Lyrics:

It starts with silence...
And silence turns to scars.

I came home to a war I didn’t start
Fighting ghosts in the dark, falling apart
You looked right through me, eyes so cold
We said "forever" — now it just feels old

Every word you didn’t say
Stacked like bricks in the hall each day
I begged for warmth, you gave me stone
So I learned how to feel alone


And I swore I’d never change
But the nights got strange
Looking for something real
In all the wrong place


Nowhere to run
When the fire’s at home
So you chase the heat
Just to feel less alone
We do dumb things
When love turns to dust
We break what’s left
When we lose what we trust


I found comfort in the chaos, arms I shouldn’t hold
It wasn’t love — just escape from the cold
Made mistakes I can't erase
Just trying to remember how a touch felt safe

You were absent — I was reckless
Two hearts numb, two minds defenseless
I still wore your name in the back of my head
But I let it drown in someone else's bed


And I told myself lies
Just to make it alright
But the guilt never sleeps
It just grows inside


Nowhere to run
When the fire’s at home
So you chase the heat
Just to feel less alone
We do dumb things
When love turns to dust
We break what’s left
When we lose what we trust


You ignored my cries — now hear the sound
Of everything we built burning down
You turned away, I turned into someone else
'Cause I couldn’t find you — so I lost myself


We break down — we break down
We break down — then burn it out!



I didn’t want more…
I just wanted you
But silence became
What we both got used to


Nowhere to run
When the love disappears
So we fill the void
With anger and fear
We do dumb things
When we’re broken inside
But all I wanted…
Was you by my side


Just you...
By my side...

Nowhere To Run

This song wrestles with spiritual surrender, the painful process of letting go of the old self, and the breakthrough that comes from being broken. It’s not about death by despair, it’s about death to ego, fear, pride, and the chains that hold us back from becoming who we were meant to be.

Six Feet Deep

Holding On

No Cure for the Night

Running From the Fire

Crown

Ghost on the Line

[Verse 1]
I been runnin’ from myself in a dead-end maze,
Every thought in my head like a hand grenade.
Pressure on my chest like a tidal wave,
Heart beat loud like it’s tryna misbehave.
They want me silent but my blood too loud,
Every scar on my wrist is a ghost I found.
I’m a shadow with a pulse and a mind unbound —
Break me down once, I’ma tear the whole ground.

[Chorus]
rip my skin open — let the monster out!
I’M DONE HIDIN’ ALL THE PAIN THAT I SCREAM ABOUT!
HEARTBEAT BOOMIN’ LIKE IT’S GONNA BLACKOUT!
IF YOU WANT A WAR — THEN I’M GIVIN’ IT NOW!

[Verse 2]
I’m a glitch in the frame tryna break the code,
Memories in my brain gettin’ overload.
Every fear in my chest I won’t let implode —
So I spit it on the mic ’til the fire explodes.
Told me calm down — but I been dead inside,
I don’t feel love, only rage collide.
If I burn too bright, then I’m fine to die —
Rather turn to ash than live a lie.

[Bridge]
I’ve been drowning…
In the silence…
LET ME BREATHE —
LET ME BREAK THE VIOLENCE!
LET ME—
SCREAM—
FREE!!

[Final Chorus]
rip my skin open — let the monster out!
I’M DONE HIDIN’ ALL THE PAIN THAT I SCREAM ABOUT!
HEARTBEAT BOOMIN’ LIKE IT’S GONNA BLACKOUT!
IF YOU WANT A WAR — THEN I’M GIVIN’ IT NOW!

[Outro]
Yeah…
This is the real me…
And I’m not holdin’ back.

Rip My Skin Open

This album is for everyone who crashes the hardest when the lights go up for Christmas and the days get short and cold.

We Are But Thieves is a seasonal depression record, a winter-anguish record, and a thank-you letter to everyone who’s been with us in Year One.

We started AxAxC as an experiment:
two nobodies writing what hurt, what healed, and what we couldn’t say out loud —
while learning prompt engineering and playing with sound.

