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I'm not really ok

uk garage my drilla

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idk what all this lyrical personal shit means go ask an english teacher or something-

verse 1
i just wanna have a talk
about how selfish i am
about how little of a man i’ve become
and you say there’s no rules
tell that to my mum and dad
cos their answers won’t be just for fun

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

verse 2
now i see myself decaying
why am i relishing in it though
i guess routines have their way around me
i feel these emotions fading
cut ties with everyone i know
can’t keep a convo cos noone feels real

verse 3
((rappity raprap))
eyes on my back i keep watching
they all wanna see me lose but i keep winning
do this shit solo don’t need nobody’s help
if u ain’t fuck w me i can only wish u well
say i ain’t normal when they wish they were weirdos
why i needa follow rules i ain’t got nothing to fear for
maybe this ego’s why i’m here tho

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

outro

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stream the mf song

oh my god no i did it again
now u dont fuck wit me and i hate all ur friends 
guess i fell in the cycle again
i knew it was the end
but it felt so perfect in your bed
now ur just a past acquaintance in my head 
bitch dont talk to me im not ur friend 
but for u id do it all agaiiiinnnn

we’re just some fucked up kids fuckin up 
like what the fuck is love 
i wanna smoke till i cant feel my lungs
i roll another blunt 
i wanna drink till i cant fuckin talk 
i pour another cup
i wanna bleed till i cant fuckin walk
i add another cut x2

it was just a matter of time before u fell back into his arms

do u feel any sort of sorrow for the man u left with scars? 

but i dont care anymore 
atleast ur not in my hair anymore 
atleast ur not in my bed anymore 
cuz the thought of u makes me drop to the floor 
i feel it down to my core

no i dont care anymore 
atleast that dumb bitch not in my head
anymore 
at least ur not in my bed anymore 
with every thought of u i fall down to the floooor

and imma get the bag imma do what i do
imma do it on my own bitch i dont need u
fuck me over again and again till my thoughts are all blue
if i ignore ur dumbass bitch ill never lose

we’re just some fucked up kids fuckin up 
like what the fuck is love 
i wanna smoke till i cant feel my lungs
i roll another blunt 
i wanna drink till i cant fuckin talk 
i pour another cup
i wanna bleed till i cant fuckin walk
i add another cut x2

bleed

Mixed by me & @musicbyfloret
Mastered by @musicbyfloret
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/freveltrothy & https://soundcloud.com/sor_beats

Braindead

braindead w/ floret (frevel + sor)

boybands part 2 +kev7 {slicky}

POS {siem spark}

Produced by metlast x luffy

Lyrics

What you mean to me, I don't mean to you
You don't feel for me, what I feel for you
I would kill for you, girl I would die for you
Wish I wouldn't every single time I cried for you

Wish I didn't every single time I call to you
You don't care at fucking all bitch, I'm a flaw to you
You don't want nothing to do with me at all do you?
Why the fuck did I ever go and fall for you?

Maybe I won't ever know, maybe I won't ever get
Better than what I am right now, baby girl you heaven sent
Told me that you're here for me but I don't see no evidence
Graveyardwraith, I don't open up I'm reticent

I slept better with the false belief that you had loved me
Always tried my best for you, you made it look so easy
Why do I still call knowing you won't ever answer?
Staring from the window that my bloody hands have shattered

What you mean to me, I don't mean to you
You don't feel for me, what I feel for you
I would kill for you, girl I would die for you
Wish I wouldn't every single time I cried for you

Wish I didn't every single time I call to you
You don't care at fucking all bitch, I'm a flaw to you
You don't want nothing to do with me at all do you?
Why the fuck did I ever go and fall for you?

graveyardwraith.

nobody listens to me 
watching as everyone leave
ill be here falling to peices
outside for autumn to see
I cannot see thru the madness
theres too many secrets to keep
ill meet you out by passage
ive hidden a sword in my sheath
see im grittin my teeth
waiting for problems got somewhere to be
But everyone fake
yea i cant beleive
were all struggling underneath 

yea under the surface
youll find a purpose
its not picture perfect but
my lord gimme courage 
so i promise ima stand up

