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toxic spell [xtasane]

whatever (prodsean_)

prod. by https://soundcloud.com/hexedvstar

& you throw it in my face 
when i say your name
..i don’t wanna take all the blame
you give me kisses in the rain 
then you go away
..bleed me until nothin’ remains

you told me that i can’t change
& that you don’t feel the same
..it’s gon’ drive me insane
you don’t want me here
& that’s okay
..it just hurts that nothin’s the same

(i don’t wanna be the one that takes all the blame)

you put your knife deep in my heart
yeah, i feel the pain
..baby, why’s it me that you hate?
you cut me, oh so deep
but i won’t say..
..i just can’t stop thinkin’ your name

my heart hurts all the time
can’t tell my wrong’s from right
you know we always fight
i don’t even know why..

you throw it in my face when i say your name..

say your name

.art by @4uvstvitelnyjmal4ik on IG
feat. @12113215am @nvr_nvmbr @pinkcasperr
prod. @dzodigital @nxietymeds

lyrics:

up all night
staring at the glow from my phone and it hurts
need to find the words x2
my body's burnt out
idk which way to turn
think u can treat me like dirt
but i know my worth
cuz now im up
i was down at first
i keep it hush
i dont wanna converse, nah
im the scum of the earth
bury me in all my fendi
ill come back in rebirth

imma phoenix
too fly and fire
got shawty on all four like tires
don’t talk to me im way too tired
thought about ending it 
but im still all smiles
crocodile tears 
in a wishing well
pent up rage
and still wish you well
im not the same
since i been thru hell
i didn’t tell
if you couldn’t tell

she can tell what i’m doing to myself
all this liquor, it ain’t good for my mf health
go through spells, feelin’ well
i feel so sorry for myself

crash the car, crash the car, crash the car..

tonight i’m at the bar..
gonna drink until i barf..
i look in your eyes, i see stars..
shawty, they know who we are
who we are, who we are..

up all night
staring at the glow from my phone and it hurts
need to find the words x2
my body's burnt out
idk which way to turn
think u can treat me like dirt
but i know my worth
cuz now im up
i was down at first
i keep it hush
i dont wanna converse, nah
im the scum of the earth
bury me in all my fendi
ill come back in rebirth

keep me locked in, Lisa Rowe i break out
me and bro up late park the car look like a stake out
and i cant stay in motion but i try
baby my viens are open i might die

i see the moon on the water it looks like broken glass
my brain us running slow got too many open tabs
and she dont pick up when i call her but i still call her back
fuck me on the leather seats shit look like a prada bag

reb1rth [dzo digital + nxietymeds]

.art by @4uvstvitelnyjmal4ik on IG
prod. me

lyrics:

yeah i do this shit my own way
create my own wave
everybody so lame
you need to go away
or you could die in slow pain

on god all these hollows eating good
like a Bourdain
gas what i smoke
this a whole tank

married to the bread 
crash the party
puffing wedding cake
za to the head
make my lungs break

wishing i was dead
but im already halfway
im already halfway

wishing i was dead
but im already halfway
im already halfway

yeah i do this shit my own way
create my own wave
everybody so lame
you need to go away
or you could die in slow pain
on god all these hollows eating good
like a Bourdain

married to the bread 
crash the party
puffing wedding cake
za to the head
make my lungs break

wishing i was dead
but im already halfway
im already halfway

5low pain [etai s0]

holy scripture

Written and performed by fijiplus
Produced by twintails (@fucktwintails)
Mastered by etai s0 (@etaiso)
Released September 14th, 2025

BLACK ICE 2002 (@blackice2002)

[Chorus]:

written in the wings of where we stayed
my atonement had dug our graves
needle through the eye of storms enraged
thread through the waves thread through the waves

ivy on the walls by gardens shade
walk along the path where the leaves decay
wicked in the beauty we forgave
my bed was made, my bed was made

[Verse]:

I felt cuts to my skin like fire
burn it all away, make the blaze rise higher
I took kush to my lungs ignite it
suffocate away, leave me dazed for life and 
I collapsed on my floor last night and let the pain fade on the cold of the tile
I left hope with a valve loose now I’m wasting all my days with a crooked smile

[Refrain]:

with a crooked smile
wasting all my days with a crooked smile
with a crooked smile
wasting all my days with a crooked smile

[Chorus]

[Outro]:

woah
my bed was made, my bed was made 
woah
my bed was made, my bed was made

ivy on brick (twintails)

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor

your lies got me freezin’
now i’m fightin’ off demons
i was lovin’ you softly
but you took it as weakness

now i just can’t stop drinkin’ 
i’m in love with the feelin’
feel these cuts on my body
through my clothes, the blood seeps in

oh Jesus, i’m fiendin’, i need it
been in love with you so long
but you change like the seasons

you bleed for me, i need you
just stay near..
i don’t make any sense
i know the end’s near..

you bleed for me, i bleed too
you smell fear..
take a look in my eyes
now it’s so clear..

ohhh, you know me but i don’t know you
i fell in love with abuse
hope what you’re sayin’ is true..

i scrape my face on the asphalt
& slam my fist into drywall
‘cause you’re sayin’ it’s my fault
i’ll keep buildin’ up on my walls

(ohhhhh, yuh yuh yuh yuh)
(get the fuck outta my head..)

baby, are we finished yet?
i’ma need a cigarette 
still blowin’ smoke outta my chest
until i’m dead..

i’m seein’ red
you’re the voice inside my head
in your tight black dress
i’ll take it off, you know the rest..

fallin’ through the sky
when you get that high
the comedown don’t feel nice..

goodbye..
cut me outta your life
you’ll do it all outta spite..

misery, misery, misery
i been all up in her mouth like some Listerene
i got a fit on me, you see me glistening
y’all ain’t got shit on me
i’m keepin’ a blick on me..

misery, misery, misery
i been all up in her mouth like some wisdom teeth
out here for blood, i’ll die in Ohio
baby, you make me go psycho..

holy scripture

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