yo this is fire but hope you're doing alright brodie, seriously 🙏🙏🙏

prod. caspr
engineered by skrwd
mixed and mastered by Patrick Gardner

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I just wanna talk about it but you don't hit my phone up
I got too much in my system, fucking throwing up
I've been working every night, just have to count it up
Tell you I miss you, but you don't wanna speak much
I feel so lost when you're not here
I can't fucking sleep when you're not near
I swear I care, but we don't even talk and it's not fair
I've been losing my mind and I'm holding onto you
Trying to figure out a way to give it back to you
Overthinking every word I ever say to you
I'm trying my best, don't know what else to do
I'm so scared you'll leave me here, I worry so much you'll disappear
I just wanna talk about it, you don't wanna talk about it

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I haven't seen you in weeks, you're not too far from the city
You tremble when you speak and I know it's on me partially
Talk to me softly, tell me that you want me
Laying in my bed, yeah, longing for your heartbeat
When I'm with you it's not so bad but every time you leave, I just get so sad
You're the only one that knows me like that so I'm so scared that you won't come back
You're the roof over my head, eyes got me focused
Every time I inhale your scent, I'm in heaven
You're the one I'm flexin, not even a question
Tell me what's on your mind, maybe it'll kill the tension
We'll be alright, only a matter of time
Even from far away, you're the color of my sky

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

swear w/ skele (prod. caves)

1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

Lyrics:

i read minds
she's no exception
it's much worse knowing her intentions
god this can't be real it festers
i'm not at peace i've still got questions
i read minds she's no exception
it's much worse knowing her intentions
god this can't be real it festers
i'm not at peace i've still got questions

did you see a thing in me
how you gonna pull away when you had took the lead
was it fun to be a tease
realizing i can safely say it wasn't fun for me
know im not entitled to my dream
but the least i would've wished for was a chance for us to see
7 years down the drain made me puke into the sheets
if you don't wanna hear it then stop listening to me
you get to know everything that you had put me through
i didn't wanna hate you even now not sure i do
i'd rather trust your actions than your words i hope they aren't true
cause honest i don't think i'd willingly stop loving you
THATS WHY I CUT U OFF :(

i read minds
she's no exception
it's much worse
knowing her intentions
god this can't be real it festers
I'M NOT AT PEACE
I'VE STILL GOT QUESTIONS

i read minds
she's no exception
it's much worse knowing her intentions
god this can't be real it festers
i'm not at peace i've still got questions
i read minds she's no exception
it's much worse knowing her intentions
god this can't be real it festers
i'm not at peace i've still got questions

angela (colcaine)

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace w/ popularreject (hero)

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

all of my friends find my presence alarming
and momma im sorry i cant stop self harming
baby im sorry im not ur prince charming
all i haves bad luck my name isnt charlie

is it 2 much just 2 ask for a litle bit of help 
im dying alone on the floor!
is it 2 much just 2 ask for a pick me up
 somebody loan me a heart of my own

im afraid mines been taken
away to a place where theyre no longer vacant
all thats left is self hatred for me
wont you break down my skull in the pavement

mama I'm sorry
I hope you don't find this alarming
I'm a joker
she's harley
but that girl is fake like a barbie

won't be here in the morning
I pour out my feelings and stop the recording
if I get found dead they'd be awfully supportive
I had a plan but this missions aborted
mission failed

we'll get em next time
(rest of the lyrics later xD I'm at work 😢)

mission failed ft. popularreject (king theta x etchmygrave)


i aint ever ask for help naw im pickin myself up
i aint ever ask for handouts do this on my own im gettin get my paystubs
workin just so i can take my pretty girl to all these places
i aint make a whole lot but its bout the memories that we makin

baby fuck the location
how many times i gotta say this
long as im in your presence i dont care where we take this

smoke sessions at the park
breaking down in the car
we aint got a whole lot in common but im following my heart
for once

listening to my gut
intuitions never failed me before i found escapes and had to run
yeah i had to run away
had to get out of that place
and i did it just in time to fall in love with your pretty face


but i fucked it up
vision went black now im wakin up
looked down saw my hands covered in blood
and my body cold in the tub

gory sight to behold
when the corpse is your own
i had so much to live for so why did i fold?

why did i take myself out of existence
maybe i just needed help i couldnt ask for assistance
everybody tried to reach out all my friends stayed persistent
but i never take any handouts god im such a fucking idiot

static pt. 2 (never,forever)

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