what if i wake up one day and this shit is not what i had wanted?
what if i do this shit for nothing? it'll all be so forgotten
what if the seasons change and by the spring the fruit has all been rotten?
the peaks in life are so infrequent its so hard i want to stop them
walkin in the woods im bout to see you in the next life
ignorance is never bliss we all still have a half life
when you made it so covalent it was hard 2 act right
when i was with u it wasnt even fuckin half right
now im demon time
now i can see whats really mine
wake up damn im so starving
i aint been eating right
this is all in my movie with every scene i write
keep it all locked up
you wont have to see me cry

what if i wake up one day and this shit is not what i had wanted?

whether or not i want this shit its fucking mine
whether or not u cuff that bitch her soul is mine
the person that u was in love with fucking died
im so faded my eyes well up like im cryn

WHETHER OR NOT I WANT THIS SHIT ITS FUCKING MINE (Uh Huh)
WHETHER OR NOT YOU CUFF THAT BITCH HER SOUL IS MINE (Uh Huh)
THE PERSON THAT YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH FUCKING DIED (Uh Huh)
IM SO FADED MY EYES WELL UP LIKE IM CRYINNNGG

if you wanted me so bad whyd u throw me out like trash, huh?
one too many times i felt a knife slide in my back huh
u just want me for the benefits but not the bad stuff
its a package deal baby you kno im finna act up
this shitll make a mf do a fuckin backflip
smoking on some gas it got me doin fuckin madlibs
i got pulled over by sum 12 i hope i stashed it
cuz if we get caught then i might peel off into traffic

what if i wake up and this shit is not what i had wanted?

ungrateful

Corpse in Grey

Black out Brown Hen

produced by cxrter & tahtx

lyrics:
(notahero)
heavy snow is pouring outside the window
u know exactly what u want in life
but i don’t know
but i’ll carry on
and i’ll love u if you're here or you're gone
i’ll find u thru the crowd
she don’t know i’m hurting cuz i barely make a sound
this hole i’ve dug so deep
i can’t see through out the ground
u can find me in the lost and found
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

(backyard beetle)
yeah
as the candle burns real low
the light begins to show
you may be gone but your presence still glows
feasting on fragments and memories of old
i live in a wasteland i ain't never seen the snow 
even then I can't help but feel it's so cold
cause all of my warmth came from you
what am i supposed to do 
when my systems shut down

(notahero)
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

christmas was never this cold (cxrter x tahtx)

I thought I needed you
I thought I'd bleed for you
I thought I'd rip open my heart so I could be with you

girl I never needed you
why did I bleed for you
ripped open my heart to give a fraction of the world to you
fraction of the world to you

no I'm not okay
but I'll say that I am in the doorway
I don't ever wanna get in your way
I just wanna be with you who cares about the foreplay

killing my vitals slowly
how did I get so angry
ripping my hair out with my claws
I don't wanna be here like at all

time kills everything I thought I'd never see you again
withered away as all the termites ate at my skin
everybody said I fucked up when I told them the truth
maybe I am just a suck up to the plot of the news

dont wait for me
two blankets in the trunk of the 95 pontiac babygirl that's a must

oh cant you see
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all so we can still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

can we still be us

can we still be us (secre x heyrick)

produced by mix

https://open.spotify.com/album/63yzdAg14jbopbCC1xCnSi?si=UbgFj3qxSgCvR-MNVJG2GQ

enjoy <3

lyrics-
but why? why is it we have to be so afraid of 
𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑?
are we only alive because we dont wanna die?
i wonder.. does something good ever come from 
𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐?

throwin words out there who do you think you are?
send another text bitch betchu get a new scar
talk alot of shit for someone as small as you
leavin me behind and now your actin brand new

he dont even know, i put on a show
watch his ego grow, now he lyin on the floor

the more that you try the more that youll die
turn around slowly and look me in the eye, yea
talkin all this shit boy you aint tough you should quit
ill burn you to the ground man you wont make it out of here

he don't even know, you're repulsive and it shows
hes bleedin out slow, i watch his life go

𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑-

i watch his life go-
go
go a-a-a-a-a-a

oh oh oh a-a-a oh
ah-ah oh a-a-a oh
bleedin out slow
𝐆𝐎-

the more that you try the more that youll die 
𝖒𝖎𝖝
turn around slowly and look me in the eye, ye
talkin all this shit boy you aint tough you should qu-
ill burn you to the ground man you wont make it out of here 

i wont fall, not so soon
i wont fall, not so soon
im past it all, through the universe
im past it all, through the universe

ONCE AGAIN IM AT THE TOP
I LOOK TO MYSELF WHEN ALL GOES WRONG
AND I TRY TO COPE WHEN I WRITE THESE SONGS
I KEPT TO MYSELF FOR OH SO LONG

ASCENDING NOW LIKE I SHOULD
TRY TO STAY CLOSE TO THE EARTH
FIGHTING ALL WAS IN THE PAST
REPULSIVE SOUL, WENT THROUGH ALL AND NOW IM LAST

repulsive

produced by R3DQX and discent 
mixed my epitomeoffailure and teddyboi
mastered by teddyboi

lyrics

why couldn’t you tell me you went ghost
when i ask around no one ever knows
where you went you didn’t even leave a note
hard to breathe when my throat remains closed 

i been choking on my words and i suppose 
that if your gone imma double up my dose
so if you’re lookin at my face im in repose
imma raise my glass high and give a toast

a toast to the ones who never made it far 
a toast to the ones who couldn’t find their start
i still feel i’m there and im going nowhere

these cobblestone roads will guide you in the dark 
know you’re not alone with this light from a spark 
someone will care again just hold on till the end

(teddyboi)

really tryna make sense of this
dead bodies turn to slitting wrists
and i ain’t got no time for that
i ain’t got no time for that
‘cause i got a lot inside my mind
and i don’t want to waste all your time
baby i think that im curse
‘cause im crawling at the end of my life
lately there’s a lot going on inside my mind
and baby i don’t want to lie to you
i think i need some time away from everything
to try and heal myself
work on my head
worry about my health ‘cause
all i ever do is drink the memories away
until im covered in my vomit
emptying my brain 
the liquor’s healing me but my body’s giving up
‘cause i don’t know what i can take
and im close to seeing god
lift my facade
im scared oh my god
she touches on my scars
they make us who we are
but i can’t lift your fingerprints
(off my skin)

why couldn’t you tell me you went ghost
when i ask around no one ever knows
where you went you didn’t even leave a note
hard to breathe when my throat remains closed 

i been choking on my words and i suppose 
that if your gone imma double up my dose
so if you’re lookin at my face im in repose
imma raise my glass high and give a toast

a toast to the ones who never made it far 
a toast to the ones who couldn’t find their start
i still feel i’m there and im going nowhere

these cobblestone roads will guide you in the dark 
know you’re not alone with this light from a spark 
someone will care again just hold on till the end

a toast w/ teddyboi (R3DQX x discent)

JUMPOUT

Withdrawals (prod SVI)

love and everything in between. <3
thank you to all my friends who helped me produce this EP and thank you to my girlfriend who inspires me to be my best self.

a toast w/ teddyboi (R3DQX x discent)

epitomeoffailure

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