Bewildered

i just wanna go but im always home alone
and im turning on my tv cus im always so bored
i just wanna go but im always home alone
and i really wanna go
and i really wanna go

she said she wants me
im a loner
this doesnt make sense
im not sober
i wanna go home
and never return
i want her
but she knows that im a loser

home

i dont really talk a lot

some fuckass dude was playing guitar in the back at the beginning im sorry

we literally recorded this at guitar center fuck a fl studio

coffee !

through it all .

https://open.spotify.com/track/3e1YhZampUODo1E2sAKRei?si=4b1ced859d6e4277
@yrui
oh well, its all well
i tried to seem okay
oh well, its all well
im just so lost in my brain
@stolemyfirstname
everything i do just doesn’t sit right
every time they see me theyre like hey is it that guy
every minute and every time you feel someone’s embrace
while i have to be alone sitting in the cold rain
i think i had enough everyday my life sucks
all you do is complain idk whats right and wrong

oh well w/ #36#

sample is bedroom community by glass beach, amazing song

here it is again
a heart of excitement in the form of a girl who hates her life
as she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom
waiting for answers, wasting time

here it is again
i wish he had substance
wish that you'd notice right from wrong
that does not concern me
im just a lil kid
playing in the snow, having fun

i hope he'll be okay, 'kay
even if you don't notice
but everybody knows he hates his life
that does not concern anyone, it's so sad
they would only care if he takes his life

and as he comes back from school its like a lock on his heart
he's trapped in these walls
he's here for an eternity
then he drops his fucking bag beside him
nobody greets him
he's just standing stupidly
run into his room and the door is locked and shut, not open, nobody ever calls him back
so he'll never leave his bedroom in this bedroom community

a girl who hates her life

pop a pill with me
pray i dont wake from this sleep
there aint nothing left for me
bae i wish youd fade with me
you been oh so dead to me
i seen you all in my dreams
i hate this society
all these freaks are eyeing me
put my head down, went to sleep
and never woke up from a dream
bae i swear youre dead to me
youre so damn dead tome

no medicine can bring back the real me
i hate all these npcs that claim that they feel me
i been buried alive can you hear me
all yall wish the worst for me
but I wish the worst for me
aint no loving worked for me
bae you killed that love in me
chop me up 
pack me up
put my body in your trunk
sever me
pretty girl i hope that you come sever me
cut me up
slice me up
guess ive just run out of luck

ahhahahaha ok fine you guys win whatever

prod. sickboi
[Verse 1]
Tell me that you love me, then go and throw it all away
I don’t care about what you have to say
You knew that it's wrong, then why'd you say it's all okay?
I hate the internet, I’m rotting in my pain

[Verse 2]
Plan to rot inside of my house for the rest of my life
Everyone’s a bore, and I’m dying alone
Can’t feel the joy, and I don’t wanna try at all
Sleeping through the day with my face in my phone

[Verse 3]
Everything's fake, and it always has been
Put my trust in you, now I’m crashing again
Fade away slowly like a JPEG glitch
My heart's been cut, now it’s starting to itch

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna talk, don’t ask me how I’ve been
I’m sick of pretending that I wanna fit in
Every post feels like a stab in my spine
I’m so disconnected, but I say I’m fine

[Outro]
Burn me alive in the static screen
And just lie to my face to feel brand new
Or was it all a bad dream? Because I'm sick of you

a girl who hates her life

starsteppastella