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What are you so hesitant about?

dope white boy songs pt 6

I don't wanna do this anymore

produced by heylog

lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

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oblivious

produced by heylog

lyrics:
the birds all sing a beautiful song
light beams through this is where i belong
peaceful people who fear to talk
they mimic them and love to mock
women from different countries
i feel pressured there's people watching me
pull u in with the sound of harmonies
they say this kid's gifted with prodigy

occupied i'm tired of people
that look in ur eye tells me u are deceitful
you live knowing this time your whole act has been a lie
you walk by the garden and every flower dies

THE BIRDS ALL SING A BEAUTIFUL SONG
LIGHT BEAMS DOWN THIS IS WHERE I BELONG
PEACEFUL PEOPLE WHO FEAR TO TALK
THEY MIMIC THEM AND LOVE TO MOCK
WOMEN FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES
I FEEL PRESSURED THERE'S PEOPLE WATCHING ME
PULL YOU IN WITH THE SOUND OF HARMONIES
THEY SAY THIS KID'S GIFTED WITH PRODIGY

yeah u better run from me i said
i'm used to this and being lonely
conversations don't extend when i'm
short on words i guess i don't feel like talking
spare my life it's just begun
i'm still tryna get us back but i know we're done
growing old too fast i'm too slow to outrun
problems chasing me but i know that they won

this is where i belong

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

i love you

produced by heylog

lyrics:
the biggest thing i fear
the darkness in my heart
will never disappear
now i'm back to start 
but u gave me one night where i felt happy again
i smiled and waved goodbye
i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows, while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey,
i think i made a friend

i hear them calling on my name
i'm still log and i'm still the same
hold right here don't let go of me
i'll be here if u need anything
it's getting pretty late
i could talk to u for hours
i never say a thing, i never say a word
but when i speak with u
i leave my introvert
i leave it all behind, is it better is it worse

well is it better is it worse cause you've known me for a while
and the day really depends if i frown or if i smile
will depression come again
but as soon as u went home
depression came back
but i don't really care cause i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
well i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
cause i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
so maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey..
i think i made a friend

but i don't think i'm ready i cannot have a girl yet
i'm still getting over my last relationship
i'm slowly getting better but some nights i still feel numb
now people wanna hangout but the doors shut
u say that u miss me and i really doubt that
u say that ur proud of me, do u even mean it?
but i think ur tryna take advantage of me
cause no one around me is doing what i'm doing

I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND

i think i made a friend

distance📍

nobody listens to me 
watching as everyone leave
ill be here falling to peices
outside for autumn to see
I cannot see thru the madness
theres too many secrets to keep
ill meet you out by passage
ive hidden a sword in my sheath
see im grittin my teeth
waiting for problems got somewhere to be
But everyone fake
yea i cant beleive
were all struggling underneath 

yea under the surface
youll find a purpose
its not picture perfect but
my lord gimme courage 
so i promise ima stand up

Its like every night every night every night i cant
understand really why
i cannot stick to the full plan


wonder why everyone lookin at me
i might throw up right off the balcony
anxious and idk how i can keep
walkin around when everyone follow me
why am i paranoid
washed like a janitor
never take steroids 
but i got mad at her
Hurt in my chest
whip in a challenger
i can adress 
ive got a lot learn

one minute im gone
next minute im next to you but
after you hear this song
you know that everything i said was true

passage (cxrter x cobalt)

One That Got Away

I Turned 24 And Im Scared

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

your perfect
your worth it
don't be hurting
u don't deserve it
like I don't deserve u

its the little things that I catch
itching till you rash
and i can help you love
don't you hurt no more

its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay
don't you hurt no more

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

ill be the light in your darkest time
let me be the one to hold you and you'll be just fine
your eyes say it all when you're inlove
the heart says more when you're close

