enjoy <3

lyrics: 

@1drms
crystal clear
and i see through all their faces
yea whats wrong w me
i cant ever win those races
yea that molly got me tweakin
cant erase it
and they keep on steady lookin at my face yea

i always win yea
bitch yea u cant fight back
#goc up on my shirt yea we up next
all these bitches want a feat
they cant cop that
broke ass bitches in dms
i cant stand that

@ssayou
Icy pistol on my hip, new Mercedes.
Ion rlly wanna talk but u make me
Poppin opioids like im 80
How inside ur mind would protray me
Why you always lookin to betray me 
Having ppl thinkin that im crazy

crystal clear +sayou (suzu)

prod @hartfxlt

thank u 4 all the love
ep @ 100 followers

Lyrics:
every single day i swear it feels the same 
goin thru the motions in a cycle i cant break 
swear 2 god i jus wanna b ok 
without u by my side my life turns grey 
stayin up all nite till i see the sunrise 
girl it shyne so bright like the look in ur eyes 
without u by my side something doesnt feel right 
stayin up all nite tyna ease my mind 

with these thoughts in my brain
girl i swear i feel insane 
its this summer time love 
baby girl u kno its right 
i cant fall asleep when ur not here by my side 
when ur not here swear it doesnt feel right 

girl i kno u kno i havent been the best 
come lay w me baby lets get some rest 
hope u kno im tryin baby girl its for the best 
sittin all alone w these thoughts in my head 

everytime u lie my hear breaks deep inside 
girl im stayin up all nite tryna make things right 
girl i gotta get away i cant stay another day 
spread my wings and ill leave this place 


spread my wings and ill leave this place 
cant stay like this not for another day 

every time u walk thru the door i adore 
its like u cast a spell that my heart cant ignore 
tryna get how i feel in my head 
out 2 u so that  u can understand 
i get so tongue tied when i look in ur eyes 
its like ur castin a spell n i swear i cant think right 
deep in ur arms girl i swear that i feels right 
makin me hold onto u with all my might 
wanna stay right here w u for my whole life
now im wishin i could just stop or just freeze time 
so we could just live out this moment our whole life 
so the joy would never stop n the love will never end 

so the joy would never stop n the love will never end
so the joy would never stop n the love will never end

for the best (hartfxlt)

"seen what happens" produced by @luckeyknows & @prodjayysoul

Performed/Written by @counterxo

seen what happens

seen what happens (luckey + jayysoul)

@21js @chromecrystals

love it when i hear you talk
no i dont wanna see you walk away
no i dont wanna send you off
no i dont wanna see it all decay
its okay
girl its okay
im fine if you move on
you can talk to me any day
ill be fine
just dont remind me
or my unrequited feelings start inside me
but its not the right time
took your heart will you take mine?
and even if you leave me be ill be fine
ill be fine

its okay youre not in my way
ill call you anyway
miss you so every day
girl its okay
its okay
girl its okay
when im not with you time flies ill be missing you

time flies by will you be by my side?
when it all goes wrong girl will u make things right?
ill try my hardest just to reach out to you
ill call your name but it wont be the same

it's okay prod 21 & chromecrystals

hey i made the beat for once :P

ft. https://soundcloud.com/drewalongtheglare

ִֶָ 𓂃˖˳·˖ ִֶָ ⋆★⋆ ִֶָ˖·˳˖𓂃 ִֶָ

[https://soundcloud.com/ritsuzuki]

im feeling numb tonight
i know it all cause i died too much
i dont wanna live again
its like last night
yeah
stay by my side
we'll be alright yeah

"its not that bad"
its exactly what they told me
im feeling sad
and im missing, i miss the old me
you'll never get me like you always do
im always losing
yeah ill kill myself and then ill kill you too!!

yeah my head is screwed on wrong
i said ill be okay, ill be fine!
its alright,
ill see you in my eyes
dont look at me in the face, when i die
ill cry alot, when the suns in my eyes
"go and make some friends"
its what they say to me
i find it hard to talk
slipping from reality
always seem to fuck it up
i cant change at all
fuck my life i think im giving up!

[https://soundcloud.com/drewalongtheglare]

Said I won't lie, you told me it's all my fault
Why can't you realize I don't wanna get involved
Take a step back, I think that you've had enough
I'll take the pen but I don't think I could write my wrongs

Are you sure you wanna go that way?
Insecure you've always stayed that way
I can't bring myself to take the pain
I was wrong, some things just never change :(

((ritsu chorus loops twice))

giving up +drew (me)

song with @akura1 next on @afterstoryx
@decago

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ill be dead by the morning
i hope that u find me,,
the dismembered pieces 
& parts of my body,,,,

u say that u cut me
i think that u scarred me
i want u to need me
i want u to want me!!!!

tell me did i cut too deep?
or cut too slow...
the bonds i break
are the bonds i know,,,,

tell me if u wear my skin
or breathe my soul
my heartstrings beat
and my blood runs cold

and its death till we parted
all that i see is all that i wanted

know u hate when i leave 
but u love when im walkin

its a murder to meee
got ur heart in a locket

did i cut too deep,,? (decago)

prod @hartfxlt n @kyoakyo

ep very very very very soon @  100 followers 
thank u all 4 all the love 

Lyrics:
girl ik u said u wanna try again 
think we’re holdin on 2 somethin 
we’re just playin pretend 
baby ion rlly wanna hurt again 
filled the holes in my heart 
now ur pressin restart 

got this pain in my head 
i jus wanna lay in bed 
n pretend u nvr said 
that u wanted me again 
tellin lies up 2 ur eyes 
kno we wont make it thru the nite 
b4 u go n wanna fkn pick a fight 

