Can't Decide if I'm alive

DEAD INSIDE (feat. Remy)

Okay like 1, 2. . . 
Produced and Engineered by rev 🖤
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Lyrics:
{ REV }
Okay like 1, 2,
Baby know I want you,
3, 4, I don’t wanna fall too soon,
The woman with the horns,
Is the woman of my dreams,
But it made me think-
Okay like 5, 6,
I fell for your trick,
This woman is the devil cause she made my heart sick,
I don’t want it,
I tried to runaway but she got me by my neck,
She a demon baby but she got my soul in check,

{ LOAT! }
but you like that
got a cold heart in my sweater is a ice pack
i’m a lonestar got me staring at your nice tats
bite that
baby if you let me imma pipe that
she a pretty city girl
wit the red horns on
next day wake staring at the text so long
said come fuck me in the morning with the blinds closed love
stuck falling for somebody that i can’t trust
ok like 1,2 
baby know i want you
3,4
i don’t wanna fall too soon
the woman with the horns is the woman in my nightmares i can’t take it anymore like

{ REV }
Made a deal with the devil but it turns out she’s a girl,
Red horns, red blush with pink pearls,
Met her at the crossroads like around 3,
And she cast me a spell that rid my lonely,
I don’t like that,
Got me addicted like a nicotine back patch,
Got me repeating everyday like a hi-hat,
Nah I don’t like that, baby I don’t like that,
Got evil around my heart but I can’t see,
Bury me in art till I can’t breathe,
Now I got scars inside of me,
I kept screaming but they never help me,
There’s an ocean of silence and I’m drowning,
I got Fake love, Fake trust, all around me,
Now I gotta deal like a prisoner in a cage,
Makin me reflect on all of my big mistakes like—
(Okay like) 1, 2,
Baby know I want you,
3, 4, I don’t wanna fall too soon,
The woman with the horns,
Is the woman in my nightmares, { LOAT!}
I can’t fuckin take it anymore-
Okay like 5, 6, { REV}
I fell for your trick,
This woman is the devil cause she made my heart sick,
I don’t want it,
I tried to runaway but she got me by my neck,
She a demon baby but she got my soul in check,

REV x LOAT! - Devil Lady

She woke up
Lit a cigarette and put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone
I'm being honest
You just want those songs to be about you but they not bitch
You just another problem
And I don't need your trauma
It's hard to tell how high I really get when I'm at the bottom
She tried showing off her man to get me jealous so I robbed 'em

She still let me fuck
That's embarrassing as fuck
Or she just really fucking dumb
Either way I'm moving on
Y'all ain't never had the touch
You need them to put you on
How you gonn' get your money up
She fell asleep in the bathtub
With her playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About the way we was in love before she gave it fucking up
Lil bitch you lost it
You made this a show and then you left me in the moshpit
Took my clothes and stole my soul you been left me exhausted
Left me low and left me all alone baby you not it
Took that rope and left it on my throat baby you knot it
Heartless heartthrob
Hard times won't stop
She not the one I told y'all
She played me like an old song
I'm in Manta Rey by the ocean with my new bitch givin' me shoulder rubs
We heading back to the city when I sober up

I just lit another cigarette and put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone I'm being honest

But we past that
She says I lost everything we had but I don't think we ever had that
Fuck shooting shots I want my strap back
Girl you got nowhere left to hide
You a nightmare I got flashbacks
Can't ride with me you need a bus pass
Or you need to learn to pump gas
If you on my mind you trespassed
I need my money back plus tax
Cut you off like mustache
My love for you just rushed past
You wanted a song about you so I made this for your punk ass

She woke up lit a cigarette
And put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone
I'm being honest
You just want these songs to be about you but they not bitch
You just another problem and I don't need your trauma
Hard to tell how high I really get when I'm at the bottom
She tried showing off her man to get me jealous so I robbed 'em

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Lyrics:
I'm a reject
Nothing ever makes sense
Yeah
Yeah
No

Comfort fleeing but I'm fine by myself yeah
Told me I was worthless loved somebody else yeah
Shit so fucked up put a bullet in my chest yeah
Rip my heart out and I'll spill it on her dress yeah

Now she calling me a reject
I don't even know what you expect
Look in the mirror all the bad thoughts deflect
Popping pills and I'm calling it defense
Fuck everybody they all basic need a re-check
Calling my phone cause she told me she would be there
Now I'm alone and you ain't show any respect
I just guess that I'm a reject

