i’ve had people do me wrong and i have wronged people
i can always forgive but i see myself as evil
i don’t know who i can trust
over time i’m losing fucks i can give but my attitude remains peaceful
why do people trust me i don’t even get it
in the end i always know that they gonna regret it
self-destructive but i’m trying to get it together
it’s been a minute since i’ve given this level of effort
i’m really trying my best but i’m a people pleaser
i look out for others more than me but i don’t get it either
sparing feelings never happened for me
but it was for the better cause i had to get it now the mix is cleaner
done relying on people they always disappoint
having expectations never helps and that’s what i avoid
felt like giving up when i was down began to get annoyed
now they finally listen but before they didn’t feel the boy 
i was losing my mind
i even left the place i live because i wanted to die
i had a couple people with me then i found out they lied
i had a couple things i didn’t need to see with my eyes
it had me wondering why

i’ve had people do me wrong and i have wronged people
i can always forgive but i see myself as evil
i don’t know who i can trust
over time i’m losing fucks i can give but my attitude remains peaceful

i don’t know how much more i can take
i got 10,000 hours invested
maybe not
but this is something that i do every day
so i can talk about my pain and leave it all on a page
because my brain is filling up i got a lot i could say
it’s overactive uncontrolled and something i can’t contain 
i think about the past then i slowly drift into space
i see reflections of an older me i’m hating my face
i’m learning over time how to live only in the moment
working at a dream plenty emotion that i’m holding
i got more of every aspect that i haven’t been showing
i’ve still never been so open
i been growing and i’m hoping that you notice 
imma do it for myself
yeah it’s sweeter that they doubted
now i get it for myself because the fires ignited
i love to prove people wrong it’s what inspires my writing
i’m mixing that with love for art with all my thinking in private

i’ve had people do me wrong and i have wronged people
i can always forgive but i see myself as evil
i don’t know who i can trust
over time i’m losing fucks i can give but my attitude remains peaceful
x2

do me wrong (prod. 4lexf)

Finishing the Job

a story of a boy, listen closely. some might say pt2 of 
“i hate myself” - thank you for the support 🖤 love you all

lxtinsheep - the story of a boy (boyfifty)

DIVINE EXPERIMENTS

---lyrics---

[soku]
(What if the sky is falling)
Oh baby girl, I thought you was my world
Now this shit gon hurt, (gon hurt)
So much, (so much)
I didn’t know you was like that
But I’ll take you right back
So stay inside my mental
And I’m fucking mental
But who fucking cares
On instrumentals
I make compare-isons
Girl are you dumb
And I’m going numb
But I swear I’ll bounce back
(I’m like that)
I don’t want
No I don’t wanna lose
I girl that’s just like you
Fuck that I just want you
It’s true

(Tell my fate for me
I don’t wanna get controlling
I don’t wanna get controlling
For you
Tell me baby, tell me baby please
What if the sky is falling
What if the sky is falling)

[lxst boy]
Te-te-text from you
Over my phone the "where you at boy?"
Face flushed, red cheeks
I can feel my heart soar
I can feel my chest close
Side effects of you so
Come and slide over for a movie on your iphone
Ay, guess I got an addiction
Gotta keep myself in check, take five intermission
You got eyes like interstellar, cause you know I'm on a mission
I got eyes like tunnel vision, you the one that I been missing

[soku]
I don’t want
No I don’t wanna lose
I girl that’s just like you
Fuck that I just want you
It’s true
(I don't wanna lose you)
I don’t want
No I don’t wanna lose
I girl that’s just like you
Fuck that I just want you
It’s true

I JUST WANT U W/ LXST BOY (prod. autrioly)

DIVINE EXPERIMENTS

---lyrics---

Yeah you took my heart and broke it
And left me here all alone
Yeah I’m just repeating the sample
Cause I’m tired and so cold
In a damp room, flooded, no light
In a cramp space that I don’t like
Got a knife in my side from the battle so close
The quarters were touching not even a ghost
Could fit through the particles ending they life
A journey, a path, a hidden delight
Over and over when we go again
Constantly spinning, I want it to end
Journey so beautiful found you and I
Like Izzie and Tasha we up in the sky
A castle in clouds, a porch at the end
Watching the universe caving in
Hold onto me darling I swear we alright
The one with the knife wasn’t you it was I
Over and over I’m telling these lies
So why you believe me when I start to cry
Fuck

Darling take me, darling break me
I’m, so sorry
Wasn’t true love, wasn’t you love
I’m, so sorry
Darling take me, wasn’t you love
I’m, so sorry

I've been faith, I've been faithful
I had you in my heart
But you broke it, I'm left here alone
Oh-Oh
Darling true love
Oh, oh
Darling take me, darling break me
I’m, so sorry
Wasn’t true love, wasn’t you love
I’m, so sorry
Darling take me, wasn’t you love
I’m, so sorry

TRUE LOVE (prod. autrioly)

Verse 
Something about this feels right but I wonder if it’s all in my head 
Chasing a dream I had to have you laying in my bed 

Resting your head upon my chest not tryna get sentimental 
Don’t wanna fuck this up again I know get temperamental 
Trying hard to change my ways and you’ve been influential 
Yeah cuz I was once so empty but with you I feel essential 

Stole my heart kiss my face 
Sold my soul just gave it away 
The best I feel is in your embrace 
You’re my anything and everything you set me straight 

Hook 
Yeah I lost my way 
You led me home 
Yeah I found myself 
Stranded in the cold 

But then you I swear
You made me whole 
You made me whole
You made me whole 

Mackk Verse

Hook 
Yeah I lost my way 
You led me home 
Yeah I found myself 
Stranded in the cold 

But then you I swear
You made me whole 
You made me whole
You made me whole

Sentimental (prod. mackk)

Through With You

@exposing.toxicc - the man i am (p. Jacob Vallen)

Come back to me prod.backyard

LYRICS

How are we here?
The days months and years
Lookin back on how far we've come
And not just on one
Flyin by like a bird on the wind
And it's all a blur can't remember a thing

Mothers and daughters! Fathers and sons!
Where are we going? From where have we come?
Remembering all of the pain and the love
Through all the time we spent under the sun

A mother is making what her daughter will be
See a man through the eyes that her mother would see
And a boy will turn out as his father would too
Doing to his lover seeing how his father would do

A girl who's becoming the woman she would
Is better from the good that her father did
And a man who can feel what his mother would feel
Will hold his love closer than all other people

But the heart of a daughter and heart of a son
Built on the love and the time of the two or the one
Can be broken by a deed or a word
And close to another in not being heard

Fathers and daughters mothers and sons
Where are we going? From where have we come?
Remembering all of the pain and the love
Through all the time we spent under the sun

So give to your daughters!
And give to your sons!
And show them the love that won't come undone
All the time that you spend with them under the sun
Then you'll see who you are

Reflecting

Reflecting in them

It's All Blur

Buy It's All Blur

Lifetime lie (Acoustic).mp3

turning my emotions into lyrics.

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