maturity
lying sorrow full of scurities
there’s no future that’s got you and me

bomb me with your love, plead to call me up
said i wouldn’t, but i swear you called my bluff
watched you give me up, how am i not enough?
not a ghost but i watched you turn to dust
eternal cycle, wont make it out
i’ll sleep for hours, my heads too loud
i miss notification sounds
just call me back i’m breaking down

[silkscarf]

i can’t escape you
i can’t move on
choked on our dream
swore i could feel you
inside the walls
do you still feel me?

[josetta]

you never called me back
call me back
please call me back sometime
you never called me back
there’s so much to unpack
please don’t lose track of our time

don’t know why you can’t let me go
i was lovebombed, you took control
disappeared then you went ghost
“if you need a thing just let me know”
never thought i’d fall down this low
finally reaping what i sow
i don’t know what i’m supposed to do
now that i gave my life away to you

josetta, dylan longworth, silkscarf, & jish! - call me back (demo)

🌫▫️Slowed Version by 420daysfreetrial▫️🌫

🌌▫️Original Track by Артем Пора Домой, MVGMA, Маша и Медведи▫️🌌



[Куплет 1]

Спи, я завтра зайду за тобою после семи
Я зимнее солнце, и я появляюсь всё реже и реже
Мне так больно смотреть, как красиво лежишь ты на теле реки
Ты боишься меня, ведь мои поцелуи как нож тебя режут

[Припев]

Хе-ей, Земля
Залей меня
Снегом талым
Такая любовь убьёт мир

[Куплет 2]

Спи, я завтра зайду за тобою с первым лучом
Я хочу быть слабее, хочу быть с тобою всё чаще и ближе
Я тебя обожгу, но я всё же прижмусь своим жарким плечом
К белым снежным губам, и уже никогда, никогда не увижу

[Припев]

Хе-ей, Земля
Залей меня
Снегом талым
Такая любовь убьёт мир
Хе-ей, Земля
Хе-ей, Земля
Хе-ей, Земля
Залей меня
Снегом талым

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【GERMAN】


Strophe 1

Schlaf. Morgen hole ich dich nach sieben ab.
Ich bin die Wintersonne – und ich zeige mich immer seltener.
Es tut mir so weh zu sehen, wie schön du am Körper des Flusses liegst.
Du fürchtest mich, denn meine Küsse schneiden dich wie Messer.

Refrain

Hey, Erde,
Bedecke mich
Mit schmelzendem Schnee.
Solche Liebe wird die Welt zerstören.

Strophe 2

Schlaf. Morgen komme ich zu dir mit dem ersten Licht.
Ich will schwächer sein. Ich will öfter und näher bei dir sein.
Ich verbrenne dich, aber trotzdem lehne ich mich mit meiner heißen Schulter
An deine weißen Schneelippen – und dann werde ich dich nie, nie wiedersehen.

Refrain

Hey, Erde,
Bedecke mich
Mit schmelzendem Schnee.
Solche Liebe wird die Welt zerstören.
Hey, Erde.
Hey, Erde.
Hey, Erde.
Bedecke mich
Mit schmelzendem Schnee.


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ЗЕМЛЯ

Артем Пора Домой - ЗЕМЛЯ (Slowed)

Produced & Mixed by DJ Robert Arnadio
Mastering & Effects by DJ Robert Arnadio

I Got You (DJ's Radio Version)

you will always be famous
advanced audio synthesis unit model 3R-1S
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