Its like every night every night every night i cant
understand really why
i cannot stick to the full plan


wonder why everyone lookin at me
i might throw up right off the balcony
anxious and idk how i can keep
walkin around when everyone follow me
why am i paranoid
washed like a janitor
never take steroids 
but i got mad at her
Hurt in my chest
whip in a challenger
i can adress 
ive got a lot learn

one minute im gone
next minute im next to you but
after you hear this song
you know that everything i said was true

passage (cxrter x cobalt)

I Turned 24 And Im Scared

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

your perfect
your worth it
don't be hurting
u don't deserve it
like I don't deserve u

its the little things that I catch
itching till you rash
and i can help you love
don't you hurt no more

its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay
don't you hurt no more

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

ill be the light in your darkest time
let me be the one to hold you and you'll be just fine
your eyes say it all when you're inlove
the heart says more when you're close

(its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay)

need u

lyrics⬇️
listeing to everything around me
I don’t eavesdrop i just hear my surroundings 
i wish i had someone to say that they were proud of me
but thats unrealistic i only make enemies
Try my best to find out where i should go
all i have is hope in my head
but im still feeling low

dont make me turn away
sheer luck finna fill my veins
no chance that im gonna change
horrible everytime im in my brain
affordable atleast im making a lane
adorable i used to used to think was ur face
now when i go out i feel like a pain
never thought id be the batman to bane

but truthfully im still on track 
but idk whats going on in my head
i hate when they say they that i slack
but maybe theyre right cuz im in my bed

well i wanna just do my own thing
ill write on the wall in red ink
maybe the words are coding
for all of the ways that i think

and i miss the feeling i felt when i had a drink in my hand and a hand on the wheel
told you you dont gotta fear
i know whats good;know how to steer

he’s probably making a bag
she probably misses him bad
well probably isnt true; its barley even half that

unrealistic (soloft)

prod by Liminaldream

blink, im 24
theres still things i cant be rid of
i think i could do more
feeling younger than i am

fell distant from my friends
things felt different on my end 
i feel my stomach sinking when

standing over a hole i cant fill
going nowhere, im at a standstill
this october, it weighs like anvils

and i could last 
this december
find my flame 
in dying embers 
find my passion
and it wont change how fast im aging 
i cant take it 
i cant

blink

lyrics

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think is for the best if you let this run its course
yea cuz everything has a purpose and im safe i swore
that id keep myself away from harm no matter what
even if its not what i want
told myself that id protect you from all pain
even if thats me sometimes
im stepping through mines
you dont like the person laying next to you right now
baby you dont gotta lie
but i love you id give up anything for you
that includes getting high
i could die right now in the place im in
with my head rested on your thigh
right here where i lie
im drowning trapped under ice
and her soft words become a foreign language
this time of night
and her butterflies turn to pure anguish
when i have to say goodbye
you really are my best friend
ill love you till i die
and ill love you till the very end
but im just happy you're here for the ride

cuz those lazy days dont feel so lazy at all
with you and my friends here i promise that i wont fall
turn the beer into a natural disaster make a tornado waterfall
but still you aint picking my calls up
cuz i aint been sober in a while
me and this drink like best friends
but he hates me im just in denial
remember back in the day
in the back of the car i was smoking on white owls
yea im a night owl
i just need a night out
think i just need a quick break so this cigarette feel like a timeout
maybe i just need to lie down
or maybe i just need to go outside
but this blunt knock me out like a takedown
you gotta crouch down just to see my eyes
she really want to know where i am now
maybe ill come see you if i got time
and i really wish i couldve been your lighthouse
maybe i did help you in different life
i really cant tell where i am now
but grey smoke covers up purple skies
and even when the studio close down
ill still love you till the day i
oh i cry blood
i cry tears of joy
i cry tears for you

