[+] do you love me, do you hate me? I can't tell
* produced by @thersx *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFN_OlKU7m8

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LYRICS:

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

do you love me do you hate me I can't tell
I been tryna find your face lately im in hell
baby I need help yea

every time I see your eyes wanna die a little less
im still tripping off the shit last week that you said
was it something that I said damn
you know you hurt me think I might need surgery
you on a burglary might just let you murder me
ok
cuz I don't wanna live that much
and I just wanna feel like im loved

yea used to pop them pills just for fun
now im two months sober this shit dumb
I just miss the feeling when im numb
I just miss the feeling of your love

(repeat)

love me, hate me

+ music video

love me, hate me (+ music video)

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

waking to the same shit
every single fucking day
im getting tired of all of it
im sick of the waiting game

this shit hit me outta nowhere
i wasn't expecting
anything that would make me feel so bad
why is life so unfair

my life has been nothing but fucked up
some say i deserve it
others that i have bad luck
can't depend on any1 and yeah that shit sucks
im only 16 and i can't get the fuck up
can't sit back and relax while i roll 1
cause im always stressed and depressed
i can't feel love
now im on my knees
in the middle of my room
wishing to be dead, soon

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

ha~a~oh//woah~o
(please leave me be)

stuck in my head
never talk; i be nauseous
i feel the wind on my skin
never wanted you more
like am i important?
cause i feel ignored
i swear that i’m worthless

i try to be by you
but everything’s breaking
so now i should die soon
for not fucking waiting
it hit like a typhoon
oh how degrading
my eyes they would dilute
would you come to save me

leave me be w/autumndropsdead (afterlife x jolst)

lyrics

im broken, i hate it
im stupid, i hate it
im fine now, ill fake it
hurt me, i'll take it

oh, why the fuck did i fall for this again?
im blind and in the dark with bloody wrists again
im coughin up my lungs from all this medicine
i went looking for a light but i got lost in it
and the days got cold
and the highs got low
and it all got old, i was all on my own
then i read ur text that said its all my fault
n then i ripped my bong, n then i went home
u say ur just friends but i know its a lie
i see it all in what u post online
u got ur legs pressed against his chest
just like me, was he ur very best?
whats the time? 
its half past 5
i sat back and watched it all unwind
i saw the love marks on his neck
hung my head and wished that i were dead

a part of me died when u left that night in july
and that without lie is the last time that i felt alive

july

(prod. moneo)

shoutout soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for makin this wit me 

enjoy :))

lyrics:

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x2
don’t go around blamin’ the world for this; for me 

I am an extra in your movie 
don’t try and argue I’ll just leave 
we both know that we aren’t perfect we’re far from it 
far from roots we’ve grown a bit  

loving you something else.
I need a second chance, I’ll rip my heart apart from night to day.
I miss ur face could you please say the 3 dumb words that mean so much
it’s hard to hurt when you’re leanin on a crutch 
but baby, please 
don’t tell me that it’s all a fkn dream

skele:

bleed out 
i watched you fall 
just look at me now 

please don’t scream out 
i couldn’t take that sound 
you were all i had 

i’m so bad for you 
all the things i’ve been through 
always drag us down 
is it too late now 
i’m so in love with you 
anything i could do 
i would do for you 
i would cut thru my skin oh my god 
spilling out over the ground

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x4

pavement

spotify

pavement w/skele

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

@lilskeleskrrt
@prodjpjp

// geist
don’t look at me and tell me no hard feelings
blood was lost, it’s dripping through the ceiling
i saw this coming from a mile away
the knife was left in my chest for a reason
but i wish you the best forever, you win
i don’t want to fall in love with hate

i just wanted to dance
when your hand’s in my hand i feel my heart is racing
lost in a trance
but now i’m alone and i rot in this basement
there’s blood on my hands
and i paint the walls red when given a chance
oh don’t give me that glance
your eyes tell me secrets my heart cannot stand

oh
the knife was left for a reason :/
oh
wish you the best forever you win...

