Can't Decide if I'm alive

She woke up
Lit a cigarette and put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone
I'm being honest
You just want those songs to be about you but they not bitch
You just another problem
And I don't need your trauma
It's hard to tell how high I really get when I'm at the bottom
She tried showing off her man to get me jealous so I robbed 'em

She still let me fuck
That's embarrassing as fuck
Or she just really fucking dumb
Either way I'm moving on
Y'all ain't never had the touch
You need them to put you on
How you gonn' get your money up
She fell asleep in the bathtub
With her playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About the way we was in love before she gave it fucking up
Lil bitch you lost it
You made this a show and then you left me in the moshpit
Took my clothes and stole my soul you been left me exhausted
Left me low and left me all alone baby you not it
Took that rope and left it on my throat baby you knot it
Heartless heartthrob
Hard times won't stop
She not the one I told y'all
She played me like an old song
I'm in Manta Rey by the ocean with my new bitch givin' me shoulder rubs
We heading back to the city when I sober up

I just lit another cigarette and put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone I'm being honest

But we past that
She says I lost everything we had but I don't think we ever had that
Fuck shooting shots I want my strap back
Girl you got nowhere left to hide
You a nightmare I got flashbacks
Can't ride with me you need a bus pass
Or you need to learn to pump gas
If you on my mind you trespassed
I need my money back plus tax
Cut you off like mustache
My love for you just rushed past
You wanted a song about you so I made this for your punk ass

She woke up lit a cigarette
And put that playlist on
That I made for her when I cared about her
With all her favorite songs
I ain't put my music on it though
She hates the way I talk
About them drugs or the love I lost
But I'm fucked up and too far gone
I'm being honest
You just want these songs to be about you but they not bitch
You just another problem and I don't need your trauma
Hard to tell how high I really get when I'm at the bottom
She tried showing off her man to get me jealous so I robbed 'em

favorite songs (p. mileage)

My album Melancholy is officially stream-able on all music platforms. Thank you to everyone who was involved in the creative process of this album.
Enjoy.

nobody

'Complicated' is my first solo release in a while and one I'm really proud of, it's the first of many that truly feels like something unique and personal. Hope you enjoy <3

complicated

Dead By 25 (Prod. sleepless boy)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wocuu3ZHwiw&list=RDWZnYufS9tbA&index=3&ab_channel=IDLEGLANCE

INDI - Changes ft. Nicolas Sales [Lyrics x AMV]

blood

s0cliche x Ethan Ross - "Miles Away" (prod. Drunk Girl)

https://www.linktr.ee/chrisrain
Produced, mixed & mastered by Chris Rain
Artwork by Chris Rain

lyrics: https://genius.com/Chris-rain-hate-me-lyrics

SPOTIFY

HATE ME

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

SIR!

CHRIS RAIN - SIR!

Nauseous Feat.Mishaal (prod.capsctrl)

s0cliché
https://soundcloud.com/s0cliche
https://open.spotify.com/artist/6VFh5...
https://www.instagram.com/s0cliche/
https://twitter.com/s0clichemusic

SEPHA.
https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey
https://www.instagram.com/sepha.a/
https://twitter.com/_SEPHA
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMiK...
https://open.spotify.com/artist/094ug... 

COBRA.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWZg...
https://www.instagram.com/joshbishop24/

s0cliché - Messages (Ft. Sepha) (Prod. COBRA)

Anxiety

CRIM - I NEED U

co-codependency
you take the best of me
i'm so hung up on u..

co-codependency
you took the best of me
i'm so hung up on you
always scared that we be falling thru
can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?

so it's an issue of trust
everybody's drunk with lust
we all want security
but cheat with impunity
is my commute to work now subject to scrutiny?
goddamn better stage a mutiny

so don't get me wrong, i wanna be with u
'yeah, right' then all hell breaks loose

can you be alone for five more minutes before blowin up my phone?
cus i'm fraying and stressing and twisting my stomach in knots

[produced by yung spoiler]
[art by onlyfriend]

coco dependency [prod. yungspoiler]

Little Sweet Lover

Previously known under the name FossDotWally

Nauseous Feat.Mishaal (prod.capsctrl)

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