5/18/2024 3:38 AM

i dont wanna let u down
in this vacuum theres no sound
feed my self into the hounds
can we kiss and make it 
loud?

stab me with ur knife
stomache bleeds all night
take my life just twice
velvet tears and
why?

and white

if i was perfect - cry like velvet

prod husk

used to hate the conversations back when you told me you're so lonely
i remember crying when you called me your one and only
i've been paranoid and it's been rly hard for me to sleep
i would give the world if it meant that you would get out my dreams

used to hate the conversations back when you told me you're so lonely
i remember crying when you called me your one and only
i've been paranoid and it's been rly hard for me to sleep
i would give the world if it meant that you would get out my dreams

fuck a conversation, i rly can not feel empathy
i've been stripped of everything that made anything interesting
i've been so embarassed just to hear the way i fuckin speak
i'm so sorry, baby, sammy is just not the one you need

every time i try to talk, i always end up arguing
sabotage relationships, then i come back, try bargaining
i try to be someone, and i always fail pathetically
i don't even think that any of my friends believe in me

used to hate the conversations back when you told me you're so lonely
i remember crying when you called me your one and only
i've been paranoid and it's been rly hard for me to sleep
i would give the world if it meant that you would get out my dreams

used to hate the conversations back when you told me you're so lonely
i remember crying when you called me your one and only
i've been paranoid and it's been rly hard for me to sleep
i would give the world if it meant that you would get out my dreams

dreams @.@

inspiration from bea - sorry

whatever you want, 
i will get it for you.
there is blood on your hands,
from what you have done.
you think i want to be around this?
i want to leave when i can.
and i have been around this stuff for too long,
i want to go.
i have been with you for too long,
im going to go sometime tonight.

𝘴𝘰 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦.
𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵, 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘭𝘦𝘺.
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨.
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸.
𝘪 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦,
𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘥,
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘢𝘨𝘦,
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨.
𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦.
𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩.

whatever you want,
i will get it for you.
there is blood on your hands,
from what you have done.
you think i want to be around this?
i want to leave when i can.
and i have been around this stuff for too long,
i want to go.
i have been with you for too long,
im going to go sometime tonight.

blood on your hands

@novemblur

can you be my whole world
girl lets just see if this will work
i see you in a blur
idk your face idk your name
i know you know im hurt

i found another girl
cause love always just lurks

https://soundcloud.com/novemblur
when i have violent thoughts i gotta tellem no
i rlly fkn hate this one guy i know
i c him in the mirror everywhere i go
i swear my mental state is super fucking gross

can you be my whole world @novemblur

https://open.spotify.com/album/35XL6WpB9BqU3NDTFkmYmP?si=BD20aQLFSc6brX0hW5jVgQ
prod @steevlacy

pretty little loser with some stupid fucking thoughts
ima hang u in the forest, then ill let u fuckin rot
i got some drugs up in my pocket that my mom dont know i got
and ill slash u till ur dead if u ever do me wrong

and i fucking hate myself, like i fucking hate this song
cut my wrist until it bleeds, then i hit the fucking bong
i did you right
you did me wrong
like wtf is that ab ???
im "anorexic" your a BITCH
and u just want some FUCKIN CLOUT

lets make up, lets break up
what do u want from me ??

dont wanna make up, its the same stuff
baby just watch me bleed

lets make up, lets break up
what do u want from me ??

dont wanna make up, its the same stuff
baby just watch me bleed

pretty little loser with some stupid fucking thoughts
ima hang u in the forest, then ill let u fuckin rot
i got some drugs up in my pocket that my mom dont know i got
and ill slash u till ur dead if u ever do me wrong

and i fucking hate myself, like i fucking hate this song
cut my wrist until it bleeds, then i hit the fucking bong
i did you right
you did me wrong
like wtf is that ab ???
im "anorexic" your a BITCH
and u just want some FUCKIN CLOUT

(ALL PLATS) pretty little loser

2/14/25 <3    @@neofantasia

i'm living only
i'm still so lonely 
i got some thoughts i can't let that shit control me
i cannot go back to the start
i cannot break that shit apart 
everything i left for you had to leave it in the dark 
i cannot love you damn it's so hard
if i tear out my heart promise would you hold it 
i got some love but the problem is i can't show it
cause when i sense your touch my chest exploding 
everytime i think i go back to you
tired of holding back i can't hold this truth
and i gotta keep fighting cause i know that i can't lose 
i don't know what i am gonna do
yea i don't know 
i don't know what to choose
if i tear out my heart promise would you hold it 
i got some love but the problem is i can't show it
cause when i sense your touch my chest exploding 
everytime i think i go back to you
tired of holding back i can't hold this truth
and i gotta keep fighting cause i know that i can't lose 
i don't know what i am gonna do
yea i don't know 
i don't know what to choose
i don't know what i am gonna do
yea i don't know
i don't know what to choose

i don't know what to choose (neofantasia)

https://open.spotify.com/track/5xpMpeDWB6bPy2wxUD5oMD?si=yqG_ETIBRkOCbJbkAPGBtg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A5G4mr1GVdkuTTcED7Zj8Dz

prod me ft @revivle

@requiem-for-you:
wont talk to u again
cus i dont want u as a friend
i need u more than that
tell me that u love me while u hold my hand
and please
dont talk to me again
cus i can see where this all ends
ive seen it in my head
played a hundred times lying in my bed

when the raindrops patter
nothing matters
clear my head till the morning after
no words said in the hall where i passed her
pronounce me dead n call up the pastor

@revivle:
watch me as i fade away 
nothing ever stays the same 
leaving as i call your name 
why wont you just let me stay? 
did i ask for too much? 
you just leave me in the dust
but i’ll tiptoe behind you
you hate everything i do

say it wasn’t my fault
say it was for the better
i still have your sweater 
you know you’re just wrong
so just lay me to rest
cus you don’t need me anymore
but you know that i tried my best
i’m still here crying on the floor

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
when the raindrops patter
nothing matters
clear my head till the morning after
no words said in the hall where i passed her
pronounce me dead n call up the pastor
x2

raindrops w/ revivle

instrumental by @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
vocals by me 

my dreams might
maybe come true
one day ill be with you
words you said 
why did you choose
bite your words
then you'll chew

feels so good 
being alive
not thinking of 
when ill die 
why would i 
waste my time
sitting and cry
when i could enjoy
this gift of life

dreams of love

Throat Singing Dance + orchestral + world

Cosmic Weastern pt II

all boy in a room songs on plats soon follow me
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1xNqClMMymtSlbYNQLCTFG?si=FQ_Gc5eSQA-e8h2kGlQXHw
instagram https://www.instagram.com/justaboyinaroom/
prod michael harrison
your tears they follow me they make a trail of suffering girl :(
just fuck up my world
i bent over and hurled
dork boy you got some cute freckles
and you got some cute eyes
wanna fill my brain with metal
and do i need a reason why ?
looking purple in the face
man i need to get out of this place
fuck the human race
dont care bout a distraction
or all your dumb infractions
you know how much i hate asking
only escape is napping
uncertain what will happen
i dont get it at all
you know just how to make me cry
you know just how to get inside
perpetually walking to my demise
and its just like i dont mind

i don't know what to choose (neofantasia)

fatelasts