// skele
cut me right thru
baby you don’t need a panic
watch it pour out
darling isn’t it romantic
it’s like paradise
fading out
only you and i
somebody call the surgeon
tell him that it’s urgent
on the table stained red
i told you
i think that it was worth it
this is perfect
if you hold me as i go
i’ll wait up there for certain

and you
are
the reason
that i lay awake
staying up
i’ve been stuck here for days
hold my heart
in ur hand till breaks

don’t keep telling me to let go
screaming out
i stop to listen to the echo
not enough
fucking tearing up my throat
i’ll keep going
till the blood
makes me choke
what you know
baby tell me where you go at night
empty out this bed
i’m still not feeling right
staring at my meds
i’m on the borderline
walk along the edge
i don’t feel alive

paradise w/ skele [jpjp]

Lyrics:
wake up morning to a bad report
and i just cant be fucked so i just pour a fourth
then i shoot the fifth until my final form
begins to take its shape and im on the floor

and im heaving writhing turning to a beast
and i break my chains and i roam the streets
then im spinning falling faster in my sheets
and im throwing up my guts on my feet

i dont hope i choke on my internal fluid
i just wish the devil would get laid to ruin
we could find some peace and it would all be fluent
it would be just like we aint just been through it

and i hope i never get the past back
burned it up cause im like “pass that”
block it out and ill redact that
keep it dark like its matte black

it doesnt matter all the smoke in the air
never cared if i remembered anything, i was there, like
it doesnt feel the way it used to, like
sewerperson on my bluetooth, like
x2

eyes awake, steady forth
my wounds and pain is not a metaphor
my blackened brain is not a steady course
my frozen heart has stopped keeping score

now im sick from all the toxins
wanna get away but im boxed in
got a safe but never locked it
now i pay the price with no profit

pass the spliff itll be fine
they all say have a great time
fuck these demons gotta face mine
out my mind call me tech n9ne

hold my breath when i drink now
on my way to the sink now
too fucked up on the brink now
blackout cold in the street, blaow

Matte Black

shoutout to @kennyorlando for helping me finish this <3


[safeatlast:]
so cold
waiting for sum1 to hold
me as i try to get warm
get me away from the snow
at least thats how i used to feel

take me back to winters in toronto
take me back to drowning every minute in the bottle
take me to when i could be proud of myself oh
take me back to feeling sumthin other than the sorrow

AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

[Kenny Orlando:]
i wish it was easier than following my heart
cause its given me nothing but nightmares and problems
one minute im drowning 
the next second im all in
im sinking 
im falling 
right down to
the bottom
take me back to the time 
where we were doing fine 
both of us 
where the love was 
can you take me back to the city
where everything felt so pretty 
AND I HATE THAT EVERYTHING’S BROKEN
WISH I COULD TAKE BACK 
AND MAKE IT ALL PERFECT 
THE DAYS PASS
ITS KILLING ME 
FILLING ME 
WITH THIS COLD AND DARK HOLLOWNESS

[safeatlast:]
AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

fall apart

fall apart w/ Kenny Orlando (king theta)

just pull me away
just somewhere to stay
i know where you've been before
just soften to me
if they find out
i know a place
what could i even say?

breathe through the worst parts, i'm told that it's not fair
i've been so focused on something that's not there
voice down my essence, it's clearer than you said
knew that you'd find me and put it all to rest
said so much but you still don't know me
outside on the road i slowly, get back to the place so coldy
don't ask, don't speak what you know please
just been turning away

when you're turning the page
i know what it takes
you said that you're better
i'm feeling the same
it's all dead
the morning hasn't come yet

when you're cursing your name 
and the steps that you take
a year tryna move on
i'm standing in place
it's all dead
the morning hasn't come yet

just pull me away
just somewhere to stay
i know where you've been before
just soften to me
if they find out
i know a place
what could i even say?

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Recorded 5/22/25. We will get to the bottom of the vault 1 song at a time. Im going to start dropping a song every day damn near until there are no unreleased songs. I love u yours truly 7. Long live da guys u know dat!

fall apart w/ Kenny Orlando (king theta)

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