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think its for the best if you let this run its course

my best friend (jacob vallen)

prod. weepings

You don't need me, like I need you
You don't see me, Like I see you
~
I feel like I don't know you anymore
I'm not important to you
Tell me what the fuck to change so I could be perfect to you
I remember when she was the person I'd confide in
Nowadays learned to suffer in the silence
~
late nights on facetime turned to where the fuck did my time go
Crossed lines I'm crosseyed Imma drown my pain in this merlot
Each time i'm over you, you comin back, show your new tats with a photo
this Push and pull is intoxicating I love it,  pretend I don't tho
~
I don't know where I went wrong
I just want to feel like I belong
Everywhere I go I feel like I'm a burden
Pop a couple pills and mix it with the burbon
When I'm off these drugs feel like a different person
She pull my heart from out from chest just like she was a surgeon
~
You don't need me, like I need you
You don't see me, Like I see you
~
late nights on facetime turned to where the fuck did my time go
Crossed lines I'm crosseyed Imma drown my pain in this merlot
Each time i'm over you, you comin back, show your new tats with a photo
this Push and pull is intoxicating I love it,  pretend I don't tho

u don't need me like I need u

lyrics:

show me how to speak
can u show me how to breathe
again, because darling i can see
everything you done to me

maybe then you'll learn
how it feels ur skin to burn
alive, so please dont u dare and turn
to someone else while ive been hurt

by person to claim to love me
by the girl who promised to stay
so where are you now
where are you
somewhere far away
so maybe when u come
you finally be done
but for now
but for now you won

my love, my love, i fear
ur touch i longed for years
my love, my love, my dear
the feelings that i feared
so where are you now
where are you now
somewhere far, far away
so where are you now
where are you now
i lost that girl in may 

show me how to speak
show me how to breathe
again, because darling i can see
everything you done to me
and maybe then you'll learn
enough to learn me
and maybe then you'll learn
enough to know my hurt

the girl was lost in may

prod by me and jacob vallen

wont eat for a while
my stomaches been aching
and im not myself 
not as of lately
few months ill heal right? im hardly inpatient
its not feeling real, counting cracks in the pavement
takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now
 
dont tell me "people change" like you look down on me
you always said "its nothing" its alot to me
started turning heads, wont look back at me 
was just more of the same a little differently
giving nothing back 
its not important now
things u take for granted 
let my anger out 
i just cant grasp it
nah, its not important now

takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now

for a while

Produced by cabernett

Lyrics

| 305.KESE |

I love you, say you love me
I trust you, say you trust me
This far, this far I go
This far, this far we go

Found out you don't love me
Crying, I feel something
Lying, you lying, you lie
Lying, you lying, you lie

In the back of my head I already know you inside out
You really had to think I wouldn't find out
That you cheated, found you fucking on different niggah
Couldn't believe it

In the back of my mind I wanna take my life
I got too many people that's depending on me
If it wasn't for them I would be gone lowkey
It's more than life niggah, niggah you don't know me

I been fighting since I came out the womb
No I don't wanna really open no closed wounds
All I'm tryna do is retighten these screws
Lord please give me a sign so my mind won't lose

| unknxwn. |

You don't love me but I love you
You don't trust me I still trust you
With all of my heart
Baby, please don't go too far

Baby, please don't let me fall apart
Baby, I can't take this anymore
She was everything that I needed
But it's too bad that she left me bleeding

Love all that I need but you don't wanna be here with me anymore
What did I do so wrong that made me have to lose you?
Swear I thought it was forever...me & you
Everything that I ever did, I won't ever do that shit again for nobody
All I ever wanted was you to love me
I won't ever know what I did for you to crush me

| 305.KESE |

I love you, say you love me
I trust you, say you trust me
This far, tis far I go
This far, this far we go

Found out you don't love me
Crying, I feel something
Lying, you lying, you lie
Lying, you lying, you lie

for a while

evergarden