again n again how u say u changed 
pushed me so far away 
stuck up in ur ways 
theres a distance between us 
its not good 4 the heart 
u put a wall up between us 
tryna tear it apart
feel ashamed 2 say i felt it from the start 
n now u play the victim w a broken heart 
now u kno u cant go back 
cant press restart 
still got this pain in my chest from ur hollow heart 

from ur hollow heart 
got this pain in my chest from ur hollow heart 
got this pain in my chest from ur hollow heart 
got this pain in my chest from ur hollow heart 

ik u said u wouldnt do it again 
u do this over n over 
think its time 2 end 
cant play the fool 
no i wont pretend 
tried 2 turn a blind eye 
though u were my friend 

i put my trust in another 
wind up hurting again
put ur pain inside me burdens on my chest 
left me heavy hearted i cant sleep at night 
sayin prayers 2 the moon swear it feel so right 
swear it shyne so bright like the look in ur eyes
i heard u say im sorry its not fine this time 

all those words that u said 
they bounce around in my head 
no i cant play pretend u rlly fked up again 
i swear u push me n push me till i fall off my edge 
i dont think we could go back 
no we could nvr b friends 
when i lay in my bed ur all i hear in my head 
ur words they cut so deep they left me cryin again

hollow heart (hartfxlt + kyoa)

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/track/5guLDKC32GRVJWMDytFq3t?si=2ec32baf918a4187
♡♡

hey everyone, i'm happy you're taking the time to read this rn <3 i've been needing a place to talk about some things, and i thought a song like this would be perfect .. so ..

back in late 2023, when i started making music with my voice (i've been making music since like 2021 LOL..), i was a completely different person compared to who i am now. i was so terrified of publishing my first song. i almost deleted it and gave up on my voice the morning after. i'm so, so glad i didn't though. am i happier today? i think so? to be honest, i'm not completely sure, but i'm okay with that. let's just see what the future of my music sounds like~ ty for listening btw, it's always been you hit 200 plays the other night which is the most i've had here.. i truly appreciate it..

i've always been a shy/socially anxious boy. in elementary school i always got sick before school. my math teacher was the worst.. LOL. so condescending to little kids.. that must be a sad existence. but i get it. being a teacher has to be a hard job. dealing with other ppls kids nearly everyday, teaching them things you're not even passionate about. all while barely being paid a livable wage. that's the worst. .. but why take that out on me..?

back in middle school i was paired with these two girls in my class for one of those valentines day activities. randomly they told me they both liked me. i had a huge crush on one of them too LOL. i kinda just. didn't know how to react and pretended not to hear them. i still think about it to this day. i hope they're doing okay ;

back in 2020, with the lockdown and everything, i think that was the straw that broke the camels back. by 2021, i wasn't talking to anyone in person that wasn't family. if i'm being honest, it's still that way today. i don't have many irl friends. even the ppl at my school are too different. . or maybe i'm just overthinking it? am i sabotaging myself..?? .. no.. i for sure wouldn't get along with them ..

to be honest, i'm terrified of growing up. i'll be graduating high school scarily soon, and i feel so lost. do i go to college ? trade school ?? should i just go straight into working? no .. i don't want to disappoint my parents .. college is mandatory .. but it's so expensive! ., and degrees are barely worth anything these days because everything is so oversaturated .. but it's so valuable socially ..  but..

should i even be sharing this here? it's not very safe to be so open online to strangers like this .. it's kind of embarrassing too ..

waaah..! enough of scary real life stuff.. what are your favorite games?! my all time favorite is lies of p.. it's so amazing. if you like action rpgs please please play it !! i've beaten it about 6 times, and i still can't get enough .. the story, the world, the gameplay.. it's like a game specifically made just for me ..

what type of music do you like? ..this song maybe?? LOL. lately, i've been listening to a lot of febuary, key vs. locket, and back number. you should give those a listen .. i don't mean to dwell, but lies of p also has an amazing soundtrack..! seriously, go listen to the clear blue sky. it will change your life ..

ty for reading this jumbled mess .. i just felt like typing all of this out somewhere without burdening anybody .. ily ..

yearning in f# major

DONTTALK_rough

i been outside since 6am
you're in my mind im needing you here
sending a text right to your phone
high out my mind im not seeing clear
you could let me know if im letting you down
i can do better for you
i'll say it again bae i want you
you got me in my head oh ya
friends said im m.i.a. oh yea
its cus im happier with you
i like the way that you walked in
i like the way you did your hair
i like when we alone oh yea
i like when you get loud like oh yea
dont care if its not allowed oh ya
miss you when you're not around with me
feel so in love when you look in my eyes
tell me everything is gon be fine
think i need you like right here
feel like you know me like so well
i used to have some cuts so deep
now that you're here you helped me heal
sometimes i mess up yea i know
please be patient with me oh yea
i been outside since 6am
you're in my mind im needing you here
sending a text right to your phone
high out my mind im not seeing clear
you could let me know if im letting you down
i can do better for you
i'll say it again bae i want you
you got me in my head oh ya
friends said im m.i.a. oh yea
its cus im happier with you
i like the way that you walked in
i like the way you did your hair
i like when we alone oh yea
i like when you get loud like oh yea
dont care if its not allowed oh ya
miss you when you're not around with me
feel so in love when you look in my eyes
tell me everything is gon be fine
think i need you like right here
feel like you know me like so well
i used to have some cuts so deep
now that you're here you helped me heal
sometimes i mess up yea i know
please be patient with me oh yea

for the best (hartfxlt)

ex1t