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You wanna die so bad and I don’t wanna argue with you
I’d like to do that to but I have stuff to deal with, it keeps me
From being fucking faggot, I still have a mom and something
Don’t do retarded shit or you’ll be fag and hell waits for you
x2

I’m a coward I don’t know how to fight
Thanks to my friends I turned out alright
Being naive shit taking every stupid bite
Mom was right I shouldn’t walk outside midnight
Every day at work I just wanna kill myself
I mean why would anyone do that to themselves
I mean working’s dumb and I’m useless shit
And I hate you if you can't admit that

As my friend sang: “I’ve got no guts”
I’ll calm myself, I won’t have the cuts
Posing online, scrolling reddit cats
Staring at my dumb SoundCloud stats
I think you’re dumb if it’s not enough for you
Find a girl, send her I love you
Though you’ll get cancelled, you’re a creep
I know you care lol, you’re a dweeb

I’m fucking incel hyper pop or punk or I don’t give a shit
I wanna scream my lungs off but I’m fucking retard and I can’t
I rot inside as I wish people worse and whatnot like a rat
And I’ll despise you when you say you don’t like me (or stuff like that)

Wanna be nice but I turn up rude
You think I’ve got a fucked up attitude
Sometimes I do, but usually don’t
Ignorant Russian community zone
When I make beats I feel like a princess
Pink vans, pink shirt, heteroresistance
Then I upload and feel non-existent
I don’t give a fuck, I keep my persistance

Ты лютый кретин когда глушишь алкашку
На рейве с солями и мозг просто в кашку
Зато в инстаграме девушка няшка
Я Россиянин, страна моя - Рашка
Я Россиянин, страна моя - Рашка
Я Россиянин, страна моя - Рашка
Я Россиянин, страна моя - Рашка
Я долбоёб, мне не дали бумажку

Ты хочешь сдохнуть, не могу тебя обвинять
Но чтоб ты понимал, ты не один такой устал существовать
Ты никому не объясняешь ничего и говоришь
Что каждый хочет слышать, а потом наверное грустишь

incel hyperpop or punk or I don't give a

felonyx_l

i know you see the good in me
but sometimes it feels like a deceit
and i know deep down i'm always gonna be incomplete

so if it's self-destructive then fuck it
i'm just sick of feeling nothing
made a promise to myself but to be honest i don't trust it
wish i was less of a crab in a bucket
'cause when you're confident it makes me wanna block you
if you don't need me then i don't want you
told myself i'd change but the message never got through
used to share the pain but now i don't have the heart to

can't get back the part of me that felt your feelings
can't make a sound but my mind is screaming

i don't want what's best for you, i just want codependence
i don't wanna hurt you with the truth so i'll repress it
try to fight the ennui but i seem pretty defenceless
used to love so hard but now i feel so apathetic

i'm way too shy to ask for help
i'd sooner die than fix myself
i miss when i would think of you and it would make me melt

can't get back the part of me that felt your feelings
can't make a sound but my mind is screaming
after all these years i just feel so defeated
when i say i love you i wish i believed it

i don't want what's best for you, i just want codependence
i don't wanna hurt you with the truth so i'll repress it
try to fight the ennui but i seem pretty defenceless
used to love so hard but now i feel so apathetic

APATHETIC (prod. Pure Anxiety) [demo]

Internal Logic

getting hella checks
while my haters getting rekt
you bet i’m boutta flex
make these egirls wanna sext
boutta get some head
guillotine on deck
scene queen on my neck
fuck her face and fuck the feds

black hair, blackpilled, it is such a cruel world
make it look like suicide when i’m done with you girl
omega uprising and you’re on my hitlist
say you wanna die, i respect your wishes
they love to hate me, might go ER
put these Chads and Stacies in the ER
i’m so tired of these bros and bitches
fuck my life, i’m about to finish

tricking women into feeling safe with me
they believe i won’t be another rapey AGP
tryna rearrange some guts, even on the HRT
hit me up kawaii sluts, pinky swear i aim to please

socks over my knees, Miku on my tee
emo shawty, she know ima hit it raw XD
infertile and virginal but she still think i’m sexy
loli swag, these normalfags just don’t get me

betas pay a fee for the pictures i get sent for free
my main bitch act childish like melanie
if you got decent self-esteem baby you’re dead to me
but trust me i’m just insecure not predatory

might taint everything good with my jealousy
keep it lowkey but these hoes’ll be the death of me
nothing personal but you’ll probably get left on seen
unless i’m tryna fuck or like your work enough to send a beat
yeah i’m a pathetic apathetic creep
28 but i should’ve died by like 17
either way people gonna cringe at my memory
then again i’m sure they’ll be quick to forget me

L3ft 0n $c3n3 (prod. Dead Yami)

shoutout maya love u bro (even if ur british)

fwuppy hatemyself4u (Sad Rave Girl Mix)

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unspeakable

letter to u

Shameless

Hello (Adele Cover)

god made me from shit and mud
my brain is fucked and there's no saving it
feeling pretty useless and weird
i just need to give back or something  
Im waiting to get killed; downtown cleveland in the snow at night
maybe then i can fucking chill, close my eyes and not see every reason I shouldn't be here 
every reason i shouldn't be here 

i hope my family is gonna be okay without me 

i'll nvr be ur girl, i'll always be gross thoughts and thick scars and dark parts
god, i'm so fucking gross, i'm so fucking weird, I can't wait to go home

srry i threw up on ur bed

pronounced "eunuch"

my production / main account: @sadfem

APATHETIC (prod. Pure Anxiety) [demo]

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