Flipping hourglasses in hopes to rewind
Because all this liquor is making me blind
And I wish to love you the old you was kind
But now we're fucked
You in the back of my mind
Rolling off the Hennessy
Smoked an awful lot today
I could use your company
But I just want your ecstasy
Suicidal tendencies
I hope you remember me
And I'm tripping on this jealousy
Rhyming is my therapy yeah
Tattooed my face on your wrist just to watch me bleed
Why can't I give you all of me
Smoke is in the air but it ain't no weed
It's the burning of our memories
I ain't got the energy nah
I ain't got the energy

Now she calling me a reject
I don't even know what you expect
Look in the mirror all the bad thoughts deflect
Popping pills and I'm calling it defense
Fuck everybody they all basic need a re-check
Calling my phone cause she told me she would be there
Now I'm alone and you ain't show any respect
I just guess that I'm a reject

I'm a reject girl
I'm a reject
I'm a reject girl yah
Huh
I'm a reject
Yah
Uh
I'm a reject woah

R3J3CT

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R3J3CT  [SWITCH + ASHEN]

Rope Scars

𝕽𝖔𝖕𝖊 𝕾𝖈𝖆𝖗𝖘

HiNi - NIKE AIRS [THE MiND OF HOUDiNi]

@alainite

Getting high
I don't want to feel alive
'Cause this life
Makes me feel like
I wanna die
Scream your name to the sky
I want you out of my mind

Getting high every time
Guess is time to say goodbye
Guess you're not part of my life anymore
It hurts being not together
You said it was forever
I thought that you would never
Run away from me
I guess I was wrong
I guess I wasn't the one
That was made for you

Getting high
I don't want to feel alive
'Cause this life
Makes me feel like
I wanna die
Scream your name to the sky
I want you out of my mind

Yeah you should run so fast away from me
I'll hide here till the coast is clear
My dear won't you hold me
We're both scared
'Cause we both belong together
We said this was forever
I hope you'll never ever run away from me
You said you'd never run away
You said you'd never run away
I guess that I wasn't the one
You said you'd never run away

Getting high
I don't want to feel alive
'Cause this life
Makes me feel like
I wanna die
Scream your name to the sky
I want you out of my mind

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High ft. Alainite [prod. Ross Gossage]

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complicated

KILLING ME

Dead By 25 (Prod. sleepless boy)

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LYRICS:

This is not a Christmas
This is not a Christmas song 
This is not a Christmas
This is not a Christmas song 

The Christmas trees on fire
Santa’s holding the lighter
My parents are both liars
 I got gifts but want subscribers
Thanks for the candy basket
Oh god another jacket
My stockings filled with acid
Am I dreaming what just happened?!

This is not a Christmas
This is not a Christmas song (4x)

My neighbors compete to see who can put up more blinding lights
The kids all wish away the month cuz they want presents in sight
This year had
Me so mad
I’ve been bad
Got coal that 
is sitting under my tree I think that my Christmas has died

This is not a Christmas
This is not a Christmas song (4x)

When I was just a boy
Christmas brought so much joy
Couldn’t wait for the presents and laughter
I couldn’t sleep late at night
Lookin for Santa with lights
Those are memories I still remember 
Then I became a man
Lost sight of who I am 
But right in front of me was the answer
Cuz on Christmas I feel joy
And I turn back to a boy
The answer is to stay young forever 

This is not a Christmas
This is not a Christmas song (4x)

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This Is Not A Christmas Song [Copyright Free]

BLEEEDIN OUT

BLEEDIN OUT

Hotel Diablo

Burning Memories (feat. Lil Skies)

Nauseous Feat.Mishaal (prod.capsctrl)

ty @alainite for the featuring <3 

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

[verse: alainite]
Yeah every time I do I cry
'Cause I’ve been staying up so late at night and I’m just burning
'Cause I can’t find another way to kill the pain
And I’ve been crawling down this lonely road yeah I been wasted
Just tryna find a place where I can hide my pain

'Cause you’re everything I want and more, oh
Yeah you got me so bored of everybody else I'm sure, oh
That you got me ignored like everybody else I’m sure

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

Faking a Smile ft. Alainite [prod. yunny goldz]

Tickets To My Downfall

forget me too

drunk face

Demons in the Attic ft. Jake Hill prod. GHXST

CRIM - I NEED U

co-codependency
you take the best of me
i'm so hung up on u..

co-codependency
you took the best of me
i'm so hung up on you
always scared that we be falling thru
can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?

so it's an issue of trust
everybody's drunk with lust
we all want security
but cheat with impunity
is my commute to work now subject to scrutiny?
goddamn better stage a mutiny

so don't get me wrong, i wanna be with u
'yeah, right' then all hell breaks loose

can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?
cus i'm fraying and stressing and twisting my stomach in knots

[produced by yung spoiler]
[art by onlyfriend]

Can't Decide if I'm alive

Constantyne