INTRO:
promise you won’t forget me
i’ve been feeling so empty
is this the end of tonight
am i saying goodbye 
for the very last time
i don’t want to rewind
i can’t go on living this lie

CHORUS:
oh where did the time go?
you said you’d be back tomorrow
i took your lead i followed (followed)
straight back to my sorrows (sorrows)
so i’ll ask you again where did the time go (where did it go)

POST CHORUS:
you left me here defenseless
i’ve never 
been so fuckin helpless
whatever
you gotta be so desperate 
to even turn to me for pleasure

SENDFLOWRS VERSE:
for pleasure i can’t lie i’m fucked 
droolin from my mouth like everytime we talk
you always told me i can look but i can’t touch
wait that’s the weed man i think i’m finally done
erase my name from your phone
you better
tell him straight and never come home
i’m gonna
tear his flesh from the bone
and i might 
catch a case you made me so cold (so cold)
you fake bitches
i’m a sinner
i stay sinning 
i dream of you but i’m not the one you’re kissing
like baby come over here lemme show you what you missing

OUTRO:
see my head spin
round and round
i just wanna get out of this town
look at my face and you’ll see a frown
but don’t be surprised 
when you see my wounds are open wide
don’t cry tonight
with your ocean blue eyes

spotify!

where did the time go ft. sendflowrs (wisssery x jolst)

Lyrics:
im so sorry that i dont know what to say
and you know i do my best to try and be there every day
im fucking piece of shit and thats all that ill really say
cause im too proud to admit that i will never be okay

i never thought itd come to this i always thought we'd be just fine
i never thought youd think of leaving cause you said youre always mine
but i dont blame you im a fuck up and i have no fucking spine
im not a man im just a boy i know youre sick of how i whine

i always thought id be okay to be right there for someone else
but im too fucked in the brain to show you how i really felt
i know it hurt when i was absent and made you feel by yourself
i try my hardest but i know it aint enough to even help

cause i fuck up every day
and i dont know what to say
only when i feel too much, but then it goes away
and i really hate the way
that im probably all the same
even worse than all people that you ran from anyway

fuck
what do i do
im pushing everyone away but i could never say i thought itd be you

we're fucked
all because of me
i wanna be just what you need but i got issues in my head you cant see

"so why dont you tell me?"
never learned how to speak
im trying to believe
we'll be okay after this mess

Sorry

sorry

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall 

go to school and come back everyday
n i haven't spoke to u in days 
shit idrk what to say
but i promise you that everything is still the same 

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall

imma crack my skull on the floor (ten50)

biteki visuals: https://youtu.be/ohfrtOuQ9WY

so take your roses
and throw em 
felt the same since
last october
i’m a junkie 
you’re too sober
u don’t want me, girl
my heart polar 

i’m not that kid anymore 
in some ways maybe not others 
i take 2 pills hit the floor
percocets make me throw up
we don’t get on
now i’m older
you’re so wiser
and too sober 
different life so 
i can’t hold ya
she’s callin me 
i’m too fucked up for this 

*voicemail*

i’m too fucked up for this
gotta hang up the call
throw my phone in the bin 
i can’t handle it all
every time that you sin
throw my faith at the wall
got a devilish grin
not a halo involved 
in this mess that were in 
i can’t be who you want 
but i’ll try to be him
i got stones in my heart
hear it when i walk in 
burnt the rose watch it fall
as you tear off your skin
to reveal your horns
and the hell that you bring 

so take your roses
and throw em 
felt the same since
last october
i’m a junkie 
you’re too sober
u don’t want me, girl
my heart polar 
x2

polar (jolst x remghost)

produced by jolst
featuring skele 

sendflowrs:

(it’s so frustrating 
the way u say that 
u know what u want
and u still do not want me)

now it’s the winter
and it’s so cold
she told me she always felt safe
wearing my coat 
i’m still a loser 
always alone ): 
and those big brown eyes 
they always freeze up all my bones 
she shows a smile
and says “come home”
i think the day that i die
i’ll finally grow 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave 

(skele)

but i’m here 
and you’re there 
washing out blood dried up in ur hair 
baby don’t keep calling me i don’t care 
going out bad 
like so sad
hurting me till i crash
you’re a tumor 
need to cut you out 
but i’m here 
n you’re there 
n you tell me that it’ll be okay 

(skele & sendflowrs)
i don’t care 

(sendflowrs) 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave

tumour, pt 2 (w/ skele) (jolst)

where u at?

Every day smoke (prod. rksthegoat)

i'll be ok this time

Imma go and leave the house again i got my backbone
Watch the ground shatter glass when i walk up on
People only call me when there something always wrong
I see distant memories creepin when i pass by
Hope its the last time
Stay connected like its land line
Watch my footing cause im surrounded by land mines
Never gonna trip cause im allways on stand by
I got ice up on my wrist you know this shit took time

Pills in my system only reason I would fall
Error in my coding so i always reinstall
They always try to stop me but im breaking threw these walls
Still hopin for that call

every night
baby i used to see u bout like every night
now im like
are we alright
damn
i just hold my head and dig my feet into the sand
man i miss my home land
u look like an angel in this candle light ya
the news had said that storm out west been heading over here
we sit in front this fire waiting for it to appear
while my eyes roll back into me as shes thumbing thru my hair
exhausting all my energy into the summer air
i swear i had this in me way before i was aware
sheath this field when im in public cause i hate when people stare
this aura seeping out of me whenever im feeling scared
black clovers
covering my books
im tainted
i levelled before i was ready now its rage i shoulda waited
rippin thru my mind i separate from what i hated
i live in constant fear of my projection in my basement

Everyday thinkful to god that i made it 22 
I be mixin all my pills and with my liquor to
She be fuckin good im keepin all the answers inside the coop
She tell me that’s she wasted i tell her im am to
Markings on her body 
She levitate the room
In my mind i tell her that ill see her soon
I be writing scriptures in these pages
Witth you know i keep it weighted 
Hated
Only show me love when your jaded
New beginnings but im feeling outdated 
Comin home to see nobody waited
Oblivious is stated

Standby ft sewerperson (Prod. APT.102)

produced by @metlast
featuring at @ihatepromnight

https://soundcloud.com/lottaheart/broken-in-two
https://soundcloud.com/ihatepromnight/restart-prodmetlast


@lottaheart:
broken in two
but i keep falling for you
that's how i know that its true
you say you want me
i want you too

baby come with me
just take my hand
i can tell you really wanna dance
if only you could give me one more chance
cause you're the only one that understands me

as long as i have you i dont need no plan b
tell you i want you and you say that you want me
hold you so close when i'm feeling lonely
you're so sweet baby you remind me of candy

so sweet
you're so sweet whenever you're around
i want you to hold me down



@ihatepromnight:
yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

self destructive-
type of person
my demons chase me,
they fucking lurking
i'm sick and tired-
of fucking hurting
will i ever be better than a burden?

yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

where did the time go ft. sendflowrs (wisssery x jolst)

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