(its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay)

need u

lyrics⬇️
listeing to everything around me
I don’t eavesdrop i just hear my surroundings 
i wish i had someone to say that they were proud of me
but thats unrealistic i only make enemies
Try my best to find out where i should go
all i have is hope in my head
but im still feeling low

dont make me turn away
sheer luck finna fill my veins
no chance that im gonna change
horrible everytime im in my brain
affordable atleast im making a lane
adorable i used to used to think was ur face
now when i go out i feel like a pain
never thought id be the batman to bane

but truthfully im still on track 
but idk whats going on in my head
i hate when they say they that i slack
but maybe theyre right cuz im in my bed

well i wanna just do my own thing
ill write on the wall in red ink
maybe the words are coding
for all of the ways that i think

and i miss the feeling i felt when i had a drink in my hand and a hand on the wheel
told you you dont gotta fear
i know whats good;know how to steer

he’s probably making a bag
she probably misses him bad
well probably isnt true; its barley even half that

unrealistic (soloft)

Full Moon

Earned

The Right One

Left Right Now

prod by Liminaldream

blink, im 24
theres still things i cant be rid of
i think i could do more
feeling younger than i am

fell distant from my friends
things felt different on my end 
i feel my stomach sinking when

standing over a hole i cant fill
going nowhere, im at a standstill
this october, it weighs like anvils

and i could last 
this december
find my flame 
in dying embers 
find my passion
and it wont change how fast im aging 
i cant take it 
i cant

blink

Cavalier

AGATS2 (Insecure) Ft. Nicki Minaj

KTM Drip

Misfit

Empty Out Your Pockets

i shouldn't look back w/ scum & lil lotus [prod fats'e]

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

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lost and afraid of the world that surrounds me
i constantly let down everyone around me

my heart it glows
my soul it floats
i stay awake cos i cant breathe
when demons haunt me in my sheets

have you ever felt like you were dead?
like nothing feels the same 
so you just lie in your bed?

light a cigarette 
put your woes to rest
im a fallen angel baby im not like the rest

i try to hold on to the things that i once loved
my heart and emotions are something im void of

youre wasting away
are you okay?
please just keep your head up and just hope for better days

hold on to your memories and youll be safe
this may be our last chance to leave this place

its like i hold myself back
crying wolf to all the sheep
singing lullabies to ease my mind
safely drifting in the night

but nothings ever as it seems
waking up from fever dreams
ive counted every single sheep
but i still cant fucking sleep

luna

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a fallen angel 🌟

your backyard

@youngburial
@familypet
@anobodyreally

me:
feels like im drowning and i cant breathe
the walls are caving in around me
i call out your name but you cant hear me
hold out my hands but i cant reach

fats'e:
i saw your face in a dream
staring blankly at me
and i cant let it go
cant you just let me be

me:
my gaze turns to the sky
as i fall backwards im
taken back to a time
when you were still with me

familypet:
I had a dream I was sinking at the bottom,
Wake up reach out and grab the bottle,
Drink a fifth just to stop my head from pounding,
In either state of mind I find myself drowning.
I really miss you now,
when I look out,
and see the ocean and the clouds,
smell the salt and hear the sounds,
I can almost hear your voice now.

fats'e:
leave my body out in the middle of nowhere
after im dead
so the vultures can pull me apart 
and i wont have this pain in my head

outro(familypet):
Emotional lies, 
in this pool I will die,
At the bottom I'll lie,
End my emotional life.

perfect nightmare w/ fats'e & familypet [prod ʎpoqou]

so long, goodbye (ft. Lil Lotus)

guitar sampled from ichika nito
everything else was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
often this summer we fight and start over
u were the best but this bye aint forever
ill make space for your tears on my shoulders
cause ill still be here when ur ready to come home

i want u to stay for a while
i cant go to bed havent slept in a while
took u back home from the windmills
cant see us with anyone else
weve tried but its so hard
im just another kid reaching for your arms
like i said, "cant we try again"
i promise ill make it up i dont want this to end

often this summer we fight and start over
u were the best but this bye aint forever
ill make space for your tears on my shoulders
cause ill still be here when ur ready to come home

blink

evergarden