One year later, you gave us:
• 696,645 plays
• 1,134,905+ minutes listened
• 9,403 likes
• 452 new followers
• top cities like Kyiv • Minsk • Moscow • Hanau • Dnipro
and you carried tracks like Crown of Thorns, End of the Line and Transcendence way further than we expected.

This album is our way of saying thank you and “I see you” to everyone who drowns a little in the dark months.

Founding Five — 2025 Playback:
Nanem • Nhelomoloi580 • Colin Pagano • User 322501917 • NO FI$H

You five streamed us like crazy this year. You’re officially carved into AxAxC history.

Honorary Mentions / Day-One Family:
Blayvid, KAT, Coldwake (Jenny), MaxSoulBoneBlood, Vitaly, Hasti Sajadi, TheRealKingVass, Christopher Linder, Neghar B.

Thank you for riding with us, reposting us, yelling lyrics in DMs, and holding this project down when it was just weird noise in a corner of the internet.

This is for everyone dealing with SAD, depression, faith collapse, broken families, winter nights and quiet rooms:
• the ones who feel guilty for just existing,
• the ones who’ve written a 48-hour countdown in their head,
• the ones who feel “on my own” even in a crowded room,
• the ones who’ve thought “anywhere and nowhere would be better than here.”

If these songs hit you, do three things:

Save the track that feels like you.

Share it with someone who needs to know they’re not alone this winter.

Tell us in the comments which lyric you’re stealing for your heart.

Thank you for fucking with us this year.
This is the end of Year One.
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If you’re struggling or feeling unsafe

This album talks openly about depression, self-harm thoughts and wanting to disappear.
If any of these songs hit too close and you’re thinking about hurting yourself:

• United Kingdom – Call Samaritans 116 123 (free, 24/7) or visit the NHS “Help for suicidal thoughts” page for more options.
• Sweden – Call Självmordslinjen 90101 (Mind’s suicide prevention line), or call 112 in an emergency.
• United States – Call or text 988 or chat via the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (24/7, free, confidential).
• Russia – You can call the national Helpline for Children, Teens & Parents 8-800-2000-122, or Samaritans Cherepovets 8 (8202) 577-577 for emotional crisis and suicide support.

If your life is in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number right away (112, 911, etc.).

And if hotlines feel too big, reach out to one person you trust – friend, family member, teacher, someone in your community.

You are not weak for needing help.
You are not a burden for feeling this way.

Even if this album sounds like your head, today is not the day you die.

© AxAxCStudios™ — All rights reserved. Distort. Distrust. Destroy.

Drowning

Hiding behind 
Lines and rhymes 
With hidden crimes
No one can find 

You think it’s confession 
I call it obsession 
Pride of life and cowardice
Forgiveness requires repentance

Your mortal flesh is keeping silence 
Ghosts in the machine serenade your violence 

One day the ones who call you father 
Will know what you are 
How you gambled their safety 
How you brought down the stars 
Celestial beings will stand to accuse 
Bringers of light bringing you down to the tomb 

Are you ready
It’s time to be exposed 
They aren’t relating 
Bring them in from the cold 
Paint them the portrait 
Frame them their home 

One day they'll see you 
For the monster you are 
They won't forgive you 
For their mothers scars 

What is done in the dark
Will be brought to the light
 
One day the ones who call you father 
Will know what you are 
How you gambled their safety 
How you brought down the stars 
Celestial beings will stand to accuse 
Bringers of light bringing you down to the tomb 

Pomp and posture and circumstance 
Influence and daily dance 
Like a wooden boy who wouldn't be a man 
Swallowed alive by leviathan 

(instrumental break)
One day the ones who call you father 
Will know what you are 
How you gambled their safety 
How you brought down the stars 
Celestial beings will stand to accuse 
Bringers of light bringing you down to.... 
One day the ones who call you father 
Will know what you are 
How you gambled their safety 
How you brought down the stars 
Celestial beings will stand to accuse 
Bringers of light bringing you down to the tomb 

What is done in the dark
Will be brought to the light

One day the ones who call you father 
Will know what you are  


Mortal Flesh

The Fuzzy Kittens Sing A Happy Christmas Wish

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