BANGERS

it's ok

prod by hira (:
lyrics:

we never know when's the last time and that's scary 
only if u knew how much it scares me 
to know that maybe tomorrow you won't be besides me
everyday i do the same 
i'm collapsing to my addictions 
the nictonine has become a part of my system
i cry at night~
i cry everynight~

you don't really get it and i'm fine with that 
give me all ur love i swear ill make it last
tell me that u love me but u want him back
maybe u were everything i ever had

and the walls cave in around me 
hide away when they talk about me 
let it go you shouldn't care where i'll be 
i'm really nothing what u tryna see

i'm so fucking shy
why should i try 
how can i not cry 
when i am this shy 
lose my chances of socializing
lose my chances of making friends
lose my chances of socializing
lose my chances of making friends

sitting by my phone while I wait for you to call me
i can barely talk but im sure you’ll show me
and im so scared could you tell me slowly
only 3 words but they fill the whole sea

shy w/hiraeth

produced by pekarot

completely non profit

lyrics

she said hold me
but i cant promise ill feel it im seeing stars 
is it haunting
that theres no pain from a blade if its sharp enough
and the gauze sits tight over covered scars
but its damp with blood and it smells of rot
sweat soaked nights in a bricked out yard
with my carved up fingers spilling fat n tar
and im barely concious but ill never yawn
as i stare straight faced at this silent dawn
and im such a sucker for a pretty face
when she looks at me i just melt n place
signals sent are so badly mixed
as my head is empty like a bedroom sit
and i write these songs when im feeling sick
cause a state of panic is how i exist

so i numb myself and try to take away the things that make me care

dont pretend u were there

my heart beats heavy hidden in my chest
n i feel the blood flow out the wound in my neck
n ive said this before but ur face drags the air from my chest 
if u laid me down id do the rest
please do not fret

honestly? im still miserable
but its not ur fault, we were both involved
and i am not but a shit-stained mark
on her polaroids of a bedroom wall

so i sit and i just drink myself to death again for one more night

ima fuck up my life 

i just hate the fact im tired all the god damn time

bell's line of road (pekarot)

prod. canyouseetheghost x hero <3

Lyrics:

someday
it will be someday
and if i die after you i'll kill you one day
one day
maybe one day
shit'll work out
and life'll hit the right way
you'll lose me someday
it will be someday
and if i die after you i'll kill you one day
one day
maybe one day
shit'll work out
and life'll hit the right way

i'll explain to you
i'll explain to you
i'll explain to you
i'll explain to you

v: yea i have a question

h: no no no

v: i just kinda
it's so hard to get into somebody elses head
shit you might as well only have 4 of your senses 
fuck
or even 3

h: its art
its not music
at least that's how i see it
it's just me in an .mp3 file or .wav or whatever

h: i really don't think you could hurt me
even if you tried i don't think you could
you wouldn't be
you wouldn't be the first person to treat me like this
but i will make sure you're the last

(hero - lust snippet - unreleased as of right now)

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(EPITOME)

(nothing but to left to rot away for a long time cause you broke me down now i’m on the ground do you feel me now i don’t want to feel anything anymore)

what is this plain of existence?
i don’t really feel like i’m living
everyday seems like the same
and i’m left with nothing but the pain 
that you left me with 
do you know i’m on my knees
begging for you
just to come back to me

livin this life has left me feelin hollow
and i don’t really know if i’ll be here by tomorrow
you’ll probably need to dig in the dirt, in the burrows
just to find my body be prepared to feel the sorrow
when there’s nothing left of me
just lay my corpse underneath the trees

(SLENDR)

li-li-living in a forrest 
i can never forget 
your lies
i know that i’m cold
frozen and alone
could you come and save me please
i’m bleeding my skin is ripping
burning sensation
i love you but your hearts temptation
is getting to me

(HERO)

i’d rather not see your funeral given it’s easier that way
ok i liked dying once but the second time just wasn’t the same

piss off
i know that we’ll never be the same thing that you were
never that’s the only word that really scares me
but don’t worry i’m at peace with it now
i get over it quick cause i have to or i breakdown 

(and i can sense your intentions i don’t need to read your mind yet i’m fine with it and still i’ve never been that sure why)

(EPITOME)

(it’s getting to me as i watch you leave 
for the very last time and i’m saying goodbye)

say goodbye to the life
that we used to know
you did this you broke our home
sitting here frozen in snow (frozen in snow)
i don’t have a home

words from the broken w/ im_slendr & hero (sorrow bringer)

with @guardinmusic @i_x_t_a_i_l_s @sewerperson
prod and mixed: @jakkyboi and @lilpolearm

whatever it takes (feat. guardin & 9tails)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tW_QQpGjTUE

produced by jakkyboi
vocal, engineering : me

i fucked up

LONEWOLF

i fucked up

Please Don't Shoot

sasha killed himself

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FaUc_yX7Vaw

this song is for the fans
for the OG listeners
for the people who enable me to exist
love u all so much

words from the broken w/ im_slendr & hero (sorrow bringer)

epitomeoffailure (@eof404)