Chance Peña - In My Room

Church Bells

All I Ever Wanted

Inventing

Hate Myself Enough

There is so much wrong-
and far more to come before long,
.....and I can't put any of it right.
NO! I can't put any of it right.
.....Oh! I can't put any of it right.

I've believed that I might have
made a few more differences
in the whole of my long life.
But I've even failed to nail
the absolute safety of me.
I've failed to nail
the near safety of anybody.
And I still live in fear
.....in this so-called land of the free.

There is so much wrong-
and far more to come before long,
.....and I can't put any of it right.
NO! I can't put any of it right.
.....Oh! I can't put any of it right.

I've believed that I might have
made a few more differences
in the whole of my long life.
But I've even failed to nail
.....the absolute safety of me.
I've failed to nail
the near safety of anybody.
And I still live in fear
.....in this so-called land of the free.
.....in this so-called land of the free.

*

All I've really had is tears-
.....tears in increasing quantities.
All I've really had is tears-
.....tears in limitless quantities.
Failing.
.....Failing.
..........Failing to find hope.
I didn't know how to cope with
lakes of heartbreaking loneliness.
I didn't know how to cope with
lakes of heartbreaking loneliness.

Oh! I really need human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.
Oh! I still need human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.

All I've really had is tears-
.....tears in increasing quantities.
All I've really had is tears-
.....tears in limitless quantities.
Failing.
.....Failing.
..........Failing to find hope.
I didn't know how to cope with
lakes of heartbreaking loneliness.
I didn't know how to cope with
lakes of heartbreaking loneliness.

Oh! I really need human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.
Oh! I still need human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.

*

There is so much wrong-
and far more to come before long,
.....and I can't put any of it right.
NO! I can't put any of it right.
.....Oh! I can't put any of it right.

I've believed that I might have
made a few more differences
in the whole of my long life.
But I've even failed to nail
.....the absolute safety of me.
I've failed to nail
the near safety of anybody.
And I still live in fear
.....in this so-called land of the free.

*

All I've really had is tears-
.....tears in increasing quantities.
All I've really had is tears-
.....tears in limitless quantities.
Failing.
.....Failing.
..........Failing to find hope.
I didn't know how to cope with
lakes of heartbreaking loneliness.
I didn't know how to cope with
lakes of heartbreaking loneliness.

Oh I really need decent human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.
Oh I still need human company
but humans have no need of me.
..... I'm aching for honesty.

I really need decent human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.
I really need decent human company
but humans have no need of me.
..... I'm aching for honesty.

Oh I really need decent human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.
Oh I still need decent human company
but humans have no need of me.
..... I'm aching for honesty.

*

I still need decent human company
but humans have no need of me.
.....I'm aching for honesty.

I still need decent human company
but humans have no need of me.
.... I'm aching for honesty.

ACHING FOR HONESTY

I Liked You Better When I Didn’t Know You is an indie-pop, soul-leaning album built on sharp self-awareness, emotional honesty, and playful confidence. Blending dreamy pop textures, warm soulful grooves, and lightly psychedelic atmospheres, the album captures the moment when curiosity turns into clarity — and illusion gives way to truth.

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If It Was Real, I’d Know

Quiet Secret

Instrumental composed by me; vocals generated with Suno AI (Pro license).

Втома та роздуми (Suno adapted)

beautiful song i made while drunk with my best friends. free friend therapy forever.  #lesbiananthem

I want to put a baby inside you

I learned love with my jaw set tight
Learned quiet before my name
Learned hands don’t always mean comfort
They just repeat the same

They said this is how you stay safe
This is how you don’t fall apart
So I learned to draw the lines in people
The way they drew them in my heart

Now I pull the same thin thread
Through rooms I’m meant to keep warm
I don’t remember choosing my hands
I just remember the form

The lines grow wider every year
Until right and wrong dissolve
I don’t know what I’m doing anymore
I just know how to survive
I needed love, I needed help
But nothing ever came
So I learned control
Instead of names

I don’t wake up wanting damage
I wake up wanting still
But fear speaks faster than intention
And always gets the wheel

I hear myself from somewhere else
Watch my voice turn flat
There’s a part of me still asking
Is this really that?

The lines grow wider every year
Like cracks across a frame
I can’t see where it started
Or where to place the blame
I needed love, I needed help
I needed someone to stay
Instead I learned survival
In the worst possible way

Someone has to cut the thread
Before it tightens again
Not to punish, not to win
Just to stop the bend

If you’re standing on the outside
Don’t look away
Understanding isn’t mercy
But it’s how the cycle breaks

I am not what I repeat
I am what I never got
And if someone cuts the thread tonight
Maybe it finally stops

The Wrong

Alla tekster är mina. Musiken är producerad med AI.

All lyrics are my own. The music is produced with AI.

